the beautiful mistake*
Sunday, October 31, 2004
my eyes are so bloody swollen now!
when things r bad, everything seems to jus dun come ur way~
i quarrel really bad with my sis. im been like so sucky for the
whole day, tolerate, tolerate... till i dunno y jus explode..
ok.. i jus msg him. i dunno is it correct. mayb i shldnt.. oh shit!
ah.. heck lah. ah.. now i felt so degrading.. fuck.
c'mon~ jus msg me a yes or no reply.. ah.. mayb i shldnt even send
huh?!
shit.. it jus makes me wan to cry even more~
justme's unforbidden words at 9:09 PM
zhen sorry to scare u.
justme's unforbidden words at 8:40 PM
I WAN TO JUS BREAK DOWN IN TEARS NOW!
big mistake. a huge one. to think i feel more jalat than i am with qi.
he shldnt have. i shldnt have. now is all screwed up!
ah fuck. watever. my sis is irritatin me, my parents r irritatin me.
n now my weighin scale is irritatin me.
ok.. watever. im tryin to cheer up. but it seems like i cant. i seriously
need to be alone now.
justme's unforbidden words at 3:41 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
i jus dun understand wat happen.
within a day and so much shit happens. n im not happy now.
im affected now.
i want to cry for i dunno why? sort of to let it all out?
i shall not say much here. i dunno who else is readin.
pple, jus dun ask me so much questions. if i want to say, i will
say. dun even console me in my tag. i dun wan to think abt it.
dun sms me. i seriously need a break. dun even bother to ask me am i ok.
i dun wan pple to irritate. dun bother to ask yz.. i didnt tell her
anything.
i believe u all know when one need a break, they seriously need it.
n i seriously need it. dun even say anything. take it as nothin happen.
justme's unforbidden words at 11:10 PM
will be goin out later in the wee hours.. like, wats new?! goin
over to myan's chalet.. she celebratin her bd a week early..
didnt go for badminton... i woke up at 4pm!! wow lao! thats amazing!
rainin like dunno wat sia...
my mouth feel so naked at the back? like so empty?! but my gum still
hurts abit..
justme's unforbidden words at 8:46 PM
had a gum surgery today! it was so sudden?! n doc say i no need to
brush teeth for 2 days!! WAHAHAH! of coz, i was given our stuff to
take over?!
it was hell lah! n i was like bittin the cotton for about 3hrs? wantin
to change the cotton so much? n who knows, i took out, blood started
GUSHIN OUT! n i was so lost?! got to faster dump the new cotton in,
best part, i cant feel the wound?! coz half face was numb?! anyway,
when i took out my finger, it was covered with blood! n alex was like,
FIRST TIME?! so serious to me, u need tissue anot?! n stupid jean was
like, eee!! dun show me! im scare of blood!... argh~
oh ya, not forgettin, today alot of pple said i lost weight! haha~ damn
happy~ the nurse, the doc, the supplier n zhen they all.. though not alot..
but im happy..
zi was so ...... ok, honestly, it was bad.. i didnt had a chance.. coz,
i cant even tok properly! face was swollen! but im still happy with him.
in a way, both of us r confused?! after the whole thing was like, i went
monks n he went chinablack.. n tml, he will be in m'sia n i will be in hougang!
there is really no way to tok...
i like the turtle at cineleisure! i realy like it alot...
ok, i need to lose more weight! lets all do it together with me!
if i can lose 5kg in a month, i can do it again this month too!
justme's unforbidden words at 4:11 AM
Friday, October 29, 2004
was readin some magazine today... i tink is shape? anyway,
they say if u wan to snack, eat kit kat among all chocolates!
n cheeze among all tibits!!~ of coz i cant remember all lah!
*zhen, paisei for all the trouble.
workin with giap was like !!! we went to HR go up n down.. to some
bushes area?! n suddenly rainin! wow!! n he kept irritatin me with this
ezlink card sound in the bus...
some haiyu pinyin lesson... might have some mistakes..
auntie n giap ALWAYS laugh at my chinese!! first was the 'tang tou'(soup),
'tang' (candy), n calculator was the best! i said
'suan pang?!' (abacus?!) it was a mistake lah!! n was sayin is called
'ji sua ji'.. n giap was sayin loudly! yesh! chicken count chicken..
n fishball, i said it as language? i wan to eat 'yu yuen'! i realised
i do have problems in my pronoucin.. how come no one ever correct me b4?!
n right after them, it was zi's turn to suan me! n 'za ji' (stunts)..
i was like, wat 'za ji' (fried chicken?!) ah... watever! but must say,
this was the most ultimate!
ok.. dun wan to say much abt certain issues.. lets see how it goes.
anyway, qin cut her fringe n she looked so chio out of the sudden! is like
u can never match her with such word?! she belongs to the cute cute one?
maybe jess n shin should start to cut short fringe liao!
justme's unforbidden words at 2:26 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
sometimes.. i really feel like strugglin him!
u dun know whether u should feel angry, pissed off, sad or guilty?!
n when he starts to do n say stupid things again.. u will be like
ah! nevermind...
anyway, he is bein such an idiot! he insists we go eat pasta mania?!
n i was like, yes! smart! i believe u will eat?! u eat can liao!
i will squat outside wait! n he knows i cant bite for nuts! n plus,
he n giap r from the same bunch of friends.. i will never believe
he will indulge in high carbo stuff!
is like, they r the ones who made me so health conscious! low sugar,
high protein, fibre, calcium~ n zi was like makin it worst by sayin
tutu kuey is made of coconut powder! n when u r feelin so guilty,
he got to rub it in sayin i finished the whole pack of skittles!
like, WATEVER! ARGH!
ok.. pple.. some health knowledge~ those under 25, DRINK MORE MILK!
u still can absorb!! 800g of calcium everyday intake.. (2cups)
2000 of calories per day meanin ard 500g of carbo? (i tink wrong?!)
if u think u eat alot of food n ur fat~ dun worry, food dun store till
3 days later.. so exercise to get rid! (haha~ like i go time to do huh?!)
never underestimate tibits n junk food!! (like who really cares?!)
esp herbal tea sia!! wow lao! (go for the bitter ones!)
ok.. hope it helps? for pple who dyin to lose weight~
my birth control pills r finishin~ n im dread of goin back to get somemore!
plus, i DUN feel that im becomin more feminine ar!~ i dun feel that my hormos
are increasin?! felt like askin my sis to get it for me at pharmacy.. also
dunno they have anot..
friday watchin ladder49.. n i seriously dunno y he so excited for?!
im wan to watch code46.. like very nice.. but like not out yet?!
for like the fifth time this month, someone said, u must be more confident!
like, WAT THE?! wat thing??! *blur*
ah.. i cant stand pple who assume things... when i reply in english,
doesnt mean u have to say, OH, U NOT CHINESE AR?! n starts speakin in
english... n ask whether im mixed?! wat am i to u?! do i look like some
kind of fruit juice to you?! ahh.. watever! im goin to pretend im mixed
from now on!
i was kinda shocked that zi actually pay such attention. kinda touched
n impressed.. to think he actually went to find out..
ok.. workin with giap tml... goin to be fun lah! is goin 5am now! shit!
better go slp...
justme's unforbidden words at 5:05 AM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
i jus hate this lah. argh!
justme's unforbidden words at 9:54 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
lousy day...
zhen.. sorry for forcin u to listen to my bitchings lah! i think
i really complex alot of things
first was last nite chat with zi.. it was bad enough liao...
but we did tok abt it jus now. guess is ok bah?
aiya.. i dun wan to think so much... will tok face to face soon..
zhen! help me dl sunyanzi's 'he ping' if im not wrong.. hee..
if cannot, i will ask zi help me dl than send to u..
im quite amazin by myself..
- a packet of milk
- a packet of soya bean
- a packet of chrysanthemum tea
- a packet of super rings
- a biscuit
- a couple of red dates...
the whole day!! im like fastin sia... actually no lah.. becoz my
braces cut my gums.. n yesterday i was like spittin blood!! n is
all 'dislocated'?? so i cant tok properly.. hai~
justme's unforbidden words at 8:49 PM
had a really great fun today with zhen... though is only the 2 of us..
though it was really a lousy day to start with!! was like, cold, rainin,
mornin, bad hair day, bad jeans that is like droppin? n that modellin
agency guy who kept brainwashin me to go for photo shootin today?! n i
was like, NOT INTERESTED! plus the combo of zhen overslept, n the stupid
cabby driver?! wow...
n the funny part was like, zhen n zi msg me at the same time, with almost
the same meanin...2 different things..
zhen: later in the cab dun scold the uncle... kept ur temper down sort of
thing.. (coz is his fault! he dun even know where is ica buildin?!)
zi: CONTROL UR EMOTIONS!
haha~ my temper really that bad ar? OH YA! not forgettin abt the stupid
butterflies that drove me mad!!!
*anyway zhen.. i wasnt angry abt u being late lah! so dun think so much!
was really in the mess when u saw me! n the jeans was irritatin lah~
anyway, went we reached golden mall... it was so bloody funny!! is like
2young girls? (considered the type of clothes we wear?) n ALL THE AH PEKS
were like lookin at us?! n honestly.. i dunno how i actually got the courage
to get the tickets!! n zhen was like, huh? they never sell food ar? (popcorn
i supposed?!) anyway, the auntie who take our tickets was like, LAI LAI,
WO LAI KANG~ SHUI BIAN CHUO... (come come, let me see, anyhow sit..)
n she was like so friendly lah! n we like so paisei...
oh ya.. we watchin RA shows lah.. ZHEN!! PLS KEEP THAT TICKET!! n my first
time is given to u liao!! ok.. that cinema super old!! wow.. must bring the
rest go next time!! ok... quite a number of sex scene.. better than the blue
iguana!~ anyway, there was this part quite funny.. this guy was so innocent,
n he was suckin the girl's breast for like i dunno? few hours? n she said this,
r u goin to be like this for the whole nite? is goin to get blister soon!
n worst was like, he poked into the wrong hole! haha~ funny sia!
went to find zhen's black noodles... n the small thailand was like SO THAILAND!
anyway, took a cab down to OG lah.. n guess how much i spent?! $158!!!
2 jeans
1 tee
1 sunglass
1 loreal dunno wat thing?
2 watches
wow lao.. but the jeans really must get lah.. coz it was partically
droppin even though of the belt thingy... even zhen who was behind me was
like, wow~ ur jean really very loose.. anyway, changed it on the spot..
so HAHA! happy!
went to eat at the hawker.. coz finally found zhen's black noodle!
shop n shop... n cheese cake tastin again! haha! i tink is becomin my new
hobby~ at least, im enjoyin it.. but must share in big group... really
full in a way.. chat with zhen like dunno wat.. tok alot of stuff..
all the r/s things..
at least she knows wat she wants now.. me? let see how it goes on fri
first.. n zhen knows my secret between the 2 of us.. though i did
ponder whether to tell u lah! but ya.. dun say lah..
=
haha.. that stupid guy is climbin hill at this hour?! my gosh! he is
always doin stupid things like that...
justme's unforbidden words at 12:38 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
im finally back after like a week plus?!
my com was like crashed?! hardware pro? spent like $99! n hyan got
to come down so many times to help me reformat my pc? anyway, yz's
birthday photos ALL GONE! mean girls... ALL GONE! mp3.. ALL GONE!
n i believe.. i got to get all from yz!! so zhen.. prepared k?!
haha~ sorry lah~
alot of things happened recently too.. but than, cant really remember
all..
oh ya, not forgettin abt being approach by some modellin agency.. n it
was shit funny lah! was laughin like mad...
my mp3 is so spolit?! n is less than a month? or 2 month?
your dick.. jooe's joke.. n the guy at secret.. haha.. vanilla as banana?!
wat the?!
zhen.. nvm.. we love u the same! who cares abt other pple?!
wat else? oh ya.. qi msg me tellin me to take care n things like that..
n i dunno wat came over me.. was actually feelin sad n things like that..
n i had a quarrel with zi actually becoz of that..
but watever.. qi is already the past.. jus dun disturb me otherwise
is even worst being as friends as well... as for my future.. i do
look forward with zi actually.. lets jus see how things goes k?
for the 1st time, im so open with my r/s... guess too many things happen..
im quite tired actually...
sheilla! if u r seein this... are we invited to ur house for some
festival thingy?! haha..
xmas.. whose hse? still decidin...
goin out with zhen tomolo... my jeans is like droppin like nobody's business!
though not alot.. but is irritatin me! n belt doesnt help that much ar?
justme's unforbidden words at 11:28 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
oh ya! forgot abt the bitchin of spore idol!!! im so gald jerry is out!
ahh.. now is chris or daphne!! jus go away lah!! irritatin...
jalat.. im like so mean...
ok.. me n my ex are gettin better in a way... we r friends now.. the way he
tok n stuff like that.. i actually still miss him now.. weird.. cannot
be soft.. anyway, he knows that there is another guy..
as for me n my rapper haha! he damn cute lah.. n im really attitude
towards him... coz he really stupid in tokin lah... haha.. n yest i
was quarrellin with him at 4am?! n suddenly his fnd who is drivin the
car was like, aye! wear ur seat belt! police!!
n guess wat?! he was like, I GOT LAH! n his fnd was like, paisei lah!
ur chest too big?! n he was like ya lah! ya lah! i got big nei nei lah..
n it jus come out so suddenly that we jus burst out laughin like dunno wat!
n it was those quarrellin n irritated type of conversation...
lets jus take things slowly... in a way, im scare in relationship..
n i wonder y? honestly, im not scare of gettin hurt.. haha! think royston
really trained me till so tough sia! haha...
n i felt bad to jac thou..
oh ya!! diana's att... n i dunno who is he lah~ haha... but still
happy for her lah!
anyway, dental today.. n my jaws are achin again!!! wow kao!! was like runnin
in the rain... n rapper was like, u lousy lah! abit of exercise u so tired
liao... shit him sia...
i got a spring coil in my braces!! n is so amazin!!
went to funan to get that $6 hub.. wow lao! left 3!! lucky.. n i saw gu-zhang~
(aunty's husband) n he CANT RECONGISE ME AT ALL!! to tink im like so hyper?!
n he was like steppin back when he sees me kept goin forward?! was like,
UNCLE! how r u?! than he was like smilin n question marks all over his face
n say ok ar.. im fine.. n i said, u dunno who am i ar? he was like, who r u?!
*faint* only half a year never meet?!
he tot i was some kind of girls who go ard tokin to ah peks n cheat their money!
haha!! ok.. thats funny~ n he was like, u slim down alot.. actually.. i didnt!
hai~ sad... even if slim down, face is still same wat!
anyway, saw gugu later on downstairs... she also dun recongise me!! she was like
if u didnt call me, i wouldnt know u!! sad sia...
haha.. some girl said i was well-endowed today!! like, wat the?!
mornin call for that rapper... jus becoz his alarm clock no batt.. n
like he cannot use his hp?!
justme's unforbidden words at 2:54 AM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
though we broke up like this wk.. but still.. is ur birthday lah!
yest was so fun!! but the trip to bishan was hell!! met myan, min,
hong n janet! im so damn happy!! took lovergety.. though the printin
isnt that nice.. but is still ok!! haha~
took a cab down with min to arab st... but cant find zhen they all lah!
ended up dunno where... anyway, told them more abt wat happen between me
n him.. but seriously, can see im so over.. n lets pray abt 'maths' k?!
*smiles*
the smokin thing isnt that nice leh? ok lah? monks after that...
i jus love ka'jiaoin alex at times... n that corolla uncle?! haha~ was like
bio'in them~
the joke abt elson n jean at sentosa was funny lah! me n gek primary sch
story also.. we even tok abt our sex fantasy!! all the different places..
haha! oh ya.. tokin abt that.. i lifted up my tee yest at work to ask audrey
was there any blue black behind my back.. it jus happen like that? n honestly,
i didnt think alot?! erm... honestly, the auntie n audrey was like WAT U DOIN?!
haha!! think i shocked them!! anyway, the guys were not nearby or wat..
so... ok.. i dunno how to say.. nvm..
n i seriously had a great laugh at 'qi mong' (that mole at my armpit...)
all thanks to gek!! but it was really funny lah!!
sher, we love u alot! ALOT ALOT N ALOT!!! at least i love u alot!!
*huggies*
was so tired after dancin.. infact, was SO HUNGRY!! i guess
was the pills side effects.. wanted to go have prata.. but than, that
particular group of bengs were really scaring us!! REALLY!!
so took a cab down to newton.. ate hokkien mee, carrot cake n prawn soup!
thats all!! haha!! is like so incredible... n that group of pple behind
us was so funny!! was like whose bag?! n his action was funny lah!! but
shin somehow tk it so serious?
*paisei guys.. didnt know i was speakin so loud till gek told me! n
ur had to listen to my conversation sia..
took nightrider home.. ended up arguin with him thru out the journey!!
gosh!! infact, was givin him attitude the whole day lah~
=======
ya.. slept like dunno wat.. couldnt even moved out of the bed!! n that
pig said this.. everytime i wan to tan myself, the sun always got to tell
me to go fair. i was like? haha! it actually took me some time to understand
it!
tok till like 3hours?! in the half sleep mode.. n continued sleepin till
630pm!!! wow.. really shagged.. must be the pills' problem!! (haha~ push all
the blame to the pills!!)
wanted to go exercisin with zhen they all.. but then, really tired sia..
didnt even go out with my jie they all today.. that is how shagged i was!
i lost 1.5kg!! wow!! how can that be?! im eatin like dunno wat?! supper,
junks, biscuits... but nvm lah!! need to lose them anyway.. jus dun wan to
take blood test!!
anyway, victoria is gettin married~ wow!! another fast one...
tml got dental... n i dun even know!! wat the hell!!!
justme's unforbidden words at 9:02 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
workin was damn fun today!! esp with giap around! forever so much
nonsense!! tj wasnt here.. n i couldnt help nuts check it out..
anyway, giap's best fnd also want to work too~
tokin abt that.. there was this really RUDE AUNTIE that COUGH IN MY
FACE! wow!! $@(@&@(#%!($! F HER!!
oh ya.. giap's buddy.. ok fine! both of them.. one thru phone, one
rite in front of me.. suanin me like nobody's business!! n giap was like
intro, praisin n alot of stuff.. ok.. i admit i do enjoy his company..
but not now lah.. im struck with alot of shit now...
anyway... im worried abt my hp bills now... the amount of sms n callings?!
of ya.. giap calculated n he damn funny!! he was like countin who earn the
most.. n was like, AUDREY TOP THE CHART! she got $20?! haha!! shit.. thats
so lame..
*thanks este!! i love u as much too really! but dun worry.. im super
happy now.. think abt the stress i have with him.. now is all over~
jill... dun be upset k.. *huggies*
spore idols suck today!! everyone was SO LOUSY!! n when sly was tokin to dick
lee.. he reminds me of royston! i dunno y?! the pattern.. that taufic (dunno how
to spell; that malay guy) wow lao! first time i notice him!! he done really
well!! n when wil daphne n jerry be out?! ahh...
im so scare sly will be out leh!! gosh!! since david is out, ANYTHING IS
POSSIBLE!! n mornin madness was so funny with him around!! he was like
im david yeo AH YO? n he goes, YO AH YO, YO AH YO~
suddenly alot of things happens... shit.. i got alot of lying to do!!
n i have so many shit to clean for others!! wat the hell?! sigh.. ok lah..
rather than they all get in trouble!~
is goin to be a long day tomolo!!!
had a fight with him on the phone!! wow lao! cant stand it anymore!!
n with gira.. the feelin is so strong.. shit.. is not the time to fall huh?!
justme's unforbidden words at 2:31 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
*nuts, thanks. n u know i love u alot! (though u always provoke me lah!)
my diet didnt work for me recently.. i wonder y.. im so scare of
another round of blood test sia~ n that stupid birth control pills
that i have to take becoz i lack of female homos? n i tink is givin me
side effects...
- gettin irritated easily.. (mayb becoz is due to my breakup as well lah~)
- i seems really dehydrated.. (lips r crackin like snake's skin!)
- im like a HUNGRY GHOST that jus got release out?! (wats worst is that,
after a couple of bites, im so full like i had ate a cow for my meal!)
- i get nauseous (not becoz im pregnant..)
he is behavin really nice n gentlemen like the 1st time i got to know him..
somehow, i dun tink he get it that is really over? ah.. let him be.. no time
for his sweet toks... haha, but i dun deny that i do miss him actually..
i got to know one of neo's army friends.. tink he damn funny sia! we got
so much things to tok!! he is jus like another nuts~ always suanin like dunno
wat~ got once, he was tokin to me like askin some kopitiam auntie to clear
table! he will use that ah beng pattern n say, AYE AH'LOW AH'LOW
(means, hello hello?) alot of nonsense lah~ n wat the hot water from the
bathin thing..
oh ya! i suddenly tot of the topic we were tokin abt.. some tongue piercin
n i tot it was cool? n he was like, i got big tongue! n it got linked to
the white chicks show!! wow lao! both of us was like laughin like dunno wat!
(those who watch white chicks will understand how gross it was!)
he is jus another version of tuck... another pattern like nuts..
anyway guys, DO WATCH WHITE CHICKS! is goin to end soon! is really funny!!
is funnier than hot chicks!! n the director is from scary movie!! n scary
movie3 was equally funny like dunno wat! those really 'hardcore?' comedy i
mus say~
jenilyn wrote me a testimonial.. n is so scary!! though it took me awhile to
really understand wat it actually means...
justme's unforbidden words at 4:50 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
happen to watch the jean yip show...
wow lao?! who watch it?! lynn n ernest~ wow lao!! i cry like dunno wat!!!
even the MC (she qi and zheng rong) also cry lor!! so bloody touchin!!
when will i find this type of guy!? wow lao...
(erm.. i meant it in a positive way~)
she lost 10kgs in 2 mths.. wow~ n really can see difference lor! my god!
i also wan to join the program sia!! tokin abt that.. jus when i hao lian'ly
tell zhen i finally reach the 5 digit.. i went back to 6 digit again!!~
shit..
as usual, he called like nobody business... im so scare to pick up my
phone nowadays... so irritated..
justme's unforbidden words at 8:45 PM
webcam was fun! was so retarded... haha! n of coz, quality conversation..
msn sucks big time today!
*jooe~ thanks! thanks for all the encouragin words! but seriously,
im really alrite.. dun get scare by my replies haha.. i love u alot as well!!
as usual.. he msges is like never ending~ calls that never stop..
abit irritated in a way.. sigh. wat for? u already lost me.
drivin was funny today~ the instructor is tokin abit weird today.. he
seem to miss me alot today.. was like, after u go liao, i wouldnt see u
anymore.. was like, ar...
didnt really benefit from today circuit today.. n i have jac's supervisor
today~ checkin on me thru out my entire day.. he is aggressive isnt it?
i pray everything goes smoothly for me tomolo.. i cant take anymore stress!
justme's unforbidden words at 1:47 AM
Monday, October 11, 2004
ok.. im feeling worst!
is much worst than i tot.
shit.
zhen where r u now?
justme's unforbidden words at 1:29 PM
sigh.
shall not talk abt it..
im so upset that i jus slept almost the whole day.. i suddenly remember
i didnt eat also.. ok.. mayb only 2 uncle toby..
*zhen thanks for the everyting! as in jus being there for me is
already more than enough..
haha.. but im ok.. at least is better than yesterday... yesterday was total
heart scattered.. that feeling of dunno how to handle~ now im jus having
alittle PMS.. haha.. but overall, im ok..
n his msgs n calls are useless.. ah! jus go away! i kinda hate u now.
dun make me hate u.. i dun wan it to be that case.
not to mention abt jac.. my gosh! im terrifield of him.. he is so
agressive?! i dunno wat word i can use on this guy sia!
ok.. alex will bookin hotel at dunno where? will be goin.. everyone is
upset.. we all wan to get drunk there! haha.. hopefully i wouldnt cry,
hopefully is jus normal drinkin n i will jus sit down there n sleep till
next day.. hopefully i will not vomit, hopefully my hangover will
not be that bad.. hopefully the emotion torture will lessen for me.
now i do feel like cryin.. when everything is so quiet now.
justme's unforbidden words at 4:56 AM
zhen.. i know y u didnt hear the erhu.. coz it was actually the
saxophone!! (ok..dunno how to spell..)
justme's unforbidden words at 4:28 AM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
cant believe i lost to a bloody blonde skinny drug addict lookin
YOUNG ah lian with tons of split ends on her head! not forgettin, i
cant stand her childish ah lian language!
wats wrong with him?! wat a fling?! dun tell me anymore mushy stuff..
dun try to coax me.. dun tell me u still wan me back.. jus go away..
sorry! jus blame it on im not the kind of girls that will take such
nonsense.. i love myself more than u..
ah~ now i felt so fuckin insulted..
i still dunno the reason! y that type of girls?! cant he chose a better
one?! at least everyone is happier.. ok, maybe in character-wise or
personality she is much better than me..
can someone tell wat ur dun like abt my person?! someone?! i wouldnt
get angry! infact, i will be happy to knw u as a friend! i need a serious
pin point'ing!!
i jus cant get over! AH LIAN?! wow kao! i feel so dramatic..
n i cant really slp.. feeling really upset. but i will be fine. is jus
another piece of shit that is happenin.. at least, i still can joke!
the good thing is - he is really yandao! kinda well to do, drives, dun smoke,
very responsible, really can connect n new age sensitive guy..
the bad thing is - i lost them all!! warghh!!! *cries* n to that AH LIAN?!
wat the fuck~
justme's unforbidden words at 10:43 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
tot it will be a good day afterall... but it seems not.
first, david yeo is out! wat the ?! wats jerry still doin in there?!
(jus in case u all dunno.. is spore idol)
second, some guy in SP passed away.
(was tokin to qi when someone was askin me for ambulance no? n
somehow jus feel is linked? n is scarin me n monica..)
third, is over after being almost 4mths.
*zhen, thanks 4 the everything. but im really ok. i wouldnt cry.
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went out shoppin like mad at bishan.. with zhen, ting, shin. saw
manda.. so surprise! haha~ she still looks the same! n melvin as well!!
he looked so different! so much better.. n abit yandao too! haha..
lets see.. i bought
- 2 pairs of earrings
- 1 packet of black ear sticks
- 2 baleno tees (50% storewide!)
- 1 nail polish
- 2 nails stickers
i spent like almost $70! ok.. includin of food as well!!
n shin can really eat! n becoz every cake u eat, a dollar is donated
to those needy pple.. n ended up, all of us over ate!! n zhen was like,
U WERE THE ONE WHO WAN US TO EAT! n to think i push the blame to that
poster thingy!! haha..
oh ya! this guy, who was like walked past me, dunno y he bring his face
was so DAMN CLOSE TO MY FACE! both me n ting was like, wat the hell!!
left early.. since tml mornin got something goin on.. n plus, i dun
tink i will understand chinese fightin movies?!
tot mayb i shld go over check out on him.. check liao.. worst still..
sometimes i tink im damn cool..
now.. im feelin worst.. cant sleep.. is already 330am.. how to wake up tml?
justme's unforbidden words at 3:30 AM
Friday, October 08, 2004
funny shit.. nuts was like, bells! today is adian's bd!! (in sms)
n she sounded damn excited?! me, in the other shoes was like, so?!
not that i dun care.. jus that wat she wants me to do? didnt even
knew how to reply her.. so ended up callin her.. haha!
nuts, u still does shitty things to me though u already know me.
my ah pek is havin fever... still can disturb me!~ say wat wan to
eat egg.. than say wat y my egg yolk leaked out? say wat eggs now
very ex~ i waste egg?! what the?! ah!! this guy ar.. no logic..
not sure abt it..im really not sure wat to do.. after his birthday than
i shall say... ok.. babes.. prepare tissues n stuff...
haha! im addicted to msn's games!!! my god!! im damn excited!! i was
playin with him the whole nite till like nearly 4am!! n my com was so
super laggin when i was playin with yz as well.. but was like testin..
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whole day of work n jokes with annie n monica.. fun.. yet abit sick~
exercoist after that with yz,alex,jess~ it was so BORIN!! i really wanted
to fall asleep... so classic, literature, slow.. REALLY SLOW~
we saw some really yandao n gross gays.. the whole group only 2 can make it~
others, ar.. cannot lah~ than suddenly tok abt this butch last time that
say so many things that scares me~ lets not mention the name.. we know can liao..
but still, fnds lah! more than that.. cannot..
monks after that~ 1st time.. didnt sit inside~ 5 us jus sat down n chit chat..
all the way.. tok alot of stuff.. alot of 'inside' feelings.. cant share~
thats good... haha.. at least, im not the only one who tot she has changed..
n also abt him.. stress.. i mean can see he is nice.. but argh~ dun say..
i still havent seen peter?! except for that spider?! haha~ ok.. only we know~
paddy came to fetch me n jess ard 2am.. anyway, guess sher they all left there
shorty...
ok, wats new? he purposely waited for me to come home.. call him, n than go back
to slp... n somehow he is vomittin.. hm.. i dun tink is fever anymore.. dunno..
hmm.. got to check on him quite freq...
ok, got to bathe now.. leavin the house soon.. might be goin over to his hse
later.. n i wan go town shop?! erm.. i tink im not a very good gf afterall..
ya, mayb like wat jess they all said, im the one who wear the pants in the
r/s..
justme's unforbidden words at 1:17 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
EVERYONE!! WATCH WHITE CHICKS!!! is funnier than hot chicks!!!
i tell u! it was really funny esp to have someone laughin as thunderous
as me!! gloria!! my god!! must watch again!!!
is so bloody funny!! so many funny scenes!! wat im goin to have a B.F~
n wat prada bag n those tryin of clothes?! wow lao! i almost went out of
breath!
ok.. bishan changed alot!! so much till im kinda lost in the other half?
know wat? went to work yesterday mornin? n there was this guy sittin
opps me in the train? n when i went home in the evenin.. the same old
routine, online, tv n newspaper.. i check my fndster.. n he msg me?!
he was like, did u take a train towards jurong this mornin?! gosh!
im so bloody freaked out!
this is really scary...
anyway, i went right to the other end today... jus in case i see him again?!
n qi was like, i will fetch u to work tomolo! (today) haha~ nonsence.. like
he can wake up?!
somehow.. i tink he almost can guess that im slowly driftin away.. ok..
i tink the topic will pop out as soon as his bd is over in like few days
time..
sayin goodbye is never an easy thing...
love this song.. match my feelings now.. erm.. only first line..
dling mean girls from jacob!! haha! happy happy!
justme's unforbidden words at 8:32 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
went to pau's birthday dinner with her family n relatives...
ok ar.. quite fun ar.. gladys, jane n gloria came..
had a tok with dereka.. haha.. he really forever so cute.. ya.. hang
down after awhile catchin up.. he got to wake up at 430am tml.. startin his
comando trainin soon..
tml meetin them to watch white chicks... heard is a funny show.. hope is
something like hot chicks.. 'no-need-to-think' n u will laugh? life is abit
stress for me nowadays..
im so stress!! stress till i felt like ARGH?! like u dunno wat u wan to do!?
if its goin to fail, i really dunno wat to do abt it...
i didnt tok to jay from almost a yr i guess? wonder wat is he doin..
im gettin really stress till i cant breathe anymore.
i tink i better get some sleep.. got to work tml. better dun tink anymore.
justme's unforbidden words at 2:45 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
ok.. my com kanna virus?! n i guess hyan was like WAT?! coz she jus
help me reformat the whole ting like less than a mth? n jus becoz i
forgot about the installation of the anti virus thing?! this shit
happens again?! n now is runnin REALLY SLOW!!! so slow till i think
i got to wait like 10 mins b4 i can used the com!!
anyway... when to meet pau in the afternoon... n i eat lots of junk
food today!! i ate chips, ALoT of watermelon!! n bubble tea!! anyway,
make a fool out of myself like AGAIN?! so wats new?! tell me! argh!
ya.. i bet all the waiters there recongise me!!
left at 6pm from OG all the way to far east plaza to meet gek n ting!!
wow! can die! was sweatin like dunno wat?! i also dunno i rush for wat!
n the earrings at annex is like 5 times more ex than the ones at far
east?! n the design is the same?!
ok, bought myself a pair of slippers.. of coz those cheap ones lah!
anyway, the bus ride to louise's house was !!! it was so jalat! n 3 of us
were like trainin our arm muscles!! but fun lah! esp that 'jordon' beside
me!
louise hse damn big!! somehow can fight with alex!! n her joey was SO CUTE!
jedi was too fierce to get too close~ anyway, i like her basement! the
theatre~ damn big n cold~ jus that starhub no reception only lah~
her hse very 'resort?' or chalet? as for alex.. more like hotel plus that
swimmin pool n guest rooms n ballroom?! n golf course?! hahah... very nice
sia!!
i tink i gain 3kgs... i ate RUBBISH today!! chips, ALOT of chocolates,
marshmellows.. alot of can drinks! oh ya.. tokin abt that, lemon tea n
root beer mixed really well!! okok.. n i ate dunno how many chicken wings,
sauages, crabmeat, prawns, fish!!! my god!! n i eat like there's no tml!!
ah!!! jus kill me bah! oh ya.. that taiwan show nice leh! but hai~ no one
appreciate!! so touching..
saw him at my blk~ shock me.. n was holdin this 3 diff roti pratas?! LIKE
WHO CAN STILL EAT?! n he tot i havent eat anything much at the BBQ?! coz
alot of pple? but really sweet of him.. ended up he ate everything downstairs
my blk... n my mum was like, where u goin with a fork n knife?! n i jus
said oh, my fnd breakup lah~ than u know lah.. very troublesome.. got
to console her.. than she never eat n stuff, than no fork for her food~
wow kao! im SUCH A GREAT LIAR!!
told him i wan go make spects... the one without degree... n he was like,
wow! wasting my money! n suddenly giving me money to make?! i felt so
offended sia!! than i was like, hey! im not one of ur ah lian gfs!!
i got my own money~ (though i dun really have now lah~)
was quite tensed up.. he also shocked.. but ya.. coz like tell him for
the sake of tellin him? not askin him for money... but after that ok liao..
walk to the house, see him drove off~
im not really used to pple treating me so nice...
is like 540++am. n im still too full to sleep.. n i got a dinner at pau's auntie
hse tomolo.. celebratin her 21st bd... is a eating feast again!! gosh!
justme's unforbidden words at 5:40 AM
Friday, October 01, 2004
n
as well~~
gosh.. spore idol makes me wan to cry...n seriously i hate
daphne sia! i dunno y.. but i jus dun like her.. n worst..
i dun even know jerry's existed?! until like jus now?!
anyway sad that jessea got to go... as for beverly.. erm..
im neutral...
okok~~audrey told me that song is called love will lead you back..
wow! thanks sia!!
i n audrey all got same thinkin of the spore idol... but i cant
wait for the day daphne goes!!
no offence to her die hard fans!~ i jus dun her lah!
ok, can someone teach me how to eat those pills?
justme's unforbidden words at 9:04 PM
