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   Friday, April 29, 2005
gosh! everyone shld know i have 2 fndster acc?

pple i know n pple i dunno at all?! n i cant really be bothered abt
the 2nd acc.. n i went in today, ver's bro msg me! wahaha! damn funny..

cant wait to tell ver abt it..

-

shin... thanks.

hope i will be happy tml.



bad day. horrible one.

sometimes, is really nice having someone by ur side makin u laugh
when things starts to fall apart. i really appreciate him alot..
though i admit that i took him for granted at times..

ok.. wats new again? i got molest 2times in a row this mth. n mind u,
i was wearin those standard giodano black tee. n it wasnt even a Vneck..

ah watever.

met that boy like 7pm in town.. kinda miss his nonsense alot
though he always irritate me. he lost alot of weight.. as for me, only 2kg
lah! is goin to gain back really soon!

i seriously cant wait for this week to be over. i cant wait to see
my girls this weekend. i cant wait to see him this sun as well.



   Wednesday, April 27, 2005
countdown.
one more day.

haven really been hearing from him. n cant believe is goin to
take another 3weeks!

where's my playmate?!

wats worst was he is not cfm whether he will be out tml..
cant wait for this week to pass! my schedule is so tight!

dun even know i can make it this sat..



   Tuesday, April 26, 2005
haha~ is a rubbish quiz...

ate alot of icecream.. gosh.. a tub!

didnt really get to tok to ver today.. wouldnt be able to see him that
much also for these 3weeks.. 2am till 2pm.. he will be slpin from 2pm
till 2am...







Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake





You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.








Your Brain is 26.67% Female, 73.33% Male



You have a total boy brain

Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts

And while your emotions do sway you sometimes...

You never like to get feelings too involved





   Monday, April 25, 2005
let see where i stop...

workin was damn fun at teq place!

went to changi chalet for lifeng chalet.. while he is playin snooker with
his uncle..

came to pick me up at the mrt.. by the time we reach home was already 12..
went swimmin once we woke up.. gosh.. it was so sunny! n im tanned! well,
he is darker! swimmin sucks! he kept pushin me into the water! n i
seriously dunno how to flood!

went down to funan to get his 6630.. n that guy who serves us was damn lousy..
thank god hun didnt rush to get that 7610.. coz we managed to get the last
6630 at suntec! ok.. is a really nice phone.. *jealous* haha..

-
(sun)
met him up to collect his phone today.. ok... can see he is really happy..
went home to eat with him... n megan's really weird but hilarious action..
poutin her mouth...

had a fightin session with him..gosh.. now my whole body is achin! n i kept
hittin my head on the wall, on the pc.. n i got a bruise on my shoulder!
both of us are really rough..



   Friday, April 22, 2005
is a happy day today.

i get paid to do nothin. after which, i get to meet my laos fnds.
n after after which, i get to meet ver.



   Thursday, April 21, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM ANN!



had a quarrel with ver last nite. reckon is my fault. i pick up the fight.
the very first fight we have, n most of the time, is he givin in..
said alot of really mean stuff to him.. gosh.. come to tink abt it, no
wonder he was sayin it really hurts him alot..

no worries.. we r back to normal again.. guess i torture him enough..
msg, tons of miss calls thru'out the whole entire nite..



   Wednesday, April 20, 2005

*HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AH BOON!*



guess wat guys?! im damn amaze by my handphone! n im goin to promote it!

I DIP MY GD88 IN A CUP OF MILK! n it proves that my hp is so bloody water
resistant! so, who wants a challenge of dippin ur handphone in a cup of
water?!



i cant believe i came out with such horrible excuses jus to meet ver!
n guess wat, i cant really partor at this age.. reason being, im still young?
n i can never let my parents know that i went datin..

ya.. i know this seriously sound ridiculous.

anywa, jus came back from ver's place.. went down town to have our dinner!
ate like dunno wat!

dinner-
tons of chocolates
ice kacang
takopachi
shilin's eggroll?

today's breakfast-
toast bread (share)
ice milo (share)
pancake (share)
currypuff

but still, is alot! i haven digest from last nite dinner!

i gotten a nickname called mosquito? ver's buddies all call me wen zi??
ah~ watever~

didnt slp much last nite.. n when he sleeps, he is really in a coma!
i almost die when one of his arm suddenly come over rest on my neck!

-

ok.. will be gettin the nokia 6630 this sun.. got to check out the prices
ard b4 we get it on sun



   Monday, April 18, 2005
went to meet the ver after my work on fri.. i guess im really fierce to him..
first i told him, meet me at 8pm, than 730pm, than i suddenly call him say,
U MEET ME NOW!

n when he msg me i will meet u at 700pm after i reformat my com.. coz im
reformatin halfway.. n i msg him this.. whose more important? com or gf?
n haha! gf, i see u at 6pm.

met teq... walk ard with her.. than who knows after we part not long, i meet
meiyan! tok abt some issues with her.. n everyone all says im too kind hearted!
i shldnt even be feelin this way!

anywa think ver was quite poor thing.. he always carryin all my heavy stuff..
n im always that empty handed.. my 4really huge paperbags n my sch bag! he is
like my maid sia..

ok.. met the girls later at nite.. n headed down to pines.. singin n pool as
usual.. n jaz n ver were like so into themselves... n till jaz were sayin do it
with one cue.. ver really aim all the balls in n left only the black ball..

n me n gek.. was jus partically havin our nonsense there! dunno laughin at wat?!

went back like 1am plus.. was so sick liao.. n wat was so ironic was, we still
went ahead to play 4rounds!!

supposed to wake up in the mornin.. but ya.. slept till afternoon n headed for
my swimmin crash course lesson.. guess wat?! I KNOW HOW TO SWIM LIAO! erm..
at least i tink so! ver can really teach!



   Friday, April 15, 2005
ok.. im now in the office... somewhere at pacific tech centre..
didnt slp much last nite, due to someone who couldnt slp n we ended up chattin
till 530am! which i got to wake up in like half an hour time..

went to watch beauty shop last nite.. not bad.. damn nice.. RnBs n comedy..
tink i will be gettin the sound track.. lets just see how it goes first..
hunny treated me to ting tai feng last nite! it was real good! n guess who
we saw? that bung again!?

went to blush.. guess wat? im too big. i dunno to find that amusin or damn sad.

teq told me something quite saddenin.. gosh.. i felt like so heartbroken..
anywa, she said my ver DAMN YANDAO! n trust me, she said it in a really
excited manner? haha!

ok.. time is seriously really hard to pass now... i still got ard 3n1/2 hrs
time b4 i knocked off n meet teq in town.. n i cant used my cell as my batt
has gone weak..

hope i still can hear the last few words from my girls to tell me whether r we
goin out tonight b4 my cell dies on me...

cant wait to see my 'ah ta ji' later



   Wednesday, April 13, 2005
hmm.. ok.. im missin him.. n thats weird.. esp when i saw him jus
last nite?

argh~ food poisonin~ my ass is damn sore now!



drove down to international plaza.. parked down there, while jiefu
goes to the seminar n i took the mrt down to marina south~ if only i know
the way there, i will have drive down! cause i waited almost half an
hour on the bus!

met up with him for a while, went back to international plaza again,
drove back home.. yesh, i know is abit dumb.

there's a pimple INSIDE my eyelid.. argh! i dunno how the hell it got
in there~

y is there so many cows all ard spore recently?! i feel like stealin
them! but haha! obvious is too big for me to carry them home!!



   Monday, April 11, 2005
trying to get all the photo's i took with my girls...
but realise, none of them has it only ting! ah.. anyway,
i tink, i only can get it from zhen.... so.. ZHEN, COULD I PASS
U A CD N U HELP ME BURN?! WAHAHAHA! thanks!

my com is full of virus! woo~ spydoctor n stuff.. but wats worst..
the homepage is hacked!~ n i jus cant remove it.. n is so shitty..

sometimes i feel so irritated tokin to him.. hyan was tellin me some
stuff when she was at my hse.. mum also.. ah! i really dun wan to
tink abt it..

oh ya.. n this shin ar.. damn horrible... always steal her neighbour's
access!! haha~ everyone jus cant seem to tahan my msn nick!
'im mus be damn chio, coz thats wat everyone kept sayin!'

finally, ting tai feng this sat! wahaha! got everything planned nice
nice on sat i supposed?!

who has the song, run to me? PLEASE SEND TO ME!



ver wasnt feelin that well these few days.. cough, headache, flu,
leg problems... decided to give him a surprise.. didnt slp the
whole night after hangin up with him.. went online to
search those buses n location to his camp.. gosh! is so.. mus say is
something really difficult for me..

obviously someone lied to me sayin that he was in camp when i called!
by the time i saw him, he was walkin down! argh!

oh ya! not forgettin 2 of my friends came over to send me food! ha!
they bought my favourites! haha! happy happy! esp i was so hungry that nite!

anyway he brought me to eat this indian thingy.. which i never
even hear b4?! ha.. n the pple there were like choppin n choppin
like never endin?! wat was funny was, there was this guy who wore
formal wear doin those choppin stuff at the hawker centre?

weird.

went home, ate even more?! wats worst was, we ended up slpin after eatin?!
ya.. was late when i woke up.. n the horrible guy, once again, he went back
slpin.. i realised that i can sleep really well at his hse.. damn cosy..

was so tired changin the bus n waitin.. by the time i met hyan.. im was
almost half dead!

met him again in the evenin for dinner.. n i was almost fallin apart by
the time i reach home! ok.. will meet him on thurs i guess??

-

might be meetin xiao zhu on wed.. =)



   Saturday, April 09, 2005
hahaha.. ver stole his brother's stuff.. n he used it on me.. he damn cheeky.

went down town.. guess who i saw?! kurien! wat the f?! was like tokin
to ver halfway n i shouted, FUCK! I SAW MY EX! n wat is so funny was,
ver was rite infront sayin, where is ur ex?! where where?!

anyway, i didnt know wat i was hidin... but i will GO THERE AGAIN!

gosh.. im so bloody full! i ate old chang kee, ice cream, hokkien mee,
ice kacang, milo freeze! im gettin so bloody fat i swear! help!!

ver leave at 10pm.. waited for zhen they all to reach.. was tokin abt
that bung! even jean knew abt her sia! tok abt workin as an air stewardess..
now kinda tempted to try? though was kinda reluctant when some of my lecturers,
fnds was mentionin to me.. but haha.. tink of the pay?! i dun really
mind tryin if i become like nuts!! so skinny!

but anyway, is jus a tot.. haha! is rather beautiful...



   Thursday, April 07, 2005
michael was like, so pei, are u interested in that sweden guy?!
wahaha! to tink they were already like callin him brother in law?!
gawd!

drove down to town... n guess wat?! i was totally struck when comes
to parkin! was like shit! no one tot me how to park right hand parallel
parkin?! n i cant turn to the left!

shoppin at ps.. saw meitin! haha! bought my curtain like finally! n
ate alot! ice kacang, half of jie's fish bee hoon, in the car, i ate
2banana cakes, pokey.. ver's half auntie annie, char siew su, n durin
movies, i ate long john silver~

ah! i dun wan to tink abt it!~ fat fat...

watch the pacifier.. haha! so funny! n the girl was like tellin vin, y is
his boobs so big?! n he was like, those are not boobs! wahah! n this is the
questions i always ask ver till he cannot tahan!

-

did my manicure n pendicure.. =)



   Tuesday, April 05, 2005
AH! thank u ah zhen!

-

was almost half dead when we chatted till 8am n was dragged out
to meet him after that! gosh...

anywa, talk alot in msn, n boon was shocked by the way we communicate..
but ok.. i did see alot of improvement after that..

i bought a really unique coinpouch? is made of shell! nice nice..
bought hair clip yesterday too.. a pair of earrings.. n a green
tee he bought for me..

some funny shit happen in the cabbie when we were goin to his camp..
but ah.. nvm..



   Monday, April 04, 2005
mum was sayin this,
by the time u go over to brin him to the doctor, i believe ver is
already half dead.

n guess wat? he went to the doctor himself! haha~ suddenly i felt so
bad sia! so stayed at home with him in the afternoon.. n guess wat?!
i ended up fallin asleep with him!

but ok lah~ we went out to town~ n it was so quiet! sun nite.. saw cheryl~
ha! she gettin the apple dolls i was tellin her.. anywa, who knows, later
at nite.. we saw jooe n jay!

jooe! pls take care of urself k!

-

didnt manage to go sentosa this mornin.. rainin camels n elephants! to tink
i was so excited turnin black yesterday... was tellin shin, be prepared to
see the brown chocolate pei.

gosh.. im so fair now.. or rather.. im white.. n soon, i will be turnin
transparent...

hahaha! my brother'in'law was tellin me his officers said i was pretty..
like, they are so blind?!

ah! mutterin rubbish now~ okok.. better go meet that irritatin macho now~
ha!

oh ya zhen! i wan to get the i like that - chingy and are u happy now -
michelle branch.. i dunno u have it anot.. if u have can send to me?!
thank u pretty!



   Sunday, April 03, 2005
ok. pope's dead at 3.37am (singapore time) jus when i was
in the kitchen stealin some buns to eat...

thanks shin for that short chat.

ok.. mutterin nonsense now. didnt slp for the whole nite.. n
im leavin soon to 'collect' the boy to the doctor.

my *april wishlist*
- bake those blueberry muffins.
- go find some bloody job to do..
- ask ver to buy me that purse n a new necklace.
- ask ver to bring me go eat ting tai feng.
- go suntan myself at sentosa.
- hopefully watch more movies b4 prices shoot up in may.
- my temper management with ver.




shi wen bin - wang bu liao

i loved this song. somehow it made me tot of royston? coz of the horrible
2yrs i keep thinkin of him n stuff... nice memories though.. but im gald
is SO BLOODY OVER! n i dun even wan to be associate with him anymore sia!

ok. i miss that zi as well.. wonder why?


my new sunglasses!



bought alot yesterday.. earrings, pendent, white sunglass...
apple doll each cost $60. set $150. n im scare ver will get it
for me!

met my pretties like in such blur mode? was with ver at PS.. while
jooe,jess n alex was at heeren! haha..

is been such a long time i tok to jess.. nice nice.. waited the rest
to finish their movies.. gosh. i really love all my girls.. though i
felt quite distance from them..

went to look for my brother in law.. gosh.. is such a BAD PLACE TO CLUB!
REALLY BAD! n i was introduce to all those funny officers from other
countries? i cant even hear anything!

-

spread my flu to ver.. he is now gettin really sick..

breakfast is really good at his hse nearby...
toast bread, pancake, coffee. and when we are back to yishun..
2eggs, tea n toast bread again!

shit. im gettin bigger. slept all the way till 5pm! n dinner was
worst! noodles, cheeseballs, peanuts, soyabean milk, luncheon meat!

im really growin bigger!

so sad.. didnt get to meet my girls today.. too late notice..

got to bring him to the doctor tomolo.. ok gtg now..



   Friday, April 01, 2005
happy april fools day everyone!

ok.. the girls will be watchin the eye later... is such a comedy when i
watch it with ver jus on wed...

tokin abt him.. i almost wanted to break up with him yest nite.. had alot
of talk abt it..

ah.. lets not tok anymore..