the beautiful mistake*
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
peishan called me this afternoon... told me that aye! u also know
huimin ar?! i was like... huh?! she also know gek!? small world sia!
anyway, rayn called me.. quarrel as usual. n he tot i was goin out
with piggy again.. n was like WHO U GOIN OUT THIS TIME! he is seriously
mad at me.. said im unreasonable! like watever! like i care?! n before
i could bring up the issue, he is busy again! wat account closing..
meetin... n he made me tink of my attachment company!! when all the
companies are damn busy at this time closin their accounts...
business man huh? erm.. i mean, ya.. he is lah..
justme's unforbidden words at 9:31 PM
Monday, November 29, 2004
tok to darlin diana on msn.. like the past, we got no secrets with
one another.. told her alot of things.. she also tink that i shld give
rayn up..
met up with piggy at yck.. so irritating! waited for him in the mrt
for like 45mins while he go do his final theory thing.. so stupid!
anyway.. rayn called while i was waitin.. i told him str8 that im
dating piggy now since ur not free.. n suddenly.. i feel so.. tok for
very long..
wats worst? i became soft again.. i decided to give him a chance?!
gosh! stab me! anyay, he was really angry when he heard i was with
piggy..
now that i tot abt it.. it was his fault ar? y does it seem like im
in the wrong to let someone else date me?
watever. u may not like my doings, but im the one who is goin to be
in this r/s.
bus trip was hectic lah! he n his nonsense n stuff...
went to queenway to eat his bah gu teh.. than was laughin at this
auntie who wore a purplish lipstick!! ahh! n he was tellin me that
this is nothin compared to last time he wore this bright blue tee
n red jeans out b4!! wow lao..
some guy took my photo.. n i dunno what is it for.. n im now so paranoid..
went around to look for his jersey for the whole team.. $18.. cheap ar?
went back n get my herb stuff... toapayoh changes alot sia!! serious!!
i miss that whole area...
think wf is havin some problems... jalat.. i dunno how to help too..
anyway, i cant wait for xmas week.. with all the girls.. though i will be late.
rayn is startin to feel anxious... he calls to tell me his location..
justme's unforbidden words at 9:18 PM
rayn havin alot of personal attacks from some girl from jurong jc..
he doesnt know abt me knowin his online diary..
plus we are havin so much problems too.. so it kinda adds to the burden?
he told me b4 that he rejected this girl that sort of mistaken when he
only took her as a friend.. n he uses really harsh words on her? n she
sorted of doin some backstabbin behind him? honestly.. he can be really
blunt to pple he dun like.. esp given that he's an ABC.. the command of
words he used may be really nasty i must say..
but of coz, he doesnt do that to me even though we quarrel till really badly!
ok.. side track..
anyway, now wat the girl's story was
-
asking for an online gal's number when u were already pursueing another gal...
being able to have a change of hearts quicker den lightning does...
speaking so many lies tt im reali impressed by ur power.. ha... rayn rayn..
i pity u.. the blabering lips who lets out those lies... those lips tt ur mind
is unable to control..
And as for masks and mutliple identities.. U r the true Master...
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is one whole list lah.. but i wouldnt paste all in as is not something
very proud of lah..
of coz.. i dun really care abt he askin girls' number online.. n plus
when i knew him, i knew he was abit too friendly? so, i wouldnt be
surprise that girls will mistaken.
but that doesnt mean i encourage such behaviour too.. no matter wat..
he is still my bf 'at the moment'.
piggy's not meetin me today.. he had a heat stroke from yesterday's game..
sad sia.. guess i shld go to work today... as for tues.. i dun even know
if rayn is goin to call me today. as long as i dun get to see him face to face,
i jus cant break the news to him n i jus cant continue my r/s with piggy.
n continue to be a living widow! ahaha~ nah!
2timing is jus not my kind of style.
justme's unforbidden words at 6:24 AM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
i tink im one jalat shit in my affairs of the heart.. sorry.. but
i jus need to bitch it out..
zhen.. remember that girl i showed u with zi? we all say they looked
alike and stuff? wat cousins n stuff...
they are an item.
n he didnt tell me he was attached.. he was shocked when i told him i was.
anyway, is jus miscommunication.. sometimes i do wonder will we worked out?
but hey! is over lah! jus that bit of tots here n there.. nothin serious..
called royston just now.. wow lao. damn formal like dunno wat! now it seem
like im the organiser! wat the ?! hmm...
so will be out on the 5th...
that idiot piggy haven check the timin tomolo.. argh..
justme's unforbidden words at 5:37 PM
perlini silver's givin me 10%.. shall go there n have a look...
had a long chat with jooe in msn.. nice n relax. shall not say wat
we said over here.
really tot abt it. i hoped i didnt make the wrong move. infact, anyone
who is in a r/s will know that is always hard to decide as feelings is
involved..
told jac abt it.. he didnt like rayn.. i dunno y?! infact, alot of pple
dun like rayn.. lets see how things goes...
i like rayn. no doubt abt it. but i like piggy much more.
maybe to rayn, im jus a vase? an item? or perhaps a bet between him
n his friends? ok.. maybe i tink too much.. but seriously.. i dun feel
secure with him. i dunno wat is he doin n stuff.. is jus the beginin of
a r/s... jus a week n is so dramatic?! i havent seen him since last week!
total calls add up less than 15mins i guess?
the things he said.. overconfident. underestimated. ego. chavnistic.
so wrong. so wrong.
waitin to burst out this tues. hopefully i wouldnt be soft..
hopefully things worked out between me n piggy ar? i prayed.
is 5am plus now.. got to wake piggy up in 3 hours time.. he n his
soccer match..
justme's unforbidden words at 5:14 AM
ever since im att.. piggy is the one there.
rayn is over confident huh?
piggy's having match tomolo at orchard in the mornin! n he still
ask whetherin i wan to go chinablack with him with his friends?!
oh ya.. i totally forgot abt qin askin me to go clubbin today!
but ya.. is ok lah.. been sleepin since my jie left! haha~ i really
can sleep!!
bought a mask mixture for nearly $200!! gosh! but no choice lah..
it does works really well.. n wats wrong with pple havin moustache?!
like i wan it?! even piggy was like, SEE I TOLD U! n ur baldin as well
dun say i never warned u!! wat shit..
wf ask me go canoein tml... hmm... anyway, was like wantin to ask royston
out since his bd comin n plus we never met up for years?.. but than.. i
dunno how to ask lah!
justme's unforbidden words at 1:34 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
the whole house is so empty. i miss becky. went str8 to the kitchen
when i reach back from home than i realised that aye, he's no longer here..
even when jus now, i got myself a salmon sandwich, i was like tearin the
side of the bread n shoutin for his name.. hmm.. shit.. better not cry!
CONTROL MY TEARS!! ok.. nuff said..
had an argument with rayn last nite.. or rather, he thinks im unreasonable..
watever.. ok lah.. he didnt said that.. but i felt that way.. n seriously,
he is one WORKAHOLIC! i cant find him! n at first was so happy that weekend
is comin.. but seem like, work! stayin in dad's office! analyse!
pple attached, i also attached. y mine like so dramatic? im definately not
happy about it. n will break it up to him once i see him face to face.
-
met up with piggy for a short while yesterday.. i feel so much happier with
him.. fightin, arguin, serious toks, blue blacks, misunderstandings..
but still, i felt much more relax..
there is so much i cant say it here. but anyway, he's really sweet.. all the
sms n stuff.. even when IM JUS BESIDE HIM!
he was like, i looked really pale n shacked.. puffy eyes n cold.. (yesterday
was rainin really badly)
think his mum saw me.. but ya... not sure..
im scared that he might be the next zi esp now there alittle misunderstand..
pray nothin happens!
will be out with him on mon to go check out all the spects in tp.. movie n
fried toufu.. oh ya.. my heart shaped earrin is gone! need to go buy too!
fri nite.. im sad.
justme's unforbidden words at 10:15 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
becky passed away this mornin.
745am. 25/11/2004
he couldnt even make it till end of the week. well, at least he
die in the house. not put to slp.
eye damn swollen. headache. cryin since dunno wat time. 3am?
hyan.. thanks for that call. seriously. though i scare u. u called
while i was cryin the most jalat time lah~
pau.. thanks for returnin the call too.
n many pple who saw my msn nick.
dun tink im meetin my piggy in the afternoon too.
rayn? nowhere to be found.
justme's unforbidden words at 9:30 AM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
someone tot i was malay! like AGAIN?! n he was tryin to make
friends with me~ scary!!
im feelin lousy.
someone told me. as long as ur not married, anyone still have the chance.
so does that make us a legal 2timers?
im too weak in a way. i must say. argh!
becky is given till the end of the week, n he will be put to sleep.
wats worst?
everyone in my family are crying.
justme's unforbidden words at 9:31 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
i found his blog.. n thats wat he wrote b4 he started datin me. 4/11
--
Untutored by science, a stranger to fear
And rude as the rocks, where my infancy grew
One image alone, o my bosom was dear
Need i say, my sweet darling
That was central in you.
But it could not be love,
For what passion could dwell in the heart of a child?
But, still i percieve a feeling the same
Whilst i was a boy, on the crag covered wukde
One image alone to my bosom imprest.
The mystery: To whom my heart belongs. Her name is Tin. Now stop bothering me! Its not anyone else but her that my heart belongs!
---
(this was where the pple commented)
Tin? Ha, Tin's juz a name u made up frm ur imagination.
Ahha.. Fool us not, rayn. For would you reveal ur lover's name after all ur effort trying to protect her.
babe, you have alot of enemies!
-
Since you're into someone else, would it not be better if you keep a distance from other ladies? should you not stop your actions of wanting any other ladies to think that you do feel for them? its not good to wear a mask, someday, it might be unveiled, and the lady truly disappointed of the rayn she knows.
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Its been kinda long since i last read ur entries...can't really keep up with the discussion that's going on...but u sounded kinda torn....why do u luv her, yet u would rather watch her from afar?...wouldn't it be better if u can be the one who takes care of her??...juz give both of u a chance....
Anyway....juz hope tat u r doing fine.... take care....
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I care not for false accusations. And accuse me if you wish...
I really cant be bothered. [Rayn]
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try talking to her abt it...even if u all dun end up together...at least she knew that u felt bad...and it'll give her closure...but if u really feel that she's happier w/o u...then maybe u shouldn't dwell on it anymore...set the both of u free......
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after readin.. im more confused.
justme's unforbidden words at 9:28 PM
com spoilt! wat else can took me so long rite?!
fri
went to audrey's bd dinner at bboss.. ok ar.. we shared alot of stuff!
really alot!! anyway, is between us lah.. i tok to her abt my stuff too..
all the secrets sharin.. haha
went to walk ard at PS.. n guess wat? i bought like 6 pairs of earrings!!
pau was like, U GOT SO MANY EARRINGS LIAO!! STILL BUY! ya.. i also dunno
how many pairs sia!!
settled at starbucks.. jus chitchat all the way.. n pau,audrey n weiling
went home first.. n i ended up tokin to shin n her friend finn?! dunno how
u spell.. but was tokin abt my r/s pro too.. i jus feel so ARGH! wat the
hell am i doin sia?!
oh! zi msg me sweet dreams n gd nite. haha! =)
sat
didnt go gym with wf... he needs to go down redhill to teach.. anyway,
i still got down to yck for badminton session with gek, jess, yz, shin n alex..
didnt play much too... was chattin with piggy the whole time.. tok abt
my r/s too.. i guess im havin shit now!
went down to bishan.. n saw mrs siau lor!! n were so bloody excited!! tok
for so long!!
left right after an hour... need to rush home for my brother in laws' sis
weddin dinner~? n gek was like, she will regret~ haha~ coz she same age as me?
haha~ jalat la gek..
jie is so pretty.. those kinda pregnant mother look? i dunno? dinner ended
like 1100plus! gosh! n was so late in meetin rayn.. but anyway, ya.. long
story n im attach with him. dunno whether i made the rite choice. can see he
loves me alot. ok.. alot of pple is like sayin me.. i also dunno! argh!
met amin at the hawker opps OG!! haha! he works there sia! anyway, guess
alot of pple cant understand his slang! his an ABC (america born chinese)
n there was this part really funny.. he was sayin, im goin to level 2 the
restroom.. n my friend was like he goin to the restaurant at this time?! 2am?
haha~ his slang damn jalat lah...
incredible was funny!! with sebes,riez,(2friends),tuck,derek,hockie,sean,jeff,
linyuan,me,rayn n bryan..
oh ya, saw shin n friends! shin.. now u saw him liao ar? ur the first sia..
oh ya.. ur my ex! remember?! hahah~
reach home like 8am+?! tired like dunno wat! had scoldings from my parents?
like huh?! im always not at home?
sun
i slept the bloody whole day!
mon
ok watever.. say i 2time or wat. im was out with piggy the whole day! totally
enjoyin myself. i startin to hate myself. fuck. im tryin not to fall.
think i got to tok to rayn again. jus when such shit happens.. another 3 pple
came in?! wat the fuck!
well, at least rayn knows piggy's existance n vice verse..
i seriously didnt put any fresh flowers in my room recently.
i hate myself.
saw miss foo today! n his boy company?! i dunno who? but some metrosexual?
good lah! haha~ anyway, they saw me with piggy.. n ya.. watever.
qi msg me today! =) my yandao kia. but watever! he's my past!
tok to piggy at nite as usual. he told me lots of stuff. n i really
dunno wat to do. as i know i didnt lead him. at the moment, i will got
to settle with rayn.
better slp now lah.. tml got to work. since rayn not meetin me. he's
never free.
..::|| dun envy me, i have my problems too. ||::..
justme's unforbidden words at 3:46 AM
Friday, November 19, 2004
justme's unforbidden words at 9:24 AM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
i been playin minesweeper with feng ever since dunno when? n im been
winnin since dunno when too... ahhh~ *grab hair*
(im definately not tryin to hao lian or anything like that!)
just sian...
*im feelin horribly jealous with that 'lovely girl'.
justme's unforbidden words at 3:16 AM
Monday, November 15, 2004
hibernate the whole day today.
i cant believe it.
whole body achin from last sat.
zi n who-is-she? sigh. watever!
didnt go out with zhen they all..
sendin files to jooe..
hope my lousy mood will go away soon.
justme's unforbidden words at 10:11 PM
holy shit!
tokin to feng n zhen on msn now... tokin abt almost the same thing...
let not mention n stuff like that...
n was tokin abt this poet that never fails to say a poem everyday..
this time he said,
singers n writers always tell about how to fall in love get hurt..
y didnt they teach us how to fall out of love..
tell me how not to fall in love with u..
jus went we were tokin abt it.... n is like 3am plus?!
n this happen...
my love for u was never temporany..
i miss u dearie..
good nite.
WAHAHA!!! funny sia!! okok.. is mean.. sorry!!
lets all not mention.. ask me if u wan to know..
not forgettin.. qi is gettin more yandao! my gawd!!
justme's unforbidden words at 3:11 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
went to tanglin cc for badminton... n zhen told me some things... shall not
mention in here... anyway, had really fierce match with jean~ n now, my own
body ache LIKE MAD!...
not forgettin.. there is this guy who look like zi..
n i told zhen that qi became more yandao!! n im admirin him so much like
an idol thingy!! shit.. now i sound like im so guy crazy!~ im not!! i
jus miss my ex n tot abt him!! thats all!!
after which.. i n jean went to geylang first.. got abit lost down there..
so went to yong he to eat.. n gek,ting,alex,yz,sher came after that..
guess wat? after eatin... we went to this place jus next store for frog
porridge!! eeeee... ok.. they all loved it! except me n zhen! we didnt eat..
n GUESS WAT AGAIN?! we went down cafe cartel at bishan for more food!!
cheesecake again! pancake, icecream, waffle!!! all the 3hours of badminton
session is futile...
watch shutter.. haha~ she was like squeezin into my seat! n i squeezin into
zhen's seat!! n is like 3 pple sittin on 2 seats!! n there was one part she
scream so loud... she jus got to scare me everytime!! (n we shall not mention
who is the SHE AR?~ )
oh ya.. guess wat? i cant believe i did such a shit! i walked from bishan to amk!!
when i jus wanted to try my luck to see whether the 851 bus is still available?!
oh ya.. not forgetting i saw lifeng too n her new boy!!
----
went with feng n yting to the esplanade for the concert... saw mingji!! yguo,
peilin.. n cant believe they cant recongise me!!! sad... say i changed..
anyway, my whole body achin like dunno wat sia!! pain pain~ haha~ feng was
like, y u so many calls?! n best part.. he wanted to help me pick up! haha..
bought ALOT OF THINGS AT CARReFOUR!!
i like this ig heaven pillow case.. (gay n lesbian) CAN ANYONE GET IT FOR
XMAS PRESENT?!
anyway, was tokin abt guys' dressing.. n wearin pink n stuff... n feng was
like wow.. u do know how to look at guys... n i was tokin abt i like clean
lookin guys n abit metrosexual n stuff like that.. n he says no wonder u
like royston.. GOSH! haha~ n suddenly i tot abt pau tellin me that he got
outbreak... n to think i was thinkin of askin him to go facial with me
one day!
but i still tink zi is much more metrosexual?
oh ya.. saw joey again!
justme's unforbidden words at 12:05 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
shin's party last nite... i realised i ate alot of cabbage!! it was good!
the cabbage n the tofu!! wow kao! heaven!!!
ok.. somehow, i seem to be tokin more to her family than she herself!! n
her parents were so funny!! keep askin me in those serious tone whether i
ate any slimming pills!!
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was so late for work today! but nvm lah! haha.. like wats new?! guess wat?
qi msg me.. ok lah.. was happy... but not as happy when i received zi's one..
alex really blur!! she like never use her computer b4.. anyway, HI THERE!
dun spread my blog add k!!
jean came to sp to so called pick me up lah.. laugh like dunno wat in the bus
she tok so loud sia! n i jus realised that she knew shane too!! my gosh!
small world.. all connected!! scary!
had dinner at mos.. ok lah.. my teeth is really hurtin like mad!! jus so
sian.. ok lah.. didnt go monks.. went home instead with jooe n jessica...
haha! but all thanks to jooe, i got a free ride home from jay! gee!
thanks chio bu!
ok... rayn ask me have i given any tots... n im FREAKIN SCARE LAH!
n piggy jus irritated me.. argh! but it was all fun.. so ok! haha
im shagged.. goin badminton session tomolo in the afternoon...
justme's unforbidden words at 1:12 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
was so late for appt today! haha~ n i was on the phone like dunno how
many hours with piggy?! oh ya.. not forgettin i saw joey!! haha!
oh ya, dr tan was like sayin hopefully half a yr i can remove... haha
n he so sweet! ask me whether things like im late... haha~
ok.. some serious shit happen today... but wat rayn did was really
scary! he is so agressive!! n he kept wantin to ask me was it a one
sided or mutual thing! im gald my nokia phone was out of batt!
wf didnt go for is exam today!! cant believe it!! he fake mc...
met up with zhen n shin... shin ate salad sia! my gosh! anyway, went
to check out tat shop.. honestly.. zi told me was good.. but than it stinks lah!
so i didnt get it~ he is good with all these health products but for
this, its jus ..... not my type?!
hmm.. i do miss him.. but nvm!~
had dinner with zhen's dad n sis~ haha~ at ting tai feng? not sure.. but
is not bad.. we all didnt eat alot but we r so full!!! at least, i finish
my own soup! haha~
saw cherie!! my gosh! she changed till so womanly sia! so chio.. she have
a perm at the end of her hair.. not bad... but she like cant remember me!
but ya.. was havin cheesecake with zhen~ gosh! fat!! but cant resist~
think im really goin to go everywhere with zhen to try out cheesecake!
n we r goin to try next mon!!
-----
was havin a really serious bad flu the whole day! the skin at my nose
sort of tore? anyway, zi msg me!! im so happy!! though is jus a forward
msg.. but still im happy!
was tokin to piggy whole day.. n rayn was scary.. even giap who was
beside me heard abt it was like sayin mayb i have to be crude..jus say
but still.. ahh.. dun say liao...
becky is really seriously ill... he vomits, diarrhoea.. n he been sleepin
the whole day! will be bringin him to the doc tomolo...
justme's unforbidden words at 8:57 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
the mornin call that donn gave me was like so early.. n cant believe he
jus went back to slp after that n was so late for his appt..
went to feng hse like 10am?! n he was like, aye, only a mth never see u
n u lose so much weight? was like askin abt my r/s pro... sigh.. sian..
we went shoppin at cold storage!! gosh! the last time i did such a slow
shoppin was like i was still with roy?! wahaha! we will be like so kapo..
slowly... one by one compared n things like that~ it was fun lah! i almost
forgot such activites i used to have!
his hse was so peaceful.. white, quiet, windy, wood? the typical buddhism
hse? i dunno? but it was nice.. i fell asleep so soundly in his room! n li came
like 3pm!! n again~ i missed the badminton session with the girls again!~
haha~ i tink li has a really nice 'hu ya' (tiger teeth? something like sher)
n the way he smiles was so sweet n cute! but IM NOT INTO HIM! besides he's att!
he has a weird concept with me.. he thinks im those guai guai.. n he get so
shock when i tell him that i go club too.. n to think he frequents mm too!
n when we were tokin abt derek.. he was like tellin me that derek tot i went to
ka jiao him.. gosh!! derek ar.. classmate for like 3yrs.. n he really tot i so
bo liao~ still tell li dun worry, he will scold me!!~ haha!! wat shit!
is li who wanted to borrow my instrument lor! anyway, heard alot of garang
things abt him.. funny! n we saw some really girly gays that is flirtin..
n li was like, suddenly SHOUTIN really loud beside me, AYE YOUR DAMN GAY LEH!
as in REALLY SHOUTIN! like those any moment, there will be a fight goin on?!
feng was amaze by my appetite! he was like, u fastin ar? haha!! tokin abt that..
went to the pasa malam.. n bought a pair of shoes for $25!! honestly.. i still
the white one was nicer.. but everyone say black.. hmm.. i kinda regret.. but nvm
saw zhang wei too!! n haha! he tot feng was my bf!! wat the?!!
anyway, theres quite alot of funny things that i cant blog in here.. dun think
pple will accept..
feng was readin my sms n wanted to reply all stupid msgs i got! he also cannot
tahan! haha~ but i chose to ignore.. n yest he tells me something so serious..
but sadly, y zi didnt know.. sigh.. dun think liao..
will be meetin li again this thurs.. hope he wouldnt spoilt my darling!
was chattin with donn like usual at nite.. n he was so funny! n he sang the
lamp chop song!
this is the song that doesnt end;
it jus go on and on my way;
some pple, started singin it not knowin wat it was;
n aoeuryohuuhgejkgnkb....... ( x infinite )
since they say it doesnt end...
i ate so much today!! a box of dried longans!! so sweet! n a whole lot
of black chicken n tonic soup! n lots of water.. n now.. i can hardly
move... i tink im goin to weight myself now...
ahhh!! okok.. i shall stop eatin now. oh ya.. felt like trainin up
my abs!! n i need help~ there is only a line in the center.. feng
n i r goin to the gym everyday to train after his exam..
n pls.. i mus lose somemore weight.. otherwise.. MY DOC WAN TO TAKE MY BLOOD
AGAIN!! n im bloody scare! eeeeeeeee!!!
oh ya.. heard this.
dun you think huang na has a come f*** me face look?
MY GOSH! the poor girl is already dead lah~ give her a break..
justme's unforbidden words at 6:56 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
gosh!! im lendin my instrument to feng's junior.. n who knows..
it turns out to be dereka's BUDDY SIA!! wow kao...
tell me how small this world is...
n i tink i seriously scare him... the way i tok to him was like
10 yrs long time no see friend?!
n wat he told wf was like, he thinks im very friendly!
n i thinks, he is damn polite to say anything much!
justme's unforbidden words at 11:28 PM
justme's unforbidden words at 10:12 PM
ok.. after hearin so much funny things that giap told me...
im so determine to buy myself a mask thingy n pamper myself?
coz of that really huge pimple i have on my forehead!!!
but im interested in my own citispa's mask than the one i saw..
black clay... some jap brand n is damn ex!!! coz is SO SMALL! n is $31!!
really small like the size of 2 lipsticks struck together! n my
face is huge!
anyway, shin 21st bd was like so kanna cheated! but it was fun lah!
i looked forward on the comin 11 at her house... hope that she invited
the tunnel singer!! haha! of coz, got her to go giordano to get discount
for me!
didnt go chinablack...
i cant tag my own tagger?!
anywya, thanks nuts! thanks este!
n audrey.. ur mad! im havin headache!! n is definately not a good experience!
esp things that got to do with feelings...
n my fnd is driving me crazy... AH!! he is payin alittle too much attention
on me!! n im irritated!
PPLE, DUN BOTHER TO MSG ME! anything call me!! coz my sms spoilt!! in a way,
im gald! at least it gives me the excuse of not being able to msg...
spore idol is like gettin draggy... n i jus cant stand daphne n leandra..
justme's unforbidden words at 10:05 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
justme's unforbidden words at 9:57 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
bad.. really bad... giap kept askin me wat happen between us..
n i dun even know how to say... but i can see he very concern lah..
was like nvm.. dun upset..
n annie was like didnt know wat happen to us both? was practically like
quarrellin outside coz i dun wan to tell, n he wan me to say..
oh ya.. sorry pple.. to those i was on the phone with.. i jus
threw my temper.. i really didnt mean it.. dunno wat happen also..
been quarrellin with alot of pple... guess in that case, mayb
i shall go for a while tml...
giap took a quiz on my sex appeal part.. haha! stupid shit! n there was
this question abt waist n hip ratio? n he jus insist to count n stuff!
argh! i scored 84! haha!! funny! as for him.. 82 but he fell into the
pussy cat category?! haha~ n for the first time, he was like CB!! n
i was so stunned that he said that! haha..
if only all these sms was from u.
justme's unforbidden words at 9:37 PM
wat the fuck!!
now im really bloody shocked! now the friend that i have known for 2yrs tell
me he is serious abt goin after me..
fuck! wat kinda shit am i getting?! one after another?! i really cannot take
it!!! im definately not proud... but i dunno where did all this shit come
from!! n this time is MY FRIEND! ah wat the....
seriously... zi is not qi.. i dun think i can get over him that fast..
there is no way.. n now, im avoidin him...
ahh... mus faster get over it.
justme's unforbidden words at 2:07 AM
Monday, November 01, 2004
i miss him alot.
anyway, not forgettin abt this stupid shit! i had my first road block
check sia!!
justme's unforbidden words at 10:29 PM
is over between us. n i cry like dunno wat?!
cant believe i cried it worst off than qi.. haha!
but im ok again. haha! i can laugh now! though the inside emotions
jus doesnt tally~ but i know im ok!
tok to him on msn jus now. now, im starting to think i hate pple
workin in the front line!~ lying thru their teeth sia... mayb not
lyin lah.. jus that the way they tok..
ok.. i was said that im pampered, mayb abit spoilt(this one i add myself)
n im not those strong n independent girls... GOSH! someone better
tell me the truth b4 i jump down the building! am i really those girly
girls?!
someone! SHOOT ME WITH THE TRUTH! n after readin ALL my testimonials
i realised, no one actually said i was strong n independent... is time to
reflect on myself!
mayb im takin it bad..
com says:
i know u r taking this pretty hard... but we can always be friends
erm... ya rite... like it helps? i dun wan to even be friends with u now!~
coz u make my eyes so bloody swell like dunno wat!
justme's unforbidden words at 2:16 PM
