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   Monday, June 28, 2004
my little pony
You're My Little Pony!! Sweet and innocent and
happy, you make people want to spew burrito
chunks. Even a Care Bear could kick your ass.
What childhood toy from the 80s are you?

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thanks for all those birthday wishes pple!! there is too many of u
to name it all out!! but hey! thanks k!!

n sheilla's hokkien? "za ji a lan" twelve pple?

workin tomolo..

the metal behind pierced into my gum sia~~ the blood was like gushin
out like dunno wat~ tap?

selena quintanilla show.. songs not bad.. shit!! they never show the songs title
at the last part!!

jie bought me 2 perfumes!! both of them damn nice sia!! n a dunno wat
face thingy.. took photos with my parents was like so fun!! haha..
alot of dumb stuff..

yest euro cup was like!!! so bloody long!! but still net won lah!! yesh!
tonite.. czech republic : denmark... my mum was like tonite is who vs who?
n i jus knew that czech republic is called 'jie ke' in chinese.. isnt that
called jack? jack vs denmark... haha.. ok lame.. i tink czech will win..
erm.. ok .. i hope lah~

shirlee!! i took ur blog mid!! hope u dun mind!! even if u do.. erm..
i pretend i dunno!! hahah!

oh no.. im forcing nuts n zhen to write TRUE stuff abt me in fndster!!

-----
if i could fall in love with you (selina quintanilla)

I could loose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
Coz the way I feel
I might loose control and let you stay
Coz I could take you in my arms and never let go

I could fall in love with you (repeat 2)

I can only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right know
Tomorrow will you want me still
So i should keep this to myself and never let you go

I could fall in love with you (repeat 2)

And I know it's not right and I guess i should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love with you baby

I could fall in love with you
So I should keep this to myself and never let go

I could fall in love with you (repeat 2)
I could fall
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you baby (repeat 2 to fade)

----

dreamin of you (selina quintanilla)

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Coraz?cdftyhseI can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
C?te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, c?te extra?Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight!


..::|| i could fall in lovee with uuu.. ||::..



   Sunday, June 27, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N JOOE




   Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Lynx Goddess
Lynx Goddess

You are the most level headed of the big cat
goddesses, open to try many things, even
talking to the occasional human. Unlike the
others sometimes your passive nature allows a
meal to get away but you still live. Because of
your lynx naming you are a rather good hunter
when it comes to smaller game like hares but
sometimes having a dagger allows you a few more
advantages. Because you are calm enough to not
mind the occasional foolish human, you have
been given many names, one being 'Forgiven One'
Human contact is often for you because you live
in an area where mortals venture often.
Which Big Cat Goddess Are You?(With Pics)

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finally at home! but leavin the house soon~

yest was horrible! 1st was the insurance thingy that is really
drivin me nuts... n jie n jiefu had a quarrel.. i tink jie is
super fierce~ me too got scare... blame it on that stupid part
timer.. but ok la.. becoz of his mistake, we paid $52.9 less..
n he said it will be waived.. n is in black n white.. so, my jie
said no way she is goin to take a off day jus to go down pay..

well, despite for all those stupid things.. we got the free mp3
n modern for free!! coz it was father's day promotion... i save
like dunno how much sia.. hahaha~

she bought me perfume, some toner that i needed desperately!~ n
a stuff toy puppy that looks kinda grumpy though..

had a really funny joke.. (true story!)
john opened mary's bag to get some documents without her consent,
n mary got quite shock when she saw john openin her bag,

so she said something like, y open my bag sort of thing...
john: wats there to see in ur bag? nothin wat..
mary: i jus dun like guy openin my bag...
john: wats thing have i not see b4? pad?
mary: no!
john: than wat? say out la?
mary: MY MOTHER'S PANTIES!

(coz mary bought panties for her mum..)

wahaha.. ok, might not be that funny over here.. but ok la..
quite alot of pple laugh when i said abt this joke.. ok, nvm..
dun care me..

saw that tangs salegirl workin at jurongpt.. she still recongize
me.. wow.. saw my iap fnd, this used to be quite pretty ij gal who
when abit too 'upsize' till i cant really recongise her, oh! n
valeria too!! wow.. as usually, she's so ang mo n pretty!

meet hockie n sonny at jurong after that.. n headed down to dover
to meet ah tuck.. THAN walked to find tj.. ok la.. got suan by him..
like wats new? 3 guys will be workin together! n i will be at counter?!
ah..

haha! dereka got fairer when we met him at ps! said he used SK-II
whitenin mask~ n suan him again at dinner with his shawn captain~
is our joke la~ bought 2 braclets at topman..

meet up with nuts n her sister.. dunno wat we tok abt but was
laughin like mad...

ok, joanna's bd on the 3july...

wow.. i gained so much weight jus for the past 2 days..!! damn!

hockie haven called.. dunno wat time he will be comin to pick me
up.. think maybe 1am plus? anyway yes! goin to watch soccer at
dereka's hse!! think sonny n riez will b there too!! stupid nuts got
attachment.. n i dun think the other girls watch.. hai.. no one else..

hopefully will see tuck, yinlai n jeff on sat!! all the botaks~
haha.. cant imagine jeff being botak.. n tuck's big head.. haha~
opps.. no offence..

ok.. drivin again tml.. will be meetin zhen they all at 3-4plus..
if not, dunno when meet again after i worked..

===

im back from derek's hse! smuggling out of the hse is too exciting for
me to take it.. i tink i goin to have asthma attack soon...

swe 2: den 2!! wow lao.. damn excitin.. though i wanted denmark to win
badly~ heng we too late.. couldnt buy in.. haha.. chey~ like i got gamble?~
italy out~... sad... but fun la.. n riez is super active today... so lame..

tonight, riez's hse! havoc!!

oh! M&M chocolates came out the black n white edition... wow.. shit.. haven
pay hockie money.. tink one day got to treat him lunch~ so paisei.. everytime
he pay..

is 7am now.. better sleep.. got to wake up at 9am.. reach yck at 11am.. finish
at 1230pm.. reach home 1pm++.. settle everything 2pm.. nap for 45mins, leave at
3pm++.. think will reach town at 4pm++.. dinner everything dunno wat time, than
see wat time go down to riez's hse... ok, is goin to be a tough n long day today!

..::|| i wan to see the sunshine after the rain! ||::..



   Monday, June 21, 2004
Oww! You're a Care Bear! *snuggle*
Big Brother! You're the born protector. Girls love
you because of your strength and that you
always care for them. They feel simply well in
your present, go you!
What kind of Boy are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..

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went to auntie's hse yest.. she was complainin abt my cousin not home
the whole nite.. n my mum said, 'oh! dun worry la! must be with my friends~
(HUH? she assumed he knew yz, sher they all...)
aiya, pei also dun come home one.. this age all very energetic..'

wat the ?!

yest drivin was good.. fast n steady.. hope the test goes well this
friday.. lao shi's was laughin all the way when he heard his previous
student said,'sir, ur malay student come liao..'

ya, malay student, me? i should have count the number of pple who said
i looked like malay ar? nvm abt that, b4 lesson start, he still ask his
other driving instructors pointin to me sayin,'hey, zhe aye teng nan huo
shi huan nan? (this one malay or chinese?)' (is all in hokkien.. somehow
the teacher always tok hokkien to me?)

ok, here comes the fun part, some was like lookin n lookin, alot said i
was malay or mixed.. got one even said i looked like singh! hahaha.. but
one thing, im so fair!! so i really got no idea which part i looked like..
the discussion was funny la..

went home with xue yan.. tink her skin damn nice! flawless type.. n saw
karen after that.. 2 mei nu..

diana! help me congrats jessica abt her new shop?! *i also blur?* sell wat?

had some serious things to do in the evenin.. n my mum really drove me
nuts.. ok, went for the last day of the spore art festival.. percussion
was great.. think pau heard it?

wow.. cant stand the aunties..

ok, my maxonline will be done by next week.. gettin my mp3 today..!

sean: sonny! jus in case u r seein this too, tml i will meet u n hockie
at jurong mrt k? i will be comin down from boon lay.. so better that way..
n i dun have ur number in my nokia phone.. i dunno y also?! so possible
give me a miss call k? i recongise ur number.. erm.. i tink...

lat 0 : ger 0 wat the ?!

hazel: mitzi the nutty, yes u did say my harry potter is stupid!! in ur blog!
haha!! n yes! nuts loves me! u love me! *yes run around!! n pulls ur reborned
hair!* how much ar? n y ben cannot looked like his bro? u sound scare... oh!
dun scare.. come to mama's arms! --------> points to myan! haha.. but u need to
squat la.. u too tall liao...

germaine: shin! u r finally back!! been missin u! i wan to see ur photo album!
i 'chop' first!! got buy food back anot?

..::|| tears fall across my nose n down they drip. ||::..



   Sunday, June 20, 2004
Your weapon is a Fan!
Chinese Fan! Beautiful and dangerous in one! Don't
laugh. The pretty, metall fan was also a
dangerous weapon in old China. If someone know
how to use it, it's a leatal weapon!
What's your Weapon? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..

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HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!!



felt so guilty after ah tuck sms-ed me some things... well, well..

so upset... someone tot i was 25!~ argh

my dad bought another packet of guppies!!~ well, my mum was the happiest
among all~ ok la.. can actually sit in front of the fish tank for hours
to tok abt fishes..

dad drove mum went over to auntie's hse 'bao' dumplings.. im all alone
now~ YES! I AM THE KING!!

sia la.. damn childish..

WOW~ BLOOD~~~~ hmm.. y does it taste so 'metal'?

damn bored... blastin my bass with all the outdated hiphop, RnB songs..
erm.. ok, maybe not 'clint eastwood' (by gorillaz) n cant believe
i got techno songs too!!~

"nobody listens to techno!" (eminem - w/o me) haha! heard this
part jus when i was tokin abt it.. shall dig out all the songs
i no longer touch...

outdated music list on my media player now.. some r still very
addictive.. (* strongly recommend)

* david usher - black black heart
.bjork n thom yorke - i've seen it all
.dannii minogue (kylie's sis) - i begin to wonder , vibe on
.LFO - girl on tv
.kci n jojo - all my life
.holly vallance - kiss kiss
.lene marlin - unforgivable sinner
* sarah conner - skin on skin
* jewel - intuition , break me
* joe - i wanna know
.mono - life in mono
* natalie imbruglia - torn
.vanessa carlton - a thousand miles
.white stripes - seven nation army
* joey mcintyre - stay the same
.aerosmith - jaded
.jayz feat beyonce - bonnie n cylde
.gorillaz - clint eastwood
.girls aloud - sound of the underground
* dr dre feat snoop n nate - the next episode
.blue - supersexual , fly by
.blondie - one way or another
* appleton - dont worry
* brandy - full moon
* expose - never get over you
.cardigan - lovefool
* shakira - the one

and the whole list of
.evanescence, eminem, avril lavigne, linkin park , POD
.ludacries, shakira, red hot chili peppers, santana
.miss elliot, nas, nelly, no doubt, pink, puff daddy, usher
.mary j blige, coldplay, ja rule

will show a list of chinese songs next time...

im so bored!! super bored! i tink i should go back to sleep..

..::|| all my life, i prayed of someone like u ||::..



Natural Beauty!
Natural Beauty! You impress with your narural
charme and your simple beauty. You only want to
be the person you are and be accepted as that.
Go you!
What kind of beauty are you? .._..contains pictures.._..

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wow! quiz pic kinda OVER SEXY... haha.. so bullshit..

drivin tml. dread of it.

went to watch the closin ceremony of the arts festival.. not bad.. the
percussion group was from korean.. couldnt really understand wat they
were tokin abt... their sandbag was step back, n their lady was ready~
n there was i listenin to, lady, lady.. nonono, sandbag sandbag...

fireworks was great! though it really stinks like hell after that~~ could
hardly breathe!~

n my mum's yoga fnd found her there n ya.. u know la.. those aunties..
gossip n gossip... lucky my mum isnt like that.. n still drag my mum n i
to listen to them sing ktv at some RC void deck~~ wow.. almost fainted...
there we r tryin to run away, n they tryin to pull us back...~~~~

ok.. stayin at jie's hse tml... wow.. i tink by the time we both drag...
i wouldnt be able to get my MP3 anymore!!~ hmm..

i also was to get this bag from ps... but.. ok..

plus a performance of chinese orchestra on the 30/7 (friday)
at 730pm, indoor stadium... price $18,28,48 n 200.. who wants
to join me?! chinese classical music is such a beautiful thing..

haha.. ok, dun care me...

shin will be back by on monday... hope she doesnt bring back
a whole album of photos full of angkor wat scenery again...
ah bor she sure kanna suan by me...

wow lao.. i tink he is damn good lookin... i tink germany will win..

anyway~ i got the urged to irritate jessica... n i dunno y...

to my nutty


darlin hazel, I AM SOFT SPOKEN K!! im so ladylike, so gentle,
soft spoken, shy, someone who doesnt LAUGH AS LOUD AS U!! i blush n giggle k!!
n dun u dare go flirt flirt with all my friends in my tagger k!! n wat my
harry potter is stupid?! is a flawless piece of art~

really stupid huh? really not soft spoken meh? sad sia...
WAHAHAHA~~ *runs around*

i have gone really mad...
oh!! gawd!!~ i need help huh?

..::|| TOK TO ME! TELL ME UR BLARDEE NAME! bangs.. ||::..



   Saturday, June 19, 2004
just went u tink that japanese chefs r the most hygiene
conscious, think again.. u might be SO WRONG!!

i saw this chef makin the sauce n he uses his mixture spoon
to test n 'dump' back watever left!! n is a competition?!
aawwe... meanin there is more pple 'testin' it!~

i dun even do that!! even if im unconscious abt it, i
wouldnt even have done it on NATIONAL TV!!~ is ok to taste..
but to pour back watever u have tasted?! ah~ 4get it~

sigh.. some things r better left unknown..



You love all animals!
ANIMAL LOVER! You love all animals. You care for
every animal if it's your pet or a free one, if
an animal needs you, you'll help. You don't
care for the kind of animal you like them all!
What's your ideal pet? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..

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argh! my mum is drivin me nuts abt the insurance thingy... been askinn
pple what is telegraphic transfer? lucky gladys help me out with it...
thanks ger!

so tml i will be GOIN DOWN AGAIN to check it out the policy!!!!~ ah! kill
me bah!~ now i felt bad abt screamin at her jus now...

been hearin canon firing.. n tot might be from the air base.. who knows?
it was the korean arts thingy held near yishun 10.. was some fireworks..

i felt like gettin the bag from ps.. but i dunno is it the type i always
carry.. if it is, i see no point gettin it.. hmm..

found more than 10 over pple i know in fndster... but than i didnt add
them~ dunno y also.. ok, had a shock that 'he this type of pattern' also
got fndster.. well, i tink he slim down abit, hair shorter n still look
as yandao as b4~

oh ya, have anyone saw that fndster photo i upload in? haha.. i tried to
darken my face, but than very hard la.. so there it is, the 'ah gua' version
of harry potter..

jay, tk care k? remember no smooth sea makes a skilled sailor. is goin to
make u a better person in the future! so *cheers* k?

can someone tell me whether am i a softspoken person? erm.. hahaha!!

..::|| harsh remarks chills even in summer, while
words of comfort warms durin in winter ||::..



   Thursday, June 17, 2004
last min thing cropped up.. insurance policy renewal?!
i tink im super 'protected'~ argh. plan is messed up again~

im so addicted to scv... my sis taped so much drama series!

my com.. hai~ been botherin sean so many times!!~ so paisei~
ok la.. were chattin n updatin one another.. so jeff already
went to NS just after tuck did!! n hockie, yinlai n sonny will
b at august..

i really hate driving! i tink he really very touchy? ah~ jus
few more lesson n get over with it..

read some schmates' blog.. realised the way she tok like very??
i dunno how to say, yet some other gers who r much younger
say things that r much more intelligent?

shit. i might be one of them too!

today isnt a good day after all..



   Wednesday, June 16, 2004
im startin to miss shin, jess, jooe, shirlee, fen, mich, john,
tap, diana, r6r, dereka, shrikin, qin, ru, jill, nuts, n there
r so many more that r so close...

clean my 1/4 of my room.. found the card she did for me.. sigh
i do miss fen alot..



   Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Congrats! You have a pure soul!
You have a pure soul! Congrats! Your kind is rare
and dwindeling fast! You desire world peace and
only for there to be no pain or suffering. You
help out as often as possible and you don't
like to watch others suffer. You are loved by
all, even if they don't show it. You naturally
get along with others, but you prefer to stay
in your close knit group of friends.
What type of soul do you have? (Girls only! Wondeful anime images!)

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went to alpha dental... i waited like an hour plus?! n there was only
like 2 pple infront of me? my gosh.. the wire behind is tied too tight..
2 wisdom teeth can cause aching to the whole of my lower jaws!!~

went to esplanade library.. i loved that place, than to MS... i love
this 'mian bao chao ren' (bread superman?) at barang barang.. n guess
how much?? $29?! my gosh! im so damn broke..

met the r4r later in town.. saw ah huang!! haha, oh ya, can someone tell
me where is the spider on the $10 note? n where is the bird in the $2 note?
been buyin food everythin i go out.. my gosh! i eat so much!

hong is workin full time at bishan, min is still holdin alot of part time,
myan might be workin at a optical job, janet tink still at her iap place,
tequila SIA? air stewardess if cfm, me, nothin? jus will be helpin my fnd
at popular.. i startin to feel peer pressure!!~

-----

had drivin this mornin.. lao shi brought me go eat breakfast?! he treat la~
hockie~ are u jealous?!~ ya, he did asked abt u..

met pau at 345 at cine, interview.. i tot was at k-box?! actually was box
office.. ah.. ok lah, i tok ALOT ALOT with that manager durin the interview..
n pau? was like less than 5 mins? i tink im the longest.. n i tot being SO
SO HONEST will actually lead me to no chance? but ya, he employed me.. but
didnt give me a chance to reject also.. so i decided to work on certain days only,
since i already promised my fnd to help him at popular n draggin tap with me
as well.. i guess is the best way.. dun wan later he also dissapointed..

so 6 days a week! best for both sides, n my sister said something that sounded
like elson.. always care so much abt fnds.. zhen!! shit! we r the same!!
haha.. ya la, as usual, like who in our group isnt? fnds r my everything!
my outside fnds, E9, r6r, fyp, yep, yr3, ijbabes, my co fnds that i lost.. n i
cried like mad n u all will never know til now, well, is over.. sigh.. we
shall skip that~

pau n jean accompany me all the way till sher came.. thanks!! oh ya, saw this
bag.. last piece.. damn nice.. but, im damn broke la.. hai~ but i went crazy
at OG topfloor again?! haha..

finally watched troy!! wow lao.. damn nice! but alot from sunzi art of war?
watever u called that.. alot very similar.. not bad..

'i have loved him from the moment he first opened his eyes, till the day u took
him away n closes his eyes. '

wow lao~ almost cried~ so touchin.. ok, might sound alittle stupid to some pple..
but pple who dun feel anything means they dun understand..

n had so much stupid comments to zhen durin the show.. when brad said take all the
treasures n i was like, i will dragged the golden archer first!! (which the head
was later 'chopped' off~) fire alarm went off, red lights was like flashin.. n
no one moved?! n zhen said wow~ so fun~... my gawd! *sweat*

im so damn OVER OVER EXTREME BROKE LIKE ANYTHING~

oh ya, i only remember abt diana's bd.. but i totally forgot her twin sister..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!!




   Sunday, June 13, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DARLING DIANA!!!



best wishes n i love u so so damn much!!



   Saturday, June 12, 2004
wow.. cant believe i took like 2 hours to get this whole blog
look the same like wat is supposed to be.. anyway, pple, pls
SEND ME UR BLOGGERS URLS

this time, i saved everything!~ cant believe my backup was like
last year?! so to u guys,

EVERYBODY PLEASE SAVED UR WORK! AH BOR LIKE QIN EVERYTHING ALL LOST!!~

(erm.. ok, is our joke lah..)



pple, i lost my codes... so give me some time to restore everything.



   Friday, June 11, 2004
fuck! i hate my father! no matter wat, i still hate him
as usual..

does he always got to open my letter to see wats inside?!
fuck! n he still says nothin is inside.. ah fuck lah!

n all my cousins who is around my age is all gettin married?!
like huh!? definately flyin over..

ah... i feelin horrible now.... not abt those trivals things
mention.. i jus dunno.. tink i shall go bath bah... i wan
to jus burst out n cry..



ok guys, those who r still using the sch ezlink card, PLS prepare urself
for another new ADULT card... u cant topped up anymore~ argh~ i need to go
to kalms to get that precious moments ezlink card.. but no money at the
moment.. hai~... im damn broke at this period of time...

saw tj yest.. he updated me alot of stuff.. ok, i seriously dun feel good..
i dun like this feelin now..

called myan after that... felt better..

saw alot of pple at zouk! the bouncer, was like didnt know wat to say when
he looked at my admin card? haha.. i totally understand.. most important,
i enjoyed myself alot! i do wan to go watch the finals!! plus, i loved to
see those gays shake!!~ wor~~

ok, tj need help.. so i will b workin for him.. tap also joinin me..

watchin troy on mon.. hope nothin goes wrong~



   Thursday, June 10, 2004
drivin in the mornin.. jus finish...
we went all the way to eunos to have our tyres changes...
coz he said is damn CHEAP!! ended up, also kanna cheated sia..
wat more can i say.. chey!!! that whole place is like, so
factory.. n so loud~ with all those dirty, sweaty, mechanics
(some yandao, some not..)come tokin to me?! fwah! pei isnt that
bad afterall huh?~

ok la.. my instructor jus pulled me aside ask me not to tok
to them.. like how to? anyway had fun today.. was speeding all
the way~ n i used gear5~ haha..

zouk tonite.. zhen they all ma chime seem to be wearin gown
down.. me? jeans, tee n slippers? gosh.. better ask zhen..

i honestly think pau will not come tonight.. well, mayb im
wrong, but i seriously tink she will not come.

i already 'could see' she got tons of work cant finish..
or her bro got some pro or her mum dun let her out.. ah..
watever.. nah de she was sayin she will go..

lets hope she does prove me wrong, coz we r definately not
her 1st priority afterall.. *prays*







You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy


When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch

Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.

From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.

And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.


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so, my dear friends... how true is this??!! im shy? erm.. i dun think so..
im only shy when im did something stupid to pple I DUNNO~.. which i always
do la..

im so addicted with this classical music though it takes like 26:25mins..
had this (Yun Nan Memories-Wei Ying Ru) inside my pc for like 3yrs? n i
never listen? well..

at the same time, im addicted to the (slackers) comic!! wow damn funny..
ok la.. at least i tink so!!

*slackers*

remember to read it page by page from the comic archive!!

zouk tml. the miss femme or shall i jus say passive?

quarrel with my dad. n i hate him. haha.. like wat's new again?

drivin practise at 11am.. n is 7am now!! im not asleep yet! im so dead..
anyway, did some drawings of how to park a car.. haha.. ugly..

10 biggest turn-offs to girls.. one of them is ....
-dun try to smile 'slanted'

wat if is already in them? like the guy, joey in friends?
i loved his smiles!! so lusty?? i dunno but there is a X-factor
that im attracted to such 'chi kor' (lusty) smiles like my ex
who used to have them too..

ah.. im weird.. jus dun go ard tellin everyone...

ok.. dad is awake! n im dead!



   Monday, June 07, 2004
im getting my mp3 player!! n changin into broadband as well!! haha!!
happy happy! killing 2 birds with one stone!!!

got to thanks my jiefu walkin everywhere with me to check n asking
SO MUCH TOUGH QUESTIONS to that poor salesgirl..

went to furama hotel for dim sum.. even the waitress remember us!
anyway, my sis n i were playin with the honey thingy.. so funny..
n everyone got to stop us from playin with the food.. haha

saw shaeen yesterday! mum says she changed so much!~ prettier...

i went crazy at the new OG top floor where all the food r there! so
many things to buy!! n bought 2 jeans for my mum w/o her knowin.. very
pretty!! they got the shiny beads at the sides..

n jiefu bought alot of things!! spent dunno how much at timberland!~
sales r everywhere~

my result at GMP is out.. i honestly tink is not that true.. i tink
must let pple who know me read it..

ok la.. im tired.. tomolo still got drivin practise..

wow! benedict goh quite yandao!! esp when u dun see him as often now..



   Sunday, June 06, 2004
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finally went monks after like dunno how long?! tink since exam period?
waited like mad too.. coz they went to watch harry potter.. n i went 4 a
short coffee chat with pau they all.. pour the whole coco powder.. but
i still prefer coffeebean than starbucks.. theirs got salt..

quote: unless nature merged, otherwise we will still b here.
our secret. is this ok?

changed of dj.. horrible la.. he doesnt know wats rnb or hiphop? argh..
plus, is not that happenin anymore.. oh ya, suddenly i got jean as my ai ren
n elson as my i also dunno wat? but funny lah.. n got this girl who jus
joined in with us n bad la.. we were like laughin at her..

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(saturday)

wow.. only sleep for like 3 hours?! n my mum was like screamin in the phone?!
her voice.. n i couldnt slp anymore..

tink something wrong with my burner.. burn like 4hours?! today is such a
rush for me.. did something 4 jooe.. almost gone mad.. those that i never tot
will happen, HAPPENED!! thank god i got zhen..

many pple today say i do look like indian!! haha..

pau's bro shoot up to dunno like 180cm?! n his voice... n i really think
harry potter3 not that nice.. like butterfly effect.. but of coz, B.E is
so much nicer......

reach jooe's party at 8pm.. n i got a big shock out of my life! somehow all
her family knew me! they called me meinu! n her mum called me xiao meinu!!
n dunno who called me gpei?!! n plus i laugh so damn loud.. i tink i so
misbehave..

not forgettin, jooe damn chio sia! so pretty... her sister also very pretty!!
tink jooe should put on makeup next time..

n wats worst.. I NEVER BRING MY CAMERA LOR! wow lao.. damn pissed off with myself.

oh my god! jooe's cousin looked so like jay sia!! n everyone reckon too! to tink
i was tinkin y he so free.. keep changin clothes like mad...

gossip alot with loke weilin also.. alot of funny things.. n sheilla's bf.. super
stylo with his perm hair.. haha.. nah. jus that the sports car thingy.. n ting's
car parkin skills..

is 4am now..family day tml.. mornin goin furama hotel to eat dim sum... tink im
goin to faint soon..

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anyway, to all my ij bitches.. want to tell u all...

sher, thanks for all the discipline n controlin when i misbehave in public.
n always placin others b4 urself n tolerate all my nonsenses.. and you know
i love u!! (MORE THAN TECK! haha)

zhen, thanks for jus bein there when i needed u so much.. so understandin..
n being just there to listen n talk.. so sensitive to each n everyone of us..
knowin wat we loves n hate.. n get it 4 us.. i love u also!! (MORE THAN ELSON DOES!)

jess, thanks for bein such a fun-lovin destroyer with me.. n we always pissed
off the gentle ones.. the most helpful among all.. we all can see it!! n be
more confident.. u R PRETTY! n no one will actually know wat double chin if u
dun mention!~ i love u too! erm.. more than aiya, we all know lah!

jooe, thanks for being such a patient twin sister, partners, perfects, n all
those teachings of wat a buddhist shld have that i dun?! i learned alot from u!
n listen to my old grandma story abt me n my ex.. really appreciate that u
always check on me.. i love u too! (MORE THAN JAY DOES!)

shin, thanks for being so cute. (really cute!) all those sharings abt me n
my shitty days with pau sometimes.. n bullyin u had from me.. after all the
scoldins i gave, tink u did changed alot 4 us.. so much better than last time..
still, u accept the fact that im the bad guy n still listen to me n all of us
r goin so strong n close. n helpin us to pay 1st when we r damn broke.. haha..
i love u more than amber though u mean the world to him!

pau, thanks 4 the everything. i love u more than ur mum! try to see things
in my point of view y i get so upset n angry sometimes.. understand the fact
that i dun like the idea of u being taken for granted.. hopefully u will try
to communicate with me more. share more with me.

n gek, ting, dc, este, sheilla n many more.. i love u all very much too!
im so gald we have know one another more than a decade..

IM SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH ALL OF YOUR! i wouldnt know wat life will b like w/o ur!
though i got alot of negative points like being irritatin, LOUD, straightforward,
mean, or carry the joke too far, but im like that lah~ i mean no harm n this is
within me that i cant changed..

accepting me for who i am, knowin that pple like me who look happy but also
know the fact that got the most problem is also me.. coz i tend to keep everything
n not lettin u all worry.. esp the hell of emotional torture i had once..

..::|| our friendships withstand EVERYTHING! ||::..



   Thursday, June 03, 2004
NDP 2004 online draw
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good luck to all!



By analyzing your answers to the Relationship Questionnaire we have created the following Personality Profile. Everyone has a set of subconscious wants and desires that drive their choices and attitudes. By asking you questions about a wide range of emotional issues, this report has established general patterns in your values.

Some of the following information may seem inaccurate or incomplete. Remember, that this profile is a snapshot of your personality at a specific moment. It is not intended as an in-depth analysis of your complete being, but as a tool to aid in self-discovery.


-You usually participate in whatever social group you belong. You're not a "wallflower"--you like to meet people, generate group enthusiasm and provide an open environment for communicating.


-You have a strong sense of humor. You usually know when to lighten a difficult situation, amuse and entertain people.


-You have to be with people. This extends into the need to gain popularity, achieve social recognition and influence those people around you. The "bottom-line" is a strong people orientation.


-You may act on impulse. If someone or something catches your eye, you may act without first checking things out.


-You have a strong feeling of optimism, considered favorably by most people around you. Your perception is that the bottle is half-full rather than half-empty.

-Each person has a unique way of communicating. We use a combination of body language, facial expression, verbal tone and word choice to share ourselves with others. The following statements offer a look at the natural behavior you bring to an interpersonal relationship.


-You show sympathy to the feelings and needs of others. Your natural empathy style may draw others to you.


-One of your great strengths is your ability to communicate and talk readily. Since all strengths may be overused at times, you may sometimes talk too much.


-You have a natural, outgoing style that some have labeled as the "natural salesperson." You are generally likable, talkative and socially assertive. Your primary intent is convincing or persuading people.


-You are a natural communicator. You love to talk, offer jokes and make sure that everyone is having a good time. This trait is especially evident at functions and outings.


-You tend to be fluent and verbal. You like to verbalize and to participate with many people.


-You can generate enthusiasm in yourself and in other people. Your enthusiasm, often contagious, involves many people in a social activity who might not ordinarily become involved.


Many different factors determine the communication styles with which you are most comfortable. Some individuals thrive on the challenge of pointed criticism, while others are at their best in a nurturing environment where criticism is offered as a suggestion for improvement. Each of us has a unique set of requirements and preferences. Below is a list of communication styles that will mesh well with your own. Having a partner who understands and practices these traits is important to your long-term happiness.


-Be brief and bright in language and ideas.


-Ask for opinions and ideas.


-Verify that the message is understood.


-Be stimulating, fun-loving, and fast-moving.


-Be prepared to listen to many stories.


-Leave plenty of time for socializing and relating.


-Understand sporadic listening skills.


-Attempt to isolate from interruptions.


-Plan interactions which support dreams and goals.


-Offer immediate rewards for accomplishments.


Following are some of the specific strengths and/or personal characteristics that you bring to a relationship. These may form the foundations of many of your friendships and dealings with other people. Some will seem obvious, but you may be surprised by others. Take a moment to reflect on each and consider what role it may have played in your past successes, and even failures.


-You tend to excite others into getting involved with your interests.


-You are skilled at finding "win-win" solutions when conflicts arise.


-You are socially poised and people-oriented.


-You have the ability to juggle lots of time demands simultaneously.


-You are usually enthusiastic about activities and planning.


-You have a quick wit and a great sense of humor.


-You tend to enjoy life and share that enjoyment with others.


-You are optimistic and tend to make others feel good about themselves.


-You have an excellent sense of humor and tend to see humor in events spontaneously.


-You tend to enjoy life and share that enjoyment with others.


In general, human beings are defined by their needs and individuals by their wants. Your emotional wants are especially important when establishing with whom you are compatible. While answering the Relationship Questionnaire you established a pattern of basic, subconscious wants. This section of the report was produced by analyzing those patterns. Our wants change as we mature and obtain our life goals. You may find it valuable to
revisit this section periodically to see how your wants have changed.

You may want:

-Many and varied activities.


-Popularity.


-Exposure and recognition by those who really appreciate your results and achievements.


-An outlet to vent your emotions frequently.


-Social recognition of your accomplishments.


-Acceptance in a variety of groups.


-Freedom from many rules and regulations and the ability to write your own rules.


-Recognition of skills and ability.


-No close supervision--you don't want people to hang over your shoulder.


-A support system to help you get things done.


-To be measured by the results obtained, not by the manner in which those results were accomplished.

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ANDROGYNE
Your score placed you in the category of Androgyne. This is the true middle of the road, neither butch nor femme

You are the best of both worlds, and have absolutely no feeling of being either femme or butch. You see yourself as "you" and that's all that matters. You dislike labels, surprised yourself by even taking this test, and are now laughing as you identify with this definition!

You switch roles fluidly without thinking from nurturing/subordinate to providing/leading as the situation demands. You are often a jack or jill of all trades and master of a few, but not all.

In clothing you go for the practical, not always bothering with the concept of neatness if that interferes with comfort or the time it takes to get dressed. Wrinkles don't drive you crazy, though you do prefer to keep reasonably up to date in your style, without going to any extreme in it.

You are shy in many ways, being intimidated by overt aggression as well as complete silence in a conversation. You tend to babble to fill silent space and clam up when confronted.

Odds are good astrologically that you are a Libra, Pisces, Gemini, or Aquarius.

You're willing to try anything once as long as it does not pose a risk to you. You're also good at doing just about any job, as long as you find a way to get trained for it. Physically, you're average in fitness, not being overly concerned about being either "curvy" or "chisled". If you are female and have some endowments, you wear a bra in public but not at home.

For partners you are comfortable with all types, for you are a peacemaker and changeling at heart, changing yourself to fit the situation and avoid hostility. You aren't a doormat, though, and do express your opionions.

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wow.. didnt get to sleep the whole nite.. mum n dad came home around
4+am.. n they woke up earlier than me!! anyway, dad bought me 2 black
'fo zhu'

is been rainin zebras n elephants for the past few days.. cant go joggin..
supposed to watch shrek2 at causeway.. but change to lot1.. n saw
karen there! shrek2 was so funny!! got choked many times.. my jiefu
too.. n there was this father at the back who laughed so loud!

now i want to watch troy, spiderman2 n 'hairy pottie3'..

pass jie the sakae voucher.. now i dunno wat to do abt the haagen daz one..

bought a ring, earrin!! i tink the ring is really pretty.. simple n
classy.. i wan to get a mp3 n a bag... but no cash.. so hai...

i wan to buy alot of things from john little n watson... hmm..

im damn broke.. broke broke broke...................................

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(thursday)

im so shit now.. had a deal with my dad. 1month. jalat...

n im

DAMN BROKE!



..::|| cash makes the world go round! ||::..



   Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Blue Hair!
Blue Hair! Famous Blue Heads Akane from Ranma 1/2 &
Ami from Sailor Moon!
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you got to do the previous quiz before doin this... is connected..

paddy gave me the plastic $10 note. erm.. it stick to one another..
seems cleaner.. but the way i keep my money.. is all crumpled n crushed..
i tink the plastic one wouldnt be that crumpled as the paper one..

alot of shows today! deep impact, mummy, deep blue sea, the new 9pm
hk drama sitcom n i forgot abt body beautiful.. hmm..

try to log into the sch web.. realise alot of places im not allowed to
enter... coz im no longer their student? wow.. saddenin.. gettin old too..

my life will be, workin, gettin attach, advance studies, break up, gettin
attach again, grad, work, gettin married, kids, becomin old n haggard..

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if (rich == 1) {
result, "+ gettin flings, do hair, manicure, enjoy life. +" }

else (rich != 1){
result, "+ cook, look after kids, old n haggard. +"}
return false;}

haha... is wrong!! cant remember also.. shld not make a fool of myself..
i got a blue black on my tummy after gloria poked my stomach really hard..
n she was sayin y so hard? coz i got 6 pacs! haha..

something went really wrong while burnin my cd.. i wasted my 'flower'
disc.. hai...

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(tuesday)

tuck is goin ns in 8days time! dereka is in july, hockie is in august..
n hong got A for her fyp!! n she didnt even go!~ wow.. win liao.. nothin to
say...

ok... my parents will be goin to 'san bu yi pai' (3steps,1kneel?) me not
goin..

wow.. cant stand the 'wang wang' advertisment.. they r so lousy.. so irritatin..
esp the one with the monkey god n the kid.. n the pokey product is called
'really good' ?!? like, wt..

watchin the taiwan variety show now.. they r showin the scenery of redang..
snorkellin n feedin the fish at the same time.. that same place too..
haha! so funny! alot of fun.. how they dump me into the middle of the sea n
got so panick n start to drown kw.. mj n him started swim away w/o savin us..
n how they blocked my pipe sayin it was some kind of bread got struck.. haha
dumb.. n worst, holdin some stranger's hand from hk for like dunno how long?
alot of dumb stuff n things we done..

hong called me.. chat alot... was asking im not doin anything for my 21st?
erm.. honestly, birthday birthday lor? i wouldnt be xtremely excited or happy..
jus like that? so mayb go out with a few good fnds n eat..

im interested in min's roadshow thingy.. hmm.. see how it goes..

..::|| once n for all ||::..