the beautiful mistake*

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

im fallin apart i guess? i dunno wat i wan.

ver n alan.

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havin an interview tml. sian.

today's gynae checkup was good.

havent been tokin to ver today.

n im missin him alot.

justme's unforbidden words at 10:19 PM

Monday, June 27, 2005

i will be takin out my braces in 6 of august.

had my birthday with the girls at marina..
teck,leon,jooe,louise,dc,yz,me,ver,ting,alex,jess,shin,sher.

thanks for the perfume! i really love perfume..
n gek n jaz for the bracelet!

alex, thanks for gettin the cheesecake! is damn nice!

went down to chinablack after that.. but ended up we went
ktv... didnt hang out too late.. coz i got gyna appt in the mornin
tml.. who knows.. i overslept at ver's hse!

so the whole of sat i jus sleep at ver's hse... n i will always
meet jaz n gek on sat i realise? jaz n ver seems to be friends more than
gek n i!

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went down to meet ver in the afternoon.. ended up.. sleepin again!
met them in the evenin.. n they gotten me another cake! thanks
wahaha..

send ver to the busstop.. headache.. paddy came to pick me..

at nite, my fnds came over with another cake! ah... fat liao!
but it was really sweet of them...alan was there too.. but
shall not say much.

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happy birthday to myself n jooe.

justme's unforbidden words at 8:22 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

finally watched initial d~ jay is damn cool. n somehow, he reminds
me of jaz! thats wat ver also agreed with me too...

will update more on my birthday with the girls later.. damn tired~

anywa, thanks sweeties! i love the perfume! i love the bracelet!
esp my sine doll n flower from my beloved one.

justme's unforbidden words at 11:52 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

initial d was full house like the WHOLE SPORE?!

sigh.

ver got someone sent 12roses over to my workplace this noon. no wonder
he jus didnt wan to hang down.. n i was still like, who could send
these flowers.. until i saw his name, i started cryin like dunno wat!

wat so funny was giap in the backgnd... they were like disturbin me~
but ya... even my friends there got very touched by wat he did for me..

was really moved by him.. really sweet..

wow lao~ cryin like dunno wat sia... n who knows.. he suddenly appear
infront of me after an hour's time..

n he gotten me the sine. (little apple doll) honestly, haha~ i dunno
how im supposed to react.. anywa, still.. i was naggin at him abt the
doll he bought! damn poor thing...

n the radio was playin this.. 'how could this happen to me.. i know
my mistake n stuff...'

but still he made me loved n appreciate him so much more...

anywa, im excited abt tml also.. with the girls!

justme's unforbidden words at 12:15 AM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

BATMAN BEGINS IS DAMN NICE! N IS 2HOURS N HALF!
i cried in the first part! ok.. damn dumb...

im missin ver so much now. n i tink he has x.factor in him
that made me think he is really attractive at times.. but of
coz, cannot let him know! otherwise his head will get really huge!

lovesick badly now.

justme's unforbidden words at 1:57 AM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

erm... i cant really remember wat happen. but ya..

i havin headache all the way~ n im feelin really lousy sia~

birthday once again. im so sian abt it.

justme's unforbidden words at 2:34 AM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

ok.. no one told me that we r goin out on fri.. ah. double sad.
anywa pple.. my hp is spoilt. if i dun reply ur sms or sometimes when ur
call n is off, PLEASE TRY AGAIN! most pro my hp auto shut down..

so ya..

ok.. met ver in the early afternoon to buy pressie for megan.. n alex called
to ask we all down to play pool... n is like, we rush like dunno wat... lucky
is near his hse anyway~

u know, i was kinda touched when ver gotten me a necklace.. esp after
how i treated him n plus the day b4 i picked up a fight with him.. really
touched lor.. though the necklace was kinda quite long ar!

met them.. ended up, they went to buy 4D?! no pool, but went down east
coast to cycle for an hour! wow lao.. almost fainted.. n wats worst was
to 'long pang' gek n jaz.. but ok lah.. ver took care of them.. ha!

waited for shin until wow lao~ but ok.. had a tok with alex n gek while
jaz n ver went for pool game... n sometimes, gek n i have the some tinkin
that we meet is for them to play pool together!! but it was a good chat..
i learned alot from alex..

left at ard 10 i guess? dunno who suggest to go alex hse to swim?! but it
was fun lah! we swan till almost 2am! had a long chat with ver in alex's
pool... n we were like, where's everyone... which they have already finished
bathin~

anywa, alex's sister quite chio!

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by the time we reached home, it was almost 3~ anywa, ver was partically sleep
tokin to himself the whole nite yesterday! guess he was too tired...

woke up at 1030am.. left together with his family to megan's birthday..
gosh~ got lost halfway! n a half an hour journey took like 45mins! obviously
ver n bro was throwin their temper...

his mum was introducin me to all their relatives! 'AYE! THIS ONE IS WX'S
GIRLFRIEND!' AYE~ XIAO PEI! COME HERE! SO N SO WANTS TO SEE U! HEY~ THAT
ONE IS WX GIRLFRIEND! erm... watever.

i wasnt comfortable lah.. esp that cousin of his! which everyone knows i hate
him! luckily ver gtg in like 30mins time..

reach home at 3pm.. saw like at least 300 motors on the road! wow! damn shuai!
anywa, im once again very tired.. havin headache like all the time.. eatin
panadols these few days which it isnt good!

ok.. hopefully i will be meetin the girls real soon..

anywa, HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!

justme's unforbidden words at 8:33 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

fri. headache. sad. no steamboat. constipation. mens!
wat can b worst? not goin out with the girls...

well, anywa, i will be stayin over at ver's hse till sun.

justme's unforbidden words at 11:32 PM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

audrey's bf is so romantic compared with mine.
im not comparin lah! but is really funny.

audrey's bf:
if u are the sun, i will be the moon that chases u always
if u are my 'dunno wat, i cant remember'
if u are the cow, i will be the field that fills ur stomach up.

n my ver...

ver:
if u are my sun, i will be sun tannin
if u are a fork, i will be ur spoon
if u are the egg, im the chicken

aye.. i got no comment. so i reply

me:
if im the sun, i will sunburnt u!
if im the fork, u will be the meat i poked!
if ur the chicken, i will deep fried u like wat those kfc chickens are!

but still.. is ok.. i still appreciate it hunny.

justme's unforbidden words at 10:48 PM

i havent seem yz n sher for almost 3wks sia! gosh.. lets faster meet
up soon k?!

anywa, it seems like there is something already goin on n i dunno abt it
n im sorted of dragged into it.. jus to let ur know that, im someone who
is the most heck care..

i dun wish to explain much if im malign.. n ya.. as ur know im someone who
is damn bor chup. i rather not lose anyone of ur if my fndship between ur
is goin to be the price we got to pay.

jus know, as long as i made the effort to still keep in contact with ur,
ur are still worthed it.

enuff said. i love ur alot still.

justme's unforbidden words at 9:08 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

girls.. lets go here..

justme's unforbidden words at 12:19 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

bad day.

to tink i was so excited to meet him after work.. who knows he
ruined it.

the reason he gave was like takin me as a retard..
for the first time i really felt so upset over it..

but is all over.. so is ok once again.

=)

justme's unforbidden words at 11:53 PM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

was being too unreasonable towards ver.. n for the first time, he
got really angry with me.. n i didnt know wat to do.. he complaint,
i apologise, case closed.

but still, it was so scary. even though he didnt scold me la..
felt so bad abt it.

went home with him.. bought some guys' stuff.. n im gald i managed
to cheer him up after that.. phew.. anywa, the cookin of maggie mee
process was funny lah..

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the whole day was wasted again at ver's hse again! all we do was slp
n slp~ ok, we did wake up for lunch.. but we went back to slp after that..
haha!

was fun disturbin him when he slps.. oh ya.. not forgettin wat his baby
niece did.. grab his nipple real hard n used a remote control to hit his
erm.. ya u know..

went to town for dinner.. n audrey told me something shockin.. n ya..

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went to work.. n ya.. audrey told us the whole story.. n ya.. we were
speculatin among ourselves.. but ya.. guess is a moment of greed lor..
n wats worst was alot of neighbourin shops came to ask wat happen yest..
n we jus lie thru'out...

wats worst was those sp students said wat someone robbed the books?!
like hello?!

honestly, our manager n all of us damn upset for him.. sometimes we
dun really know how serious it is till it actually happen to anyone close
to us.. esp when we are like family..

guess he is still in the police station.. gosh.. the amt of policemen who
came n wats worst.. handcuff.. n it actually scares us all..

monica wanted to cry.. our manager was jus tearin.. jus all of us lor..
really sad lah.. dunno how to explain.. jus hope he is fine lor..

justme's unforbidden words at 9:15 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

ver came over to meet me right after he booked out..

lim ask me out.. but cant.. meet ver instead.. n to tink alan asked
me out at that time too. sigh.. zhihao too. ver's bro too! ask me go
clubbin.. haha..

yap.. im tryin to drift apart from alan.. if i still wan to be with ver..

catch stupid starwars.. mayb i didnt watch part1 n 2 thats y? n it look
so 60's...

ver jus told me that the taxi uncle said i looked like malay.. n than
ang mo.. n said i looked pretty but too bad im not a model. haha funny..
n ver said he felt pressurize..

justme's unforbidden words at 1:36 AM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

went crazy over the mp3 zhen send to me... repeat til like dunno wat!

was wantin to go out with my fnds tonight.. but after realisin he will
be there. so i didnt go.. didnt dare to let ver know either.. jus say
i wasnt in the mood..

but anyway, he has ask me to go out to celebrate my bd. dunno yet. i
jus say see how it goes bah. i seriously need alot of time to forget
abt him.

ver is a wonderful chap. dun tink any guy is as kind as him. he gives
me lots of time. being so understandin. never forced, always compromise.
i love him so much.

sometimes is so hard to make a clear cut when ur emotionally att.
is never as easy as wat others say even though i know wat is my choice
is supposed to be.

im slowly detachin myself from alan.. despite the fact we been like this
for like almost a yr.. im tired. i guess he also.

n ver was never the 3rd party.

i miss him alot. cant wait to see him this mon! goin to stay over till tue..

justme's unforbidden words at 1:51 AM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

had a headache yesterday~ didnt managed to go out with the girls!
so shitty!

not forgettin the horrible incident that happen between me, ver n alan.
n ya lah.. ver n i tok alot. quite bad actually. but he still holds me
on. so ya.. ah dun tok abt it anymore.

struck between 2. im not 2timin by the way. no doubt i like alan. but
ver is the one i love.

but ok now.. we went back to our honey moonie period again. despite of
all these.. i still love ver like the same.

thanks zhen!

justme's unforbidden words at 3:49 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

im so happy is fri tml!

though the sad thing is ver is still inside.. but nvm.. will get
to see him this mon i hoped?

had a body full of bloody rashes! now i looked like im havin some kinda
of disease... n audrey was like, EEE.. u got STDs! u got AIDS!!

argh.

the girls have been tokin abt sex. from condoms to agruin abt when is the
danger zone.. wat else? alot of things i got no clue at all! n they jus
kept laughin at me when i asked them questions! n wat i got no common
sense! argh! but ok.. it was all fun!

anywa, my welfare at my part time was damn good.. i paid to do nothin.
i got money to shop for gorceries for food i like to eat. i jus take as
many drinks from the fridge i wan, i spent my time gossipin with the girls!
lookin at pretty girls.. n wats best is, now i get to take cab to n fro!
courtesy by my boss. n he is goin to bring us kids to ting tai feng!

oh.. the new ite guy who came over from attachment.. he used to work
at kfc! n guess wat? he ta bao a total 5large popcorns, a packet of fries,
large drink n alot of drumlets! wow lao! i gained 2kgs!

went to camp to send food to ver..

anywa, sometimes he does make me angry. n i seriously think he doesnt
know anything abt it.

ah. jus take it that at least my guy isnt a sweet talker. n he seriously
dun mean it.

oh.. not forgettin monica was sayin that her sis was called moniqiu..
monica = touch ur leg. moniqiu = touch ur hand. n her bro is will b
monitao (touch ur head)~ n her kid will b called monikacheng = touch ur butt.

lame.

n audrey.. pronouce as 'orr ji' black chicken.. n her sis will b 'orr ar'
black duck..

justme's unforbidden words at 11:43 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

so seriously lack of slp...

was thrown at the barazza.. n shane came to visit me! haha..
she still looks the same..

anyway, ver came to pick me up from work.. gosh.. was so bloody hot
when i see him! he wore sweater!?!?!?!?!

went to watch madasacar! so funny!! is so stupid! but is good!

ver's sis spotted us... n she went to pinch his butt~ it was so funny~
he was like, ahhh!~ than was like, I TOT WHO GO TOUCH MY BUTT!

anyway, who has this song?

eminem - mockin bird
gwen stefani - hollaback girl
hold on to the night by dunno who~
lovers n friends
Black Eyed Peas - Dun't Phunk With My Heart

justme's unforbidden words at 12:03 AM