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   Friday, April 30, 2004
i tink the tagger cant be used... i need to find another one..
EVERYONE's tagger is gone for that particular company...
tink will register from zhen one... but very big n cartoonish..
opps! later scully she dun want pass me my iron eggs...

is 430am... im wondering how is the rendering n exportin
of my program now in sch... hope that computers dont
explode or wat... on for like more 48 hours....

ok, i have totally no backup for that!!! SHIT!! i now than
know!!! *better prays*

oh no.. im so scare of my exams n im not doin anything...!!
*goin 2 grab buddha's leg now*

im hate this... n im missing everyone!!!

hazel, diana, ella, dereka, joanna, mich, john, fen n the whole
damn list goes on.. i tink grouping helps...

i miss
my ij bitches, my ij schmates, my poly friends from all the different
sch, my cca fnds, my pau, my exes, my co clinques. n my classmate!

or perhaps,
i miss everyone who i knows...

oh i tink i need qin now to entertain n relax my mind!! im crappin now!
will go to sch in like a few hours time... need to continue my report..
coz i dunno the time frame n seconds!

cartoon animation is fun.. but the exportin n renderin is HORRIBLE!

i seriously need to get that U magazine!! got my yandao! can anyone
buy me that? coz i dun read~~ i want a louie koo poster!! i tink i got to
get it online...



   Thursday, April 29, 2004
been to myan hse yesterday to do my 3d project for like,
WHOLE DAY?!

now... im in school.... still doin my 3d max....
n is 7pm!! n im still in sch! wat the f?!~

is like taking FOREVER?! my youth is slowly drained away...
ok, im crapping...

special thanks to pple who help me for the music
zhen, siling, andrew, janet n huimin!

thanks hockie for the flying without wings mp3!!
wow lao! u dunno how much i love u !!!
(i went ard lookin for this stupid song like mad! n
he actually went thru the effort to download n send
to me!)

and siling for all the mp3!!
-falling
-life is so short
-in the club
-bring me to life

n technical help from
derek, frederick n weiling(who i dunno who is she?)

n SPECIAL THANKS N KISSES N HUGS N DUNNO WAT~
myan n qin mei mei!!!
without u 2 beside me, i will be so damn lost! although i
just want pple to sit n double confirm with me...
n spent the whole day with me n my nonsense!!!

esp qin.... all the editin of music.... wow lao... me also cannot tk it!
thank you! i owe u chocolate!!~

so my thing will take 3 hours to export...!!!~ honestly, i tink is damn
funny!!! i see the whole video, i just cant stand it but to laugh...
just pray mr khoo knows my character well enough to understand that,
I AM LAME...

wow lao... just came back... now is 8pm!! got alot of errors!! cause didnt save!
ok, tok later... im damn irritated now...

=========

came home like 835pm? so lucky that sch is so near my hse... n im so lucky
to get a ride from mr khoo.. like AGAIN!! yaya!! haha.. it was rainin really
heavily..

i tink qin is so funny... esp when i see her takin the tissues like
nobody's business?! grabbin with 2 hands like tryin to empty khoo's tissues..
n i tink she n ru really needs to go for telephony classes... she pronounced
tyre as tai ya!~ n ru pronouced as
operator as opt por rate TOR!

gosh.. i tink i must stick ard more with my class derek... my ang mo is gettin
more n more jalat as years goes by...

is 4am now.... typin out the report.... i havent started my exams revision..
i tink i really cant go for thomas hyatt hotel stay~~
there it goes with my ij bitches.... damn!

i got cramp everywhere now... aching esp on my neck..




   Tuesday, April 27, 2004
didnt go sch today...
im exhausted.. physically n mentally....

though i had a nite out with the boys yesterday..
hockie came to pick me up ard 215am.. 1st, i told him
to wait for me downstairs 1st, 2nd still ask him send me
northpoint to withdraw some cash out... feel kinda bad..

drove all the way to amk to meet up with riez.. n our
BIG BROTHER, tuck was once again late.. waited for half an
hour.. after that, picked adian up too...

it was so funny to have tuck in the car... esp when we were
at geyland? and we follow riez car over n over n over n OVER!!~
at the same route, same circle, SAME CARPARK!!!~ aaahhh!!!

by the time we settle, is like nearly 4am?! we went to lao pa sha
instead... went to lovers park.. the last time i went was 2 last xmas
place changed, crowd different, same statue, same memorises..

tok alot of ghost story~ wow lao! scary like hell!! i n riez really got
weak heart.... well, is added into my collections!! haha..

tml to myan hse for my 3D project... this is so sick lah! i really hate
projects! esp when is been botherin me right from the start of this
sem!~ n not to 4get i still got 2 exams..

many pple said my hair looks nice... honestly, i really dun like it!
is those hair with horrible thick uneven fringe n my hair so blue black, n
i looked VERY FAIR!!~ n is so common lor!!~ argh.. n i
erm cant say much.. i dunno who knows this blog.... ok, nuff said..

had so much laughter n fun with ru, qin n ling on mon... esp derek..
wow lao.. kept disturbin him n ru.. was askin him y he never come..
n u know.. such crap lah...



   Monday, April 26, 2004
went swimin on fri..
reckon the nyp pool is quite clean!
well, at least i dun felt is salty? not to mention abt
the story i heard last time...

sat
comm skill paper... my last paper held at sports hall..
sat at the last row~

cut my hair after the paper.. look very weird..
took 2 hours? i dunno they cut wat? met pau they
all at orchard then all the way to chinatown...

gladys bought the watch i got for only 26!! i got cheated..

went ktv.. than to selegie for pool.. gloria driving anyway..
after that to the red light district for supper.. lorong 8! is
been like 2 yrs? around 2 years i last went there..

me ate alot! haha.. food damn nice.. rreach home around
340am?

ok, im really tired.. will update soon.. still need to go to sch
for my unfinish project... sian...

n qin! wow lao! i cant remember askin her to put my name
on her blog? n she flood my name in her blog! hope 2 c her
in sch tml.. ah bor no one come entertain me..



   Monday, April 19, 2004
Taiwan variety show: making fun of Qin Yang

part one
part two

even if u dun understand chinese, i tink by lookin at the things they do,
u will laugh!!! esp part 2!!!

this is wat i did while looking for ru's website n my compression report...



haha.. i am so BO LIAO!!... coz of wat hong wrote in my friendster.. i decided
to do this.... (let me know if i can add anymore funny things in there..)

was browsing this website n i saw him in there


thats him sitting in the center... time passes really fast.. almost 1yr plus since
we broke up. n best part, i cant remember this concert... mayb i did went, but cant remember.

shit... i just cant find the old url anymore.. is 510am liao.. n tuck's database
report... my eyes cant open.......

edwin msg me tellin me that h.fei goin in ns on this thurs... n he is so excited..
wat a big change.. remember he told me he was so reluctant to go in so fast..
who knows, he is excited now..

khoo gave us this 3d studio max educational thingy?? haha.. just in case im not
in this line, i can SELL IT AWAY!! think can cost $500?? anyway, is so heavy..
i look so expert carrying that! chey~~ esp when one of my designin friend was
askin me to give it to him when he saw me carryin it..

took photo with my classmate in the lecture today! so funny~ alot of problems
lah~ coz use timer mah... n see alot of photos...

suppose to go out with hockie tuck n the girls to newton to eat at 130am.. but than
hockie cant... so no car, no tok... ya, is always so happenin.. do project halfway,
meet n eat...

den.thomas hyatt hotel stay is 1st...
class chalet is confirm... 12,13,14...
jessica chalet 13,14,15,16...

ok, while waitin for my project to get upload into my briefcase... i shall find
something to eat......



   Sunday, April 18, 2004
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ok, got to retype wat happen on last tues.. will just
summarise.. so damn busy with all my exams n projects!
n im here finally to update!

tuesday
presentation... wore a horrible skirt! lucky i dun have to
wear them anymore! gosh.. photo takin everywhere! than went to
amk central with my classmates! me,ru,shar,yani,anin,shrikin,
maddy,kai,derek,has..

derek looked so brother??!~ n ru looked so da jie!

bought a pair of slippers at only $7! n is so damn comfortable!
thinkin to get another pair.. anyway, was chosin slippers with
ru..(shoes hurts!) n i was tokin abt how the taiwanese dance
taiwan cha cha... haha!! is particular the whole body moves up
n down in a circle form!! haha.. very hard to describe it lah..
but the shop was full of our laughter! esp is girls lah..

n shrikin had a voice change when her heels got struck in the drain
cover.. haha! to tink everyone was laughin at her instead of helpin
her! this girl ar.. alot of nonsense.. oh ya! n she told me abt
william hung's new song..

i re-live i cang five! i re-live i cang touch the kive.. HAHA
(i believe i can fly, i believe i can touch the sky)

this guy ar.. really got to go for telephony classes..

not forgettin, i saw jeremy! didnt knew he was from ajc.. dun
like him anyway.. so no point goin over..

wanted to go let andrew cut my hair.. but time too short lah..

wednesday
was so busy on my projects! didnt go for CO practise

thursday
database was finally handed in... felt so useless.. lucky i got
DEREK! gee... the business rule report is kinda hard to think?!
anyway, is over lah! no need to tink anymore! just got to hand in
the report..

friday
mr khoo said that one of his friend once told him when he was
washin the dishes.. woman should be taught with a whip.. wow! i tell
u, esp there were so many girls in my class who all have a brain,
(not bimbos) were like HELLO?! n counter attack...

said wat girls should b the one doin all the hsework all these..
n i said, than wat r the maids for?! haha, of coz that wasnt the pt,
but guys are lazy lah! wat gers r here to serve men?! suck my toes!

n khoo was sayin something abt the baby very pretty.. coz mixed blood!
*faint*

VR lesson was fun lah! esp my class got yiqin n shrikin.. WE ROCKS!
of coz, n the rest who make my poly years a memorable one.. oh ya!
yani's vr project's closet was so funny! the cupboard door swings,
instead of open!!

n me? lucky yan got help me out.. ah bor i really dunno how.. n i havent
touch on my VR n ISI common test for tomolo!

feedback was LOUSY LAH! system so laggin.. i spent an hour to do mine
n halfway thru for myan! n she has a teacher called 'thong gong!'
made me tot of that 'police n thief' mark lee was named in that show..

saturday
didnt sleep for the whole night! was practically studing for today's
VR n ISI.. all theory.. cannot take it.. mood was really bad..
tink i cant handle my mood swing nowadays.. hmm.. last time no matter
how jalat, i will still smile.. now? i just showed face..

oh ya! funny part comes.. when we were all in the exam hall, david
ask us to place our admin card on the table, of coz lah~ admin card
was never needed wat, so got to take wallet out.. n when one whole
group went to take our card, suddenly, ALARM!!

so funny!! yiqin accidently pull off her alarm! (those meant for preverts?)
ya, n it was so loud?! n best part, everyone was laughin at her! coz it
was like, take admin card also got alarm?! n best part, it comes from
yiqin~!!

gosh.. VR was damn difficult la~ scriptin was like, HUH?! how come after
ROUTING still got programmin? anyway, just write wat i knew.. wat panick
me the most was david n derek!! coz, david smiles at me, sort of askin
me whether i tink that paper was easy?! (i assume lah~) n derek, he
nods at me n smiles! gosh! *stress* while my eyebrows have become a V shape!

than comes the ISI... stress sia! best part, when i saw the 1st question,
i immediately turn to the cover page to see whether i sat for the correct
module!! cant believe.. n i finish it quite fast.. n best part, i sat right
in the CENTER! so, ya lah.. cant really go out.. wait lor.. cant believe
is the last time i will be sitting in the lecture room for my exam..

ok, side track!

went sentosa after that with hockie, tuck, sean n shar.. so little pple
went.. of coz, the rest was there after their papers... it was really
fun lah! took monorail!! photo takings, tuck's nonsense.. finally reach
pawalan! n didnt realise till tuck pronouce how they reported the station
name..

cable car station = k-bo-ro kar stay-soon
underwater world station = un-da-wat-da-la wow stay-soon
(heard is meant for the jap..)

reach that place.. damn nice lor.. very cooling! romantic (with
the right person of coz..), jazz music thru out.. perfect lah!
how come i didnt realise it last time esp when i stay there for 3days?!
alot of flash back.. *smilin to myself* sad that no one is stayin.. to
tink i was so excited to get suntan next mornin..

hockie n tuck was laughin at my thai boxer! they were dancin this
thai dancin (b4 boxin starts) when they was like, ting ting! (bell)
n like kanna possess... funny sia..

tok to feng.. he told me that he have went over to taiwan for trainin..
left around last week.. will b back 2 mths later. csco pluck concert tml..
was really happy to have a small chat with him.. oh ya, n kenny too! he
ask whether i still remember him.. n of coz lah! i miss everyone i knew
there!

tuck was funny when he told us abt his classmate.. laugh like mad.. sad
hong not there.. saw jillyn n shirlee but never see us.. reach home like
1230am..

sunday
FAMILY DAY! went to furama hotel for dim sum AGAIN!! yaya! ordered peking
duck!! nice nice! alot of dim sum! wow lao.. love it so much!

bought alot of things! and is all those i wanted to get for very long n
i cant find the type of particular design.. who knows.. my watch, cardigan
n sunglasses all found in the same day!! the sunglasses auntie was like,
kept lookin at me, n got a shock after she knew that im the youngest..
ya, so wats new?~ i look old.. anyway, she was like, kinda envy our whole
family chose sunglasses also choose together.. paddy help to chose the
design..

so to tell everyone here.. i wasnt that close with my family last time,
ok lah~ close lah, but not that close.. something happen that made me
or us so much so much closer than now.. n i really treasure n enjoy
every moment.. so tellin everyone that, be initative!! plan a family
outin! it will be so automatic that everyone r looking forward to it..

anyway SIDE TRACK AGAIN!

so happy! spent alot.. n plus, concert tickets! (tink only pau knows
when i mean that design, is THAT DESIGN! so very hard to find my things..
so no more worries pau, u wouldnt have to follow me everywhere! coz i
found all!)

saw this handbag really nice.. goin to get it.. but, i dun even carry..
so mayb not.. except for the jiang mei qi cd, i dun tink i got anything
i want to buy...

paddy bought 4d.. i draw like 4 times?! coz dunno how to shade? i say, SURE
STRIKE! coz i 1st time buy!! haha.. *pray hard hard* number was from the
the cost of the dim sum n receipt number...

went for the concert.. saw mingji.. his hair is SO CUTE! so much better!
i remember someone is the same as me, we CANNOT, CANNOT stand guys with
long hair! who is that ger ar?? anyway, most gers dun like lah~ just that
no one says..

had a short chat with feng n kenny.. pass them the chocolates n food! n
his clothes together.. wow lao! n yguo lost so much weight! cant even
recongise him!

everyone does change after a year n so..

cant believe i took 3 hours to type finish! ok lah~ i was multi taskin also~
cant believe! n is 5am.. gtg sch at 7am.. hope my fun lovin will be comin
to entertain me in sch!

projects on hand
- compression report update abit here n there
- database report to get printed n handed in by TML! (dun wish to drag anymore~)
- 3D max

exams left
- communication skills
- database
- compression

n im out of this place within a month's time....

i tink i need either nuts or diana now with me.. i want to tok..

..::|| it always take longer time to create something n
a shorter time to destroy everything ||::..



   Wednesday, April 14, 2004
fuck!
wat i type is all gone!
ma de...





   Tuesday, April 13, 2004
peace angel
you are the angel of peace and serenity. you like
to be alone in a quite place just you and your
thoughts. you enjoy being in love and nature.
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today is an extreme rotten day for me!

so ROTTEN!~ i didnt bring my wallet... im so irritated with all the
reports... (though qin really make my day lah~ )

paddy lost my HANDPHONE! this smart alec put his, or rather, MY
handphone on top of his car, n he went into the car n DROVE OFF!!
leaving the hp on top!!

my mood immediately went from middle to top to all the way down!
his msg is all gone!! all the very encouragin words all gone! hate that
type of feeling.. is like, angry, piss off, sad, cum dunno wat?!
though is over lah~ but u just want to keep those memories...
now i know why that time cheryl, zhen they all cry
liao.. so meanin, u never know how one feel when it actually
happens to you..

not if shin mention that i can call n locked the phone, i wouldnt have
realise it was the 8310 which was lost! not the 6510!!! wow lao!
u dunno how excited i was lor..

im goin to hugged it like mad.. nvm.. hp lost lost lor.. honestly i dun
really feel the pain lah~ haha! now im so happy!! think those who
r in my shoes will understand exactly wat i meant.. cant really describe
in words...

so that 90360755 is no longer in use... so he will be using that 6510
one... he better dun lose it b4 i figure out y the other 6510 cant be
used..

im so gald i got my girlfriends to cheer me up.. thanks lor.. esp
shar they all who kept askin me wat type of msg u want? they send
to u tonight~

to zhen.. THANKS... thanks 4 being just there throughout.. n even to
check on me...

america top model was WOR!!~ next monday the last 4 models will got to
have their photo shot taken NAKED!! today's photo shots was already so
'physcial' esp in their underwear's commerical... n i still thinks shannon is so chio!

im so busy... ah.. cant wait till is 2 weeks later.. all projects will be over..! im
still stress over database.. even shrikin cant help me with it!! ah...
im sleepy nowadays.. cant seem to study.. ok, nite nite guys..

..::|| wat is so wrong with me?! ||::..



   Sunday, April 11, 2004
im so tired.. it isnt a good friday nor a good weekend neither...

projects on hand:
-National Education
-Database (both lecture n project)
-Comm Skills
-Virtual Reality (VR)
-3D Max
-Info System (IS)

common test this sat... VR n IS
i GOT NO TIME TO TOUCH THEM YET! n is all memorising!! gosh!

project finish at the moment:
-National Education
-Database(only lecture part)
-Comm Skills (alignment)
-IS report

things not done n the most tedious...
-DATABASE FORMS!! coz i really hate it!
-VR (hopefully this wed i WILL FINISH! *prays*)
-3D Max animations....

i never felt so stressed up n i cant do anything to it
becoz, MY COMPUTER IS SO jalat!!!~~

to tink im still an IT student....
n i left sunday to do my database
n I MUST FINISH BY THEN! n rush that report...

i suddenly want to end my life.. i dunno y? just a tot...
but i wouldnt lah.. just never felt so ARGH!!!



   Saturday, April 10, 2004
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. FLYING (and non-flying) COCKROACHES !!
2. butterflies
3. cats, those animals which r damn flexible~
imagine i can put my leg is behind my head?

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. elson
2. da
3. johnston

THREE PEOPLE I LOVE:
im putting it into groups! n there is nothin u can do to it! wahahaha!
1. my family
2. friends
3. lovers

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. me n my friends' photos
2. my perfumes
3. my instruments
trying to put my leg behind my head..

THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. late
2. male chavinistic (wrong spell)
3. thinkin
putting my leg behind my head..

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. girls
2. database! programmings...
3. wat r the judges thinkin for chosing miss spore..

n y yoga needs to put ur leg behind ur head..

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1. acessories
2. alcohol bottles n shot glasses..
3. perfumes, aroma therapeutic candles.
n my leg..

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. project on SARS?!
2. this thingy
3. watching tv...
trying to put my leg behind my head?

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. put my leg behind my head
2. run around naked in town??
3. rob? eat till i vomit?

THREE COLORS I LIKE:
1. all the different shades of red, pink, purple
2. silver, bronze
3. black

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. eat
2. sleep
3. shit....
n try to put my leg behind my head?

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. idiotic
2. stubborn
3. bitchy

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. fly
2. swim
3. put my leg behind my head.

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. 98.7fm
2. my stupid ideas...
3. my lame jokes..

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO
EVER:
1. jeremy!
2. lecturers are always wrong!
3. my instructor's nagging!! ARGH!!!!~

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. i long time never practise judo (when i want to punch someone..)
2. i beg ur pardon??
3. sia lah~

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. nydc baked rice
2. sakae eel fish
3. ban mian..

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. advance lesson for my music
2. swim
3. put my leg behind my head?

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. evian
2. tea
3. coffee

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1. ninja turtles?
2. chipmanes
3. carebear?
while trying to put my leg behind my head...



   Thursday, April 08, 2004
wich
You are a sexy wizard or wich, what ever you
prefer. You have so much power and Wisdom that
you never use any of your power for harming
people. yeah well that's about all i can say
about you.
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this whole group of this congee stall are whole bunch of sweet tokers... first he helps you
to take this n take that.. n say ur perfume is very nice.. n i find it a kind of scary...

i think shrikin's ringtone is so funny yet irritatin.. now the whole class hums to that
ringtone... hope she changes it soon!

met pau, gladys n jane for dinner.. i reached there like 615? during that half an hour..
so shockin i met myan! she meetin her friend too.. ate at sakae... ate eel, yummy! beans,
hmm.. didnt eat alot of sushi..but alot of snacking..

took lovergety.. looks nice.. just that i seem like some kind of tai tai.. think im look old..
haha, ya lor, if only im tai tai huh?! went around searchin my louis poster.. n i cant find.. think
he is so good looking.. im so shallow!!~ but nvm.. i like!

went to cine to chill.. it was cosmic nite.. just sit down there to chat till 1130pm...

last min meet myan, hockie, tuck, n riez to newton.. travel all the way to AMK, waited for
myan, than riez to come fetch us...

had alot of fun esp when tuck is with us.. when he tried to imitate this bunch of
obsene jap boys touching one another nipples n down there? n they were shoutin this,
'do ta - toast toast?' repeatly.. n tuck did it so funny till the next table was funny
at it.. n the adventure of the escaping crab..

riez drove us to changi village to see ah gua.. there were this one which is so
chio? the rest, all look like aunties lah!~ n their legs?! n figures are so skinny!
taxi driver, carpark, 2 ah guas... ok, story stop here.. was tellin riez to park
besides the cabbie.. haha!

riez also brought us to see plane taking off n landing off.. tuck was telling us this
friend NS story.. so funny lor.. buey tahan.. all of them goin in soon.. sad..
chalet, last time gathering.... riez ghost story so scary!! n that mischevious
hockie kept making noises to scare me..

b4 we left, another round of ah gua!! heard them said $30.. dunno per night or
an hour? anyway, help riez to fill his oil tank, quite fun.. 1st time. though my
instructor n my paddy taught me b4.. but still, there were guidance~

reach home like 5am in the mornin..?

======

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY! n easter?!


wake up like 730pm?! gosh.. i really can sleep~

rush my prject report like mad..!! headache.. forgot to msg back yz n shin
they all.. but i guess nvm lah~ is too late to msg n meet them.. plus, i got
work to do!

my iron eggs from taiwan got to wait.. sob..

my co junior called me.. told me abt the performance this sat.. cant make it..
VR common test dunno wat time? at 1st i think can.. but now, i tink i cant..

download this song by simply red, if you dont know me by now.. very sentimental.

If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me

All the things, that we've been through
You should understand me like I understand you
Now girl I know the difference between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothing to break up our happy home
Don't get so excited when I come home a little late at night
'Cause we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't)
If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me

We've all got our own funny moods
I've got mine, woman you've got yours too
Just trust in me like I trust in you
As long as we've been together it should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together or we might as well say goodbye
What good is a love affair when you can't see eye to eye

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't) (x3)


..::|| itS aMaziNg how u eNtEr mY LifE N hOw U're goNe LikE 3 wiNd wiThoUt a tRacE... yEt in mY hEart iS tHe pResEncE of U. ||::..



   Wednesday, April 07, 2004


You Are a Peppermint Cappuccino


You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.

However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.

You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.

You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please


What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-)


im head over heels in love with louis! gosh!! he is SO CUTE!
he is my new love! nah nah... he is MY BOYFRIEND! plus, he has
dimples too!! i love dimples guys!!~ *faint*

my lower set of teeth is aching! too tight i guess.. but is better than
loose lah~

oh ya, saw shiyun in the juice magazine.. shrikin was showing me
her friend's friend? ya, thats how i spotted her.. n also, her
eamon singer? the title i dun wan you back? n the fuck it? this
ger ar.. dunno why she can get so happy hearding it? not forgetting
the way she tok abt her sis!! so funny.. gosh..

went lunch with myan.. the rest? couldnt make it.. anyway, heard
about something.. got shock abt one of our friend... myan help me
with my VR.. n there were this whole bunch of year2 screaming
so excited abt their specialisation? n they were like ya i got into IM!!
(interactive media) heard is very hard to get in! me n myan was like,
'u sure' (in our heads?) maybe? maybe not? im not sure? but
definately not that crazy n excited as them?

must say that, IM is really fun compared to the rest.. at least i do
enjoy 3d max... but not the process lah!

benson is getting into NCS!! all the best! he must have been one of
those AD students... heard it tough in there.. anyway, he n elijah got
into their 1st choice.. IM too.. of coz lah~ both of them are As students..
sure get into the coz they want.

went for the grad tok? come to think abt it, i tink our poly is
really good.. though i really dun appreciate it lah~ but i dun take
it for granted either.. of coz, to tink i could stay there from ard
3 to 5+ ALONE?! dun ask me how, i dunno either? of coz, inbetween got
friends come sit with me, bernard, qin, diana, xue fen.. n
refreshment was like, the egg tart was HEAVEN! shit.. i sound like
i stayed back becoz of the refreshment?!

anyway, meet diana, artique?(dunno correct spell?), 2 new friends,
peter n dickson.. wow lao.. they were like so funny lor.. somemore
they r rushin for tomolo's presentation? very nonsense lah.. buey
tahan.. they very jalat.. tomolo 7am need to come to sch to prepare..
n peter was like, u like to laugh alot? honestly, i felt so paisei.. coz
dun know them? but corny lor... i know lah~ is like, pei n paisei are
not together? but ar...

she said something i yearn for so long. when will i become like her?
able not to feel for things you rather not feel.

me went to co after that.. know that next sat got performance..
but just askin only, dun intend to participate.. ended at 930pm!
so late... for the 1st time, i realise that a man can actually have
skin like baby! better than the fairest girl u have actually seem!
n is those pinky fair? wow lao!

everyone said my teddy bear on my handphone was CUTE!
*quickly act cute?!* erm.. ok, im lame..

..::|| the night is so intoxicating not becoz of the
stars, but becoz who is besides you ||::..



   Tuesday, April 06, 2004


saw this.. tot it was kinda cool? anyway, i practise strictly on heterosexual...

mornin madness was so funny! i got to 'tahan' my laughter all the way at home
till sch!! they were tokin abt beckham having an affairs, n was acting out the
conversation.. n Sheikh Haikel was like sayin out all those 'censored' part?
there was this part where he was just,

you beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, he
beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep,
n it sound as if he was doin some techno songs!!

it is just the matter of time i get internal bleeding by them...
got to tahan my laughter..

anyway, comm skill was fun today! esp when
james keep promoting her $3500++ vaccum cleaner.. call wat rainbow? or rambo?
i dunno?

is goin to rain like mad again! coz is the month of APRIL!! where is the most
thunder month? not forgetting, i was screamin in the lab when i saw that bright
lightnin! n the guys were like, GIRLS?!~~

anyway, not only me.. ru was also screamin!! haha!! we all so scare! esp we
were sitting in front of the window!



   Monday, April 05, 2004
lady of the wolves
you are THE LADY OF THE WOLVES
you run with the pack, silent hunters through the
woods. free and wild
which dark woman are you? [inc pics. women]

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my big bird finally reply!
ok, lets recap....

friday
everyone ask me to go watch the passion of christ.. but cant make it..
so didnt go... oh ya not forgetting i saw cherie!! gosh! she turned so
pretty!! ma chime like those comic girl!! plus she got longer hair!
wow lao.. chio..

both of us couldnt recongise one another! i was like lookin at other places
n called her name? haha just in case wrong person~ than both of us so excited!
haha.. n the funny part was she said i went for plastic surgury? funny lah that
girl...

tok so much with meiting at sogo (rafflescity).. i tink i want to get that
precious moments's ezlink card.. dunno how much it cost.. coz i saw that
card card was sold at $22 but not sure whether it has any amt in them..
anyway, got my pair of sheeps! like after so many months?! last 2 pairs..
n other places got no more.. so lucky~

met meiting, yz, jooe, este, alex, cindy, sher for dinner at mache after sch..
everyone was given listering sweets!! *smell fresh* not forgetting alex n
her FOOD!~

saw pau's ex on my way to the carpark, n i dunno y i got so excited? anyway,
alex's mercs got no plate number!! to tink jooe n i was laughin like mad..
coz the way she said was hilarious lah.. ok, n her blue tooth thingy..

n becoz of my project, i got to go home first n they? monks lah! jealous..
swear i will go there once im done with all these shit!~

reach home abt 1130pm..

saturday
zhen flew to taiwan again! lucky girl..

woke up late.. supposely to reach myan house by 12noon, but than i reach
at 130pm.. saw xiao hei too! anyway, tot i will finish till like late evening..
who knows, around 5 plus bah.. she taught me gun bound too.. finally know
wats that~

sunday
family day! wake up early, waitin for jie n jiefu to come home.. ok, she
bought a total of $14 worth of bread home! scary!

went northpoint to get that yoga mat... cant find one she likes, went to
sembawang.. brought back alot of memories instead of her yoga mat.. bought
2 handphone 'dunno wat that called?' anyway, is the one that maddie has..
tot i will never get a chance to find it, who knows? haha!

my beads snapped.. my mum told me not to pick them up.. gosh.. i was
worried abt my surrounded pple.. lucky nothing happen.. think i watched
too much drama series..

did my work after that again.. sian...

ok, did my work like mad for the weekend.. just dun want to add in..
spoilt everything...

ready plan to fly on the 20 of oct if nothing happen? if not, means im
working...

..::|| i pray for a better tomolo... =( ||::..



   Friday, April 02, 2004
busy
You don't have time to mess about with pathetic
people who waste your time. You tell it how it
is and if people don't like it, well, they can
go shit!
What sarcatic saying are you?

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ok, TONS OF HOMEWORK by tomolo!! n im falling sick..

somehow, today the girls' topic is about their quarrels with bf.. ok, different
people different behaviour. n i changed my mind on saying that musicians
make a better lover.. musicians, jounalist, reporters, volunteers.. NONO!
coz they tend to place their hobby first. chey! also not i say one.. is the
msn webbie..

was lookin all over for this song for like 2weeks?.. finally i got the title!

THANKS SHAR, SHRIKIN AND HAZEL!!!

Somebody said they saw you
the person u were kissin wasn’t me
and I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don’t wana no
If your playn me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it ne more
And if your creepin please don’t let it show
Oh baby I don’t wana no

I think about it when I hold u
When lookin in your eyes I cant belive
I don’t need to know the truth
Baby keep it to urself

I don’t wana know
If ur playn me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it ne more
N if ur creepin please don’t let it show
Oh baby I dun wana no

Baby does he touch u beta then me
Does he watch ya fall asleep
Does he show you love this way
And the things you do to me
If you rbetter off that way
Baby all that I can say
Is go on n do your thing and don’t come back to me

P DIDDY
I don’t wana know your whereabouts
Or how your moven
I know when u in the house
Or when your cruising
Its been proven
My love you abusing
I cant understand how a man got u choosen
Undecided
I came n provided my undivided
But you came n denied it
Don’t even try it
I know when you lying
Don’t even do dat I know why u crying
Im not applyin no pressure
Just wana let u know that I don’t wana let you go
N I don’t wana let you leave
Cant say I didn’t let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese
Put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the west indies
Now its time that u invest in me
Cuz if not then its best you leave
Holla

I don’t wana know
If you playn me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it ne more
And if your creepin
Please don’t let it show
Oh baby
X3


the song is called i dun want to know by p diddy... but cant find it at
powerweb.. so guess i got to wait b4 i upload in here.. so just got to stick
with this song.. (try- nelly fur.)

nizam got this face really cute.. tink is baby fats? rivervale got exhibition..
now is their turn... i dun have to go...

kept 4geting kai's 3Dmax n qin's codings... nvm...

..::||When I fell in love, I only have eyes for my lover. ||::..



   Thursday, April 01, 2004

Free
You are a Free Unicorn you run in meadows
all day and play with your companions. You are
the most friendly of unicorns and you are one
of the few kinds that will befriend a human.
You don't like to fight and will not do so
inless yours or you friends lives are in
danger. You are fun and loving and have a
beautiful sprit.
what kind of unicorn are you? (with pics)

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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ESTE! n HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!



com skill was damn funny yesterday!! tok abt how those gers want to go for war? gosh..
our teacher always side track one.. but good lah~ from the verge of fallin asleep to
suddenly so awake...

musician makes a better lover. n im half... therefore, im a GOOD LOVER!! hahaha~
*read here*

went to sch like 830am?! gosh! that was like dunno how many
donkeys years i woke up so early for sch presentation?! anyway, im done
with one project.. not to forget, zhaoru was tellin me this ghost story,
though is in the mornin lah, but suddenly my phone rang! both of us scream!
IN THE LAB SOMEMORE!! gosh.. scary...

had so much fun irritating yi qing.. wow lao.. so funny i tell u.. anyway, as usual,
went to eat with myan after sch, met janet n melissa, tok alot.. quite serious..
ok, went to janet's lab after that, n to think we were so bored to sign up for
HELLO KITTY's EMAIL!! ok, pls email me at belthida@hellokitty.com.. junks mails
are welcome!

myan left, janet n mel also left, n im left there for like 2 to 3 hours to type out
my report.. at the same time, tok to hyan.. is been like wow! told her that will meet
next month but dunno when lah~ paddy came to fetch me home..

reach home at 4pm, watch yesterday taped chinese show, gosh! gu tian le so YANDAO!
funny show.. cannot tahan.. somehow that show make me think of yiqing.. dunno y
also? i think is the name lah..

ok, slack abit, touch here n there, left the hse again at 6pm to sch~ met beibei!! n johnathan!
so happy to see them two.. tok n tok.. oh ya, saw miss ang also!

went in for practise like 630pm? was so late? but nvm.. im not the latest! practise
those really easy scores.. for 3HOURS!! tot can practise on my own.. but not very nice..
like very dao...

im starting to feel better now.. though everytime without fail, at that place, at
that time, i will tink of them.. i miss them alot. no doubt. shall not say anymore..
im bothered.

ok, fulfillin day today! shall go joggin in the mornin later... tomolo, a new day
again.. hai~ not that happy.. dunno y? think too stress over projects...

..::|| Realizing to love and to be loved is the gift of life ||::..