the beautiful mistake*

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

the guitarist n the drummer in sch is like so WOW!
damn good! damn pro! though is a 2 person band...

cant really stand tj nowadays.. he has double meanins in this
sentence.. anyway, i saw this guy who wore an anime tight fit tee..
tanned, messy short hair, n he has a goatie!! my god! DAMN YANDAO LOR!
i didnt know 'dirty' lookin pple can look so gd lookin!!

what is piggy doin? wonder wat happen.. hope is wat zhen has said..
gosh, im bloody tired... shall go slp now.

justme's unforbidden words at 9:26 PM

gosh! im so bloody happy till i cant slp!

anyway... jus have a tok with piggy on msn.. got akinda fed up
with him... so burst out.. totally burst out. not goin to say much..

now im bothered abt rayn. shit.

justme's unforbidden words at 2:40 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

have you ever asked yourself this: "what is your dream?"

saw irene when i was goin home... she seems to grow taller n erm..
anywy.. she couldnt recongise me! to tink we been contactin each other
since she grad! she says i changed alot?

is that good or bad?

justme's unforbidden words at 9:49 PM

Monday, December 20, 2004

damn sad.

not becoz of rayn or piggy.

justme's unforbidden words at 9:02 PM

waitin for the dental really drive me nuts.... n that nurse was like
girl, u lost alot of weight ar.. keep it up.. u very pretty!

shit. i not used to compliments.. n i find it funny!

jenilyn called me! but is like super wrong timin to come out rite?!

quarrel with rayn. i DUN tink im NOT doin wat a gf shld do. im not
in any wrong.. gosh.. those questions, those fightin back.. over
same issue again. is jus a matter of time actually we break up.

anyway, went to meet with piggy.. n the place he gave is bloody wu loo
lah! stupid. ended up he got to come find me with he n his friends..
n im not beenin racist here.. but those indian bangla do scare me!
n while i was waitin for him, there was this america black came n say,
'how much?' like HELLO?!

dinner was like damn funny... those guys talk.. though is akinda
LOUD n CHOR LOR.. not used seein him tok this way! he kept takin those
dishes for me.. adjust my sleeve.. n etc.. we r behavin like an item.
from cab to bus? dumb.. shld not say so much. anyway, i was laughin
that he stole someone's OCS tee shirt... didnt knew he was a lieutenant~!

saw tj on my way home! haha.. he wan me to do some errands tomolo~
suddenly, he ask me abt the 'internal secrets' wow lao! somehow everyone
knows i know everything.. n they kept askin me knowin that i will not say..

justme's unforbidden words at 1:33 AM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

my dad jus threw my mum's antique typewriter.. n she is REALLY MAD AT HIM!..
heard it cost really ALOT! think u can buy a car with that! that is how
much it cost.. hmm.. i dun dare to get involved sia~

rayn called me.. i feel we are like old couples? i dunno? but ya..
anyway, will be meetin piggy tomolo for dinner after his match at farrer park?
happy! but after my dental in the evenin too...

im complicated huh?

zhen! i saw those greentea chocolates at cold storage sia!! gosh! im so
bloody more paisei!

went shoppin with mum jus now... n saw her fnd.. n she said that i look like
ang mo mixed?! watever lah.. im so used to it.. i already accepted the fact
i looked like mixed fruit punch...

justme's unforbidden words at 11:52 PM

didnt see paddy for 4 days!!

met up with zhen they all for dinner.. for a really short while..
wow lao.. that popiah i had really sucks lah! the chilli was too hot!

anyway, went down town today with mickey.. wow lao.. he is damn funny lor!
n all the jokes he told me abt zi during army days.. abt those face oil
n stuff... n his so near yet so far busstop... oh ya.. this driver damn
cute.. he was like, NEXT STOP, LUCKY PLAZA.. n some jokers were like,
OH! or OK! i seriously like hiao hiao guys sia.. haha.. saw so many jus now..

gosh.. im so full now! n i cant slp! too much dried longans, peanuts n
biscuit!! gosh! i tink i shall jus go for blood test lah!.. argh. hmpf.

goin to meet piggy on sun after my dental in the evenin.. n where the hell
is farrer park?

justme's unforbidden words at 2:21 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2004

ah.. help! is comin to xmas eve! n i need to lose more kgs? im so scare
that i need to that blood test! help! now i feel like cryin...

sad.

n wat worst is.. im still munchin!! aRGH!

no doubt, ah peks get attracted to me. im an ah pek killer.
(nuts, dun laugh! is not funny!) y isnt there cute lookin younger guys??!
hmpf.

supposely meetin kian in sp.. but than his lesson at 7pm..
called wf.. than dunno y tok until roy again?! my gawd!

i still cant find any greentea kitkats leh!! but zhen's dad found it sia!
wow lao... im feelin so bloody paisei lor.. n he bought me 2 packets!
is one really hard chocolate to find!! anyway zhen.. help me say thanks to
him again! coz IM REALLY PAISEI! to think i still ask u ask him help me go
japan to get it sia!!

piggy's havin a bad time now.. n im somehow affected..

justme's unforbidden words at 10:48 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSTON!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEQUILA!

piggy msn me yesterday... feelings came back.. argh.
i dunno. n i dun wan to know.

justme's unforbidden words at 10:15 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

giap's ex PE teacher passed away in N.Z.. at first tot it was a joke..
but than, who knows.. all newspaper n tv news..

anyway, im still bothered about wat rayn has told me. or rather, wat he said?
made me cry, n his way of apleasing seems weird? or wrong? i dunno?

10days to xmas. yaya!! i cant wait for the chalet, the games, the food?
meetin up my poly fnds, pressie exchange with the pretty bitches, photo
takin sessions? fun, beach, tons of fun, lastly, rayn.

im so excited! ahh!! oh ya! better lost at least 2kg so i can feast on xmas
eve!

ok.. mayb im pretendin to feel happy? hmm.. im not happy. not even a bit.

justme's unforbidden words at 11:36 PM

Monday, December 13, 2004

was late for work today! haha.. but surprisingly that it wasnt 'that busy?'
as in, it wasnt those constant thing?

rayn called me this evenin.. anyway, is really some cultural shock im havin lah..

ok.. goin to watch my tv! n shall slp early today...

justme's unforbidden words at 9:42 PM

yishun was like little indian sia!! dunno where they come from!

met up with qi,eddie n cat. as usual.. the couples are always so funny!
esp eddie.. was at nydc with qi n eddie n i saw elson!! such a coincidence!

anyway, nothin much to tok between us also lah.. but still, he is still
very suave! AH! haha~ was like botherin zhen to ask her to ask elson whether
he is good lookin anot.. buey tahan myself also! n elson did said he is
yandao lah! haha..

so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~ so shuai~
aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ im goin nuts abt his looks! meltin... meltin...

ok.. dun care me.. haha!!

left quite early.. 11am? coz both of us were also tired too.. hai~ tomolo sch
reopen!! gosh! 10hours of work!! 8 to 8!! i cant wait till next fri to come.

justme's unforbidden words at 1:10 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

i guess qi broke up with his gal.. jus had a small chat with him
on the phone.. he didnt say much.. but anyway, he wants to see me..
so will be meetin him after he closes his shop...

i guess is that motorbike again?! argh~ no choice. got to sit n bear
with it... thinkin shall i meet up with piggy for a while b4 i meet
qi? hmm.. not sure.. lets see how...

n he asked the same question again.. like AHH.. spare me lah~ but haha
he is still cute lah! so tml nite.. yap..

is 6am liao!! n im still awake! n zhen suddenly dunno go where? didnt
even say buai.. sigh.. UR RUDE ZHEN!! but nvm... i still love u alot!
*winks*

justme's unforbidden words at 6:04 AM

Saturday, December 11, 2004

saw peishan this mornin! had a small chat with her..
n i think i was kinda rude to her friend lah.. guess wasnt really
awake...

went ikea.. was like so bloody packed! bought alot of stuff!! shit!
supposed to save money... went to queentown shoppin center as well~
actually is like small orchard... i like that place... piggy was the
one who intro me there.. n it does make me tot of him..

ok.

was tokin with giap with his problems... n i realised that we both
are the same.. is whether u wan to listen to ur mind or follow your feelings.

ok.. got kinda angry when i heard some stories abt me.. though is like
so long.. still is like.. HELLO?! stop being so mcp lah!? sayin things that
IS NOT EVEN TRUE! thats wat pissed me off! gu niang! fuck.. wat the hell
did i see in him last time?! gosh! pls dun even say u know me!

my lovely bitches... dun mind, i would like to take a half day off from
your on xmas during the chalet..

first - meet rayn.
second - one of my fnd asked me to go over to her chalet. n i havent seen
her since she grad~ so i must go.
(but if i go on xmas eve.. than mayb i will b back earlier.)

justme's unforbidden words at 11:39 PM

is so bloody easy to gain weight! argh!

saw sharon au shootin a scene in town when i was goin down to meet the rest...

WOW LAO!! GO WATCH BLADE!! is a DAMN NICE SHOW!
hot babe, cool action, fantastic graphics...
though the ending abit profound lah~

qin broke my chinese instrument! argh~ will be out with feng tml..
n roy is so indecisive.. dunno he wants to meet us anot.. n
to think feng tot im dyin to meet him?! n he agrees to it~ not knowin that
i sms him sayin for wat?! like huh?! dyin to meet him?! jus offered to be
the middle guy passin msg only? n end up?.. miscommunication! the whole
plan was i n feng go meet up with him n his sis go shoppin at habourfront?
a kinda dumb huh? both of us were like, since he like dun care.. than we
dun meet lah! haha~

so told roy we will meet 'one' day~ if he wans.. he can organise n we will
meet up when we're free.. n 2 of us r goin ahead with our meetin tml.. he
can come if he wans lah.. i jus hate smsin..~

justme's unforbidden words at 3:31 AM

Thursday, December 09, 2004

GOSH! i gained 2 kgs!! wat the ARGH!

now i do see the effect of the chocolates!!

justme's unforbidden words at 8:42 PM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

kinda miss zi.

justme's unforbidden words at 8:47 PM

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

work is like so blur today?!

came to work, immediately i went bank with giap n mickey..
did some writin.. did some PR job.. tok to that 'ti-ko' uncle..
before i knew anything, i was asked to go down orchard with monica...
was particularly shoppin in there! OG to far east! haha~ my earring~
sigh~ cant be found again!

i was approached by some new faces thingy again... haha!! so funny!
was ask to go down to parklane tml.. but nah!

not forgettin, i saw ah hong! so happy sia!

gosh! my appetite is so huge recently!!! i gained a kg!! n im so
ARGH! i ate like dunno how many oreas today, curry puff, salmon
sandwich, chocolates, TONS OF BISCUITS!!!

n i haven tok abt meals... im sad...

justme's unforbidden words at 8:53 PM

Monday, December 06, 2004

lucky i didnt put much hope in it.. anyway, i will meet him on xmas.
whether anot to bring him to the chalet is another thing.
he was like tellin me lets get another puppy together.. like huh?
i havent gotten over with becky.. ah.. watever..

suddenly i felt so embarrassed when rayn told me, by rite his chinese is
supposed to be worst than mine! but it so happen that; by left, my
chinese idioms isnt that fantastic ar?~

i totally understand how the girls feel when their bf is in camp.
but for me, is more than a month thing without seein him! n when i told
him im startin to forget how u looked.. he was like, y other girls will
say im gd lookin n u will jus say im ugly? like, i was stumped by this..
mayb i jus find him normal?

can see he is tryin to maintain. im also tryin not to see other pple as well.
im givin him till end of this yr to make time for me. hopefully i wouldnt
regret lettin go of piggy.

i already lost count on the days we never call or sms.

enough of sad things...

sorted of scolded jac yesterday.. i wonder wat makes me blow up?!
but he is bloody sticky lah! n kapo? he wants to know everything i did
today, calls me everynite to tok, n complaint when i no time which i LIED!
like hello?! who are u?! i dun even tok to my girls for hours on the
fone?!

was tokin to bon till like 6am?! n i couldnt wake up for my dental
today!! my gosh! bon told me something yesterday.. though it kinda shocked
me but than ya.. u already have a gf n is case closed. he is still my
wonderful brother! =)

jie n jiefu came to find me at sp today!! n it jus so happen im not there!
haha~ anyway, im so tired now.. tomolo is goin to be a long day... n is
argh!

justme's unforbidden words at 11:39 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

You are 37% Cancer

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

erm... thats wat i thought... mayb im not a cancerian...

but, Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac...

wahaha.. only for that, im a cancerian!

You are 73% Sagittarius

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

----

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

ok.. this is true.. when i started bloggin.. it was a handwritten diary to a
cyber thing...

justme's unforbidden words at 6:32 PM

jus came back from fisherman village... paddy fetch me.. n is like 430am
now.. gosh.. headache.. guess havent been slpin much!

was there since like 9+? to 3am? stroll in the park with them.. chat n stuff..
nice.. funny, lame, gossip... i love them a whole lot. i dunno wats me
without them..

alex's fortune tellin was kinda accurate like wat many said..

i cant find my green tea chocolate sia! wow lao! angry n disappointed leh!
argh..

rayn called me this mornin.. said something abt takin leave this mon or tue?
better dun expect too much... but still, im happy when he called..
havent tok to piggy for many days liao.. startin to let him go... i dunno
wat im doin.. but ya..

justme's unforbidden words at 4:35 AM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

workin was damn fun yesterday!

first was becoz giap n monica came! the whole place was more lively~
second was the 2 blackouts we had.
third was the shoppin of biscuits i had with monica. (for textbook season)
forth was the settlin of of textbook n stuff.. HEADACHE!
fifth was my cousin came to entertain me?

anyway, my day passed really fast yesterday lah..

my appetite is really good recently! *feelin so guilty now*
n i dun dare to step on the weighin machine! i ate TONS of CHOCOLATES!
ICE CREAM, WAFFLES WITH MORE ICE CREAM! TONS of TIBITS! gosh!
eating biscuits like never ending!

n as im typin.. i jus finished another packet of m&m peanuts! n yesterday
i dropped so many m&m in alex's car!

ya.. she n jean came to pick me up after work at sp... was forcin everyone
to go carrefour with me to get that particular chocolate! GOSH! im fat liao.

tokin abt that.. alex will be comin to pick me up now to go meet the rest..
n i shall jus go IMM get that green tea chocolate! only that place got sell!
argh! all my chocolate only sold at certain places.. so dumb...

anyway, saw min n mandy, hilmann n ys at cuppage yest! hilmann became so
small size! thats wat NS can do to u! anyway, ktv last nite ended at 245am..
paddy came to pick me up.. n was like, this kinda place very complex one
leh! but i guess he shld be used to it lah..

rayn called me this mornin..lets jus hope he can really get leave this mon huh?

alex yesterday was like tellin me that he can be really busy esp at this time..
account closin n stuff.. so must understand... argh! like i know? now im like
so unreasonable! sian...

oh ya! tokin abt that! we saw david yeo n mark lee yesterday! n it was like
so funny! gek was infront of me n when she saw mark, she was like ahh~ like
she saw some scary thing.. n after that, i saw him too~ n i dunno y i gave
that reaction too! gosh.. he must be feelin damn sad... but seriously, we
dun mean that!

another thing was jean, sher, gek, alex n me was in the toilet.. than suddenly
alot of pple... so i said, ALEX! we go first wait for u outside~ n all the
girls in the toilet started staring at alex! haha!! buey tahan...

okok! guess alex is comin any moment... gtg! update again today!

justme's unforbidden words at 2:55 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

becky gone for a week.. n i miss him. i love u darling. n somehow, is
scary in a way.. coz i and my mum feel his presence esp in the kitchen..
n is like, i tot it was only me.. till my mum say something like do u
feel that becky is starin at u?

or maybe we are too used to his presence.. i dunno..

i gave up on my diet.. n at the moment.. im scare of the blood test
that i may have to take! damn.

hopefully that 6kg can 'smoke' thru huh?!

jus hang down the phone with nuts.. that girl ar.. haha~ still that
pattern.. but of coz.. is our tok.. not goin to say it out here n
let pple judged her or me~...

i hope sly win sia! though taufik is better in vocal~
the result is goin to be out in like 1 min time!!

ok.. taufik won~ sigh. giap said, must be u never voted rite?! n
my dad, who win ar?! huh?! y that malay guy?! erm.. suddenly he sounded
like so racist sia.. but is not lah..

anyway, got some idol thingy sms..
Q: who will be the happiest if sly get out?
A: tweety bird...

erm.. watever!

didnt tok to piggy for almost 2 days. sigh. got to think thru alot.

n i decided not to say so much here too. is my stuff. n i dunno who is
reading also...

went thru rayn web n stuff too.. im also thinkin thru alot..

anyway, dun think so much liao... will be meetin royston this sat afternoon..
his bd thingy lah..

im excited to go work tomolo! giap is comin back! well.. at least one part
timer is back! is not that bored anymore!

justme's unforbidden words at 11:50 PM

argh.

justme's unforbidden words at 10:17 PM

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

justme's unforbidden words at 1:30 AM