maybe, i really should let it all go... afterall the crack is getting bigger...
was readin some "new" blogs.. this girl had 4 blue rubberbands inserted
in her back molar teeths.. n feelin yucky abt it.. yap! thats me in last july! can take my braces off liao! erm.. only the top part lah!~ fast isnt it? well,
my teeth wasnt crooked afterall.. but he wants to straighten my wisdom teeth, n
i dun mind continue wearin, so i will wear them for the next 2 years!
went almost to johor 2 get those bbq stuff n went to amk for my class-outing n
rush down to mm at 11pm!~ all within 4 hours time!
im will be missin charm.. that ang mo kia! she will be comin back durin xmas! not sayin im
very close with her, but i dunno why im ALREADY MISSIN HER!! saw kaeden at monks! just in case u r seein this, PAISEI~ NEVER CALL U! cause u seen very busy!
saw fen there too!! SHOCK! she called me in the dance floor~ i was so happy to see her! suddenly my tots was like, WHY HERE?! me: aye! DUN TELL ME U ARE?... fen: I WAS ALL ALONG! u ALSO?! me: NONO!! IM STRAIGHT !!
-seem like everyone got shock! but i got the most shock-
to think she said she was crooked all along!!! *faint* she really can hide huh?!
for the 1st time, i never see girls fight before! ok, call me sua ku~ but
using bottle, screamin n shoutin, blood all over.. n pple like us WHO IS JUST BESIDE THEM, continue dancing~ WAT THE HELL R WE THINKIN ABT? to think we r SO CLOSE!
n funny part, i told alex that she must protect us! when they r still fightin beside us~
mood was spoilt, sher mama who is always there to protect us ask us to go~
n all went to ate roti prata~ laugh like nobody's business~
ask gek, wat if the bottle hits u on the head n u were bleedin like no one business? exactly like the girl? WOW! I WILL blah blah blah... (2 B honest, i cant remember)
than i ask gek again, if i were the one who hit leh? WOW~ different story liao!
u say sorry can liao!! blood can stop one lah~ right? wat r friends for?! haha~
all sent me till my NR1 came.. there were like, 4pple in the bus, driver n 3 passengers.
3 indians n 1 chinese (me). NOTHIN ABT RACIST! but as usual, while i was thinkin
my happy days with ex-roy, fen n mich, the driver stops his bus at this WU LOO PLACE so quiet, dark.. n guess wat he did? he came out n said to me, give me 5 min n went
all the back to chat with the 2 indian guys!! GOD! i cant even sleep coz tamil can be
really irritatin~ no offence! chat for like 15 mins?! wow! if got cab, i will be out long time
ago!~ i reach home at 530am!!~ msg to my darlin diana that i cant make it to sch! onli an hour of sleep! n will have a long
day at sembawang later!~
THANKS for this birthday bbq u all did for me!! i love you all!! u all have been really busy,
for this bbq! THANKS FOR THE EVERYTHING U ALL HAVE DONE!! the CAKE ALSO!! THANKS
to MY CLASSMATES! myan,hong,tequila,lai,tuck,sean,andrew,riez,derek!! THANKS for the BRA
n tshirt!! n really making my day! esp tuck n his jokes! n hong's comfort! n myan in entertainin
everyone in the bbq! n THANKS joanna,shirlee,weiqiang,derek for the JEANS!! THANKS frederick,
huang fei, weiqiang, diana 4 comin alone! n pple i dunno at the bbq! THANKS FOR COMIN OVER TOO!
u all have made my day!
had a past 3 days huge laugh that made me ache so much~ thanks to u all! esp
those who know im feelin really blue n grey! didnt even had the mood 2 go pubbin with the rest..
but will be goin pubbin this sat with my cousins.. place? havent decide.. no mood!
*listening to SIMPLE PLAN--ADDICTED ==*
..::|| 2 love someone, u got to know to love urself 1st, but what if i tell u i hate myself? ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 6:28 AM
Friday, June 27, 2003
my birthday.. 27th june 1983
im definately not feelin very happy as time pass...
im feelin so grey now.. no, not about not gettin any greetings...
i got TONS of birthday wishes...
friends no more? really? ok, maybe they will sms later.. *prays hard*
misunderstand SUCKS!
well, at least diana's knows me the best... i didnt even tell her
anything.. but she knows.. she just give me a hug! knowin im
not feelin good now.. n trust me, she is liked any ij girls
like us! knowin wat to do, wat not to do.. when to give a hug
when i needed it!
i have ALOT OF PLANS after school~ but im not excited..
i tot i let it all go.. but hyan said, is easier said than done...
ok, dun wish to say much.. im really feelin grey now...
..::|| nothing wins over a short sms from u ||::..
THANKS BABES! THANKS for organising such a PERFECT birthday party
for us!THANKS for the EVERYTHING u all have done! esp ZHEN!
is really very very sweet!! n not forgetin sher, shin, pau, jess, gek, charm, sheilla, este n dc!! *love u all every single bit no matter how far we go! or how less we show it out!* n
OF COZ! that twin of mine! JOOE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U TOO! *love u 2 no matter how many years later!* THANKS for the hugo deep red perfume u all got for me! THANKS for the BIG
PRETTY BIRTHDAY BALLOON!THANKS for the BAG! THANKS for the CARDS n BRACELET! THANKS ZHEN AGAIN for all the TROUBLE n DAYS u went thru for my HAPPY HOUSE
PENCILCASE!! THANKS for the MORNIN BREAKFAST when u all r starving in the
hotel room! THANKS FOR THE SURPRISING DAY! THANKS for all the HASSLES u all
have done to make it SO PERFECT! THANKS FOR ALL the HUGS u all GAVE!! lastly,
a ZILLION THANKS N HUGS TO U ALL!! i really dunno wat to say..REALLY thanks
for EACH n INDIVIDUAL to be THERE for me whenever im down or happy for
almost HALF OF MY LIFE!! i really appreciate EVERYTHING! really TOUCHED by the things u all done!
LOVE THAT FADE BUT WILL NEVER END WITH U ALL! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
aye pau... where is my pot of plant?
went down town right after sch! meet my coz mates at fountain.. nana,
rara we all! was in a big crowd.. got suan by the moment i saw that hui ge..
buey tahan him..laugh until my whole face ache.. went shoppin with rara..
while waitin for jooe to call when she reach..
durin our shoppin trip.. i really embarrass myself in the ladies! dustbin
n me.. i stole the bin to the cubicle to search my "ring"! alot of pple saw!
n i did alot of stupid things too!~! rara was shoutin outside"AYE! PEI! WHY
U BRING THE BIN TO THE TOILET?!" dunno for god sake how many times!! purposely!
than the auntie was like "who took my bin?! die liao lah~ must pay!~" than
finally i got the ring, rara shouted, PEI! Y U BRING IN BIN NEVER BRING OUT!~ aiyo~ i paisei to the extreme!~
finally i met jooe~ we were like so blur~ dunno how the day will be like~
we were guessin wat will we be stayin all these~ i jokin said hotel81~ but
guess wat.. it was at grand copthorne waterfront hotel!
zouk was SO NEAR! but the sad part was.. IT WAS REALLY LOUSY! maybe becoz
it wasnt a local dj...
went back after supper.. saw the SAN XIAN PLAYER AGAIN!! (1st time was at jie's
weddin) forced everyone to watch that with me! his solo was HARD! how he played
all these~ gek was beside me n were discussin abt how he played~
kept disturbin sheilla whether she brush her teeth liao~ slept very early that
day! first in history! n i blame that on SCHOOL!
went mornin breakfast with jooe! they planned only for us 2~ dunno gd or bad~
good was, GOT BREAKFAST!!
bad was, cant get up of bed n my hair was OVER VOLUME! 2 happy cancerians went down.. chat alot! share alot! thats good~ never got
a chance to really sit down in 2 to chat.. learned alot from her too.. both
think the same.. n definately we felt very touched..
ok~ got alot of nonsence from me AGAIN! as usual~ u see, u need to use the door card
to go up using the lift~ somehow dunno wat happen, the lift door closed n bought us to 18
floor~ (it only worked if someone press the lift from upstairs~).. we came out,
took another one.. went up all the way to the 27th floor! so paisei! laugh n laugh!
jooe suggested to use the stairs~ i said 1 more try 1st! cant be wat~! who knows~
i didnt insert in!! one try from jooe~ we r finally back to our 24th storey!~ *faint* got a great laugh! esp that ding dong joke i told!
we went home first~ daddy drove both jooe, shin n jess home~ me n jooe's
balloon was too big to go in! but ok lah~ really tired~ sis n jiefu came
right after i came home~ so tired...
but really fun n memorable for me n jooe! THANKS TO U ALL ONCE AGAIN! love u all! ===========================================================================
watch findin nemo on fri.. laugh like nobody's business... as usual, i
laughed very loud! saw some things that i shouldnt have see BEFORE GOIN IN~ told andrew n derek! but than.. they were like WASTED!!~ n all of us
think that THE GUY should AT LEAST CONTROL!! no, not about kissin in public
or huggin like stickers.. IS WORST! *shall not say here* reach home like 12am~
oh ya, n also cai yi lin (jolin) well, at least i saw her after wat i
went thru in those crowd.. i was tellin them that hopefully i wouldnt
see any pple i know in such places! so embarrassin! so old liao!~ NO!
im not a fan of HERS! i really wonder how can those pple can get so crazy
runnin n chasin n squeezin thru all these...
now diana, clara n ella are preparin my sat bbq~ think abt 40 pple comin?
*listening to JOLIN--SHOU AI NI ==*
..::|| because of the YOU, i began to know myself better.. ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 1:01 AM
Friday, June 20, 2003
im goin to let everyone know wat an auntie i actually have..
THIS IS FOR MY FUCKIN AUNTIE U DUN FUCKIN HELL ask MY MUM to DIVORCE with MY DAD just becoz U GOT HELL from him! EVERYONE KNOWS it was YOUR
FUCKIN PROBLEM! no wonder YOUR WHOLE FAMILY HATES U! no wonder
why ALL MY RELATIVES CANT GET ALONG with U! maybe is time for
u to reflect if EVERYONES THINKS THE SAME?
yes, my dad can be really mean.. THATS ONLY TO U! if not,
just EXPLAIN WHY my dad GETS ALONG SO WELL with all the 40 over
cousins?! y does MY COUSINS, UR KIDS communicate BETTER WITH HIM?
do ANYONE CARES when u fly over there? NO!! everyone will be like,
where is uncle william? where's ur dad?
is YOUR HUSBAND AS GOOD AS MY DAD?! answer... NO! U FUCKIN HELL
only HEAR those complaints from my mum.. who doesnt have complains?
so do u know those normal days? U DUNNO HOW MY DAD DOTES ON MY MUM!!
n is something U WILL NEVER GET! (must say is really very sweet.. im gald~)
where can u find a guy who is so nonsense, does ALL the HOUSE CHORES,
massage for u when aching, come to pick u up no matter where he is, cook for you
once u r hungry, brings u water, tissues, everytime u have ur 1st bite? i swear i can
find NO ONE LIKE HIM! n being so supportive even though i dun study?
always sayin, nvm lah, at most stay back another year!
im a living example! that goes the same to my mum! those who knows
me, knows i DUN DO ANYTHING AT HOME! n my dad will come immediately to fetch
me just a call..
those who actually know my dad? shin? pau? just anyone? HE IS ALWAYS
SO CRAPPY! he is really fun to be with right? n IM NOT LYING!! my whole family r all jokers! those who really speaks to my whole
family knows we r one really unique family! there is no parent-cum-child
relation.. n alot of pple r shocked about the way we speak to one another..
all the dirty jokes n nonsense..
so wat if he has tattoos? so wat if he smokes? so wat if his hair
is purple or ash brown?! I WAS THE ONE WHO ENCOURAGE HIM TO DYE SUCH
COLORS! u got a problem with that?!
FUCKIN HELL LEAVE MY MUM ALONE! u knows VERY WELL U
MADE ME LOST MY 2ND SISTER n MY BROTHER!! my mum is still upset
over so many years!!! n DUN FUCKIN HELL GO AROUND ASKIN PPLE TO DIVORCE just becoz YOU cant GET ALONG with OTHER PPLE!
n fuckin idiot! u made me say so much vulgarities! now u all can
see how pissed off i am! till now, no one can force me to say
the F word.. (dun mean abt jokes) no one messes with my family
members except me! so dun u try to bring him down by ur words!
wow~ im really shocked when my mum told
me abt wat divorce stuff.. something like that.. to think i said this...
"mum, no matter wat u decided to do, i will be behind to
support u. u sure to have ur own reasons.. i wouldnt prompt,
i wouldnt give advice but will listen when u wish to share with us(me n jie)
i respect every decision u make, u r old enough to think.
n i will still love u in the end"
than my mum was like, NONO!! LISTEN 1ST!~ *story goes on...*
WOW!! I WAS SO ANGRY!! who is she to ask my mum to divorce with my dad?!
god!~ there is totally no linkage to it!~ just because during the
weddin day my auntie mess it all up?? n my dad had some agruments with
her?! CHILDISH!
at least now, im calm down.. n to think i was thinkin y out of a
sudden my mum wants to leave my dad? when he never do anything?
IM SO BLUR!!~
but still angry about her back stabbin my dad! he is so nice lor..
ok lah~ dun tok abt the quarrellin part with him.. he can be
really fierce!! other than that he is perfect!
*listening to NAS--I CAN ==*
..::|| mess with me, and trust me, U WILL GET IT.. ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 3:27 AM
Which Song describes your love life?(pics) brought to you by Quizilla ya im in sch now~ a total of like 10 pple here?
sister weddin was last sun! so much fun n jokes goin on~~ my uncles n aunties~ my cousins, nieces n nephews.....
went MS [seven] on fri~ mostly techno~ didnt drink nor smoke~ hong said i really change! =) *smile widely* went to dance~
of coz~ i got to know slam dunk! he is so hilarious!! his thai boxin
n his smile trademark~~ my idol too!! of coz there is lots of stories
behind to be my idol lah! got him to be my "da jie"! haha!
remember there is quite alot for me to blog~ but i just cant remember~ but of coz, the whole process of the wedding was fun~ n im so much
experience in this field!~ got to tell them wat happen next~ *hao lian*
got shin, hyan n pau to the dinner~ SORRY GUYS~ got to wait till is my
turn huh? they saw my dad~~ he went crazy with the "yum seng" but is
really fun huh? my family very siao one~ all the relatives n pple~
called shin in the mornin on tuesday! just to tell her i was excited to been
"blown away" by the strong wind! (rainin heavily on tues?) coz my size havin
to lose control by the wind is something that will never happen to me!! ok im crazy~
dyin to eat the sakae sushi eel stuff~~ hm... n my babes just went not long ago!!~
but im havin my project... dumb... of coz, *i miss him every single bit* ha~ =)
thought of fen they all also.. really miss them alot... really alot...
will be celebrating my early bd with my babes on the 21st~ overnight!~ dunno
wats happenin too~ n another on the 26 n 27!!~ with my poly clique~ rara got her dad too book a bbq pit! n goin to [madmonks] the day b4!~ coz i
still perfer les night!~ will need to call sher they all~ n before charm fly off
to dunno which country~~
saw my ex's classmates... we walked together to sch.. the chatting part?
quite weird.. maybe i dunno them well enough bah~ heard that they workin in sch?
ok, didnt get that part clear~ but seeing them makes me think of him too!..
i do miss roy.. n feng as well? weird.... miss all the fun~ just miss...
ok, wouldnt know when i will blog again~ so do icq me k? im always in front of
my computer in sch~~
*listening to XIN YUAN TUAN--YI LIAO BAI LIAO==*
..::|| is the longin of seeing you makes me feel my love grew fonder for u...||::..
summarise these past few days.. got diana her surprise present! everyone got a hug from her!
she gave me a demin hand carry bag! n i really LOVED IT! been carryin it to sch
for the past few days! as u all know i have not much bags~
im so happy to have her as my partner~ we can click so well.. we do everything
together~ go toilet, find teacher, buy food... just like myan n i~
clara also another one~ early in the mornin msg me,"may we have ur attention pls, for
your own safety, pls stand behind the yellow line, pls stand behind the yellow line, thank u"
a crappy girl... knowin her cashcard has expires, still ask me to check, scare the librarian
bluff her??! [go 2 the side of my web, u can check cashcard expires] n how she say
this person.. diana wasnt there! make me rush out of the lab to laugh my lungs out!
n everyone force me to play neopets! say wat i outcast~ hmm... *sob*
went to watch [how 2 lose a guy in 10days] with jie n jiefu.. so touchin~ but of coz,
jiefu n i laugh very loud!! n jie was like, really so funny meh? how come both of us laugh
so loud? [those who know me, i laugh really easily, so does my jiefu!] hm... i miss hong
laughin loudly together with me.. pek pek also! we all miss pek pek's laughter!! really
miss his nonsense...
have a sudden outing with my ij babes.. where? to esplanade library to "looked" refined n
"cultured" the librarian have know me so well! everytime got questions to ask them! couldnt
learn my piano~ that day~ someone usin the room.. hai~
zhen n everyone was lookin for some "cat" scores? while jessica n i was like listenin to
avril's song.. enjoyin ourselves.. poor guys... HAHA~ didnt really spot that woman's face
was used as the wallpaper! shock! remember those days we went for concerts, how i kept laughin
to HIM about her "cat" hair n will always remember how her earrings kept blinding me! ya, shin
saw HIM just the other day.. got abit happy to hear abt him..
went all over to look for my accessoirs~ ended up, got a pair of earrings for diana.. coz she dun have danglings ones... she looked so nice with it!
find a place to chat about sch stuff... so many funny things i cant even remember too! n that jessica! kept embarrassin me when she saw that photo in my card holder.. kept sayin, aye
dun change topic~ dun change topic~ really dunno how she saw it! showed it to her when
we went home first.. she was like who is he? well, wait till things get abit settle down first..
hee.. shall not reveal so much.. =)
will be really busy this week! not goin to sch too!! yaya! relatives gathering!! cousins coming
over to singapore! all the fun! so will not be bloggin this week! will meet u all on the 21st!
lastly,
although i got to know u less than a month, but we really click very well! thanks for
the everything u have shared with me! all the laughters, secrets, gossips, nonsense...
is more than i could ever wished for! thanks for listenin abt my misunderstandin friendship with
HER they all.. ah~ JUST THANKS FOR THE EVERYTHING!!
*listening to KCI AND JOJO--ALL MY LIFE ==*
..::|| tHere wAs nOthIng tO saY tHe dAy yOu lEft,I hEld a sUitcAse fUll
Of RegRets, i Held a TaxI in The rAin, WaItIng fOr sOmethIng to Ease tHe PaIn. ||::..
SHIN! it was [must be the money] not pass me the money!!~ just realise it~ must tell cheng
ya, alot of pple went to path A.. pek pek, hazel... well,
ok~ 2 pple who i can get along so well is bad enough~saddening...
when madmonks yesterday~ charm is back from canada~ had alot of fun...esp with cheng around! we saw 2 pple really
gross us out~ than imitate them on the dancefloor.. ah DUMB!! but im still comfortable dancing with all girls around... (NO, IM not les~)
is the body contact~
gossip so much on PEOPLE WE DUN KNOW!!! we even know they broke off
all these.. so stupid....
yap! didnt drink or smoke~ im so proud! really~ took night rider home..
thank god hong was there to chat with me thru it... (sms lah~)
reach home at about 3am... mum was like naggin? 1st time!! coz is jie's
dunno wat traditional thingy stuff tomolo? so?? i got sch on saturdays too
lor! i wouldnt be there too! if i can come home so late, i got the abilities to go
sch so early.. ah.. long stories... now im not even tokin to both of my parents!!
im now in sch... sleep at 330am.. woke up at 7am.. ok, stardard enough... im well trained! goin town later with rara..will be goin to pubbin at seven next FRI!! N IM NOT COMIN SCH ON SAT!! will be takin off on monday!!~ so im kinda excited because there will be no sch 4 me!!~
..::|| i still miss you alot! yet i misses this present more... ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 10:04 AM
sorry guys~ didnt really been bloggin~ really busy with my sch stuff!~ esp these 2 weeks~
sis gettin married too! i pass all modules!! ok, as usual, im the CDs QUEEN!! will not be changin any path or some stupid things i got to go thru... so will stick with diana
till the end! yaya!! so lucky to have her as my partner too... or else i sian sian...
in fact, im really lucky to have myan, pek pek, diana, derek, clara to chat, lunch, toilet n misc stuff...
of coz, now i seldom meet tequila n myan liao~ diff labs.. of coz, our new group of friends getting
bigger n bigger... all very noisy also!! like me..
diana's birthday comin soon! (my project partner) she's really nice.. can really click very well
with her.. tok alot of things with her today too.. my stuff, her stuff..
bei bei.. realised is spelled as pek pek... paisei~ pei's haiyu pinyin isnt "that" good afterall!
he very funny lor... i kept disturbin him.. he did a quiz, about some "wat type of panties are u?" result was a "side tied thong" with wat easy access things? diana n i laugh so loud! n he was laughin at me when
max was tokin to me "thru" my window? lip reading.... really dun understand why he laugh??
in fact, i think the whole lab belongs to us.... we just shout across the lab... where other pple is
like SO QUIET!! oh ya, promise pek pek im supposed to make his name move....
saw kim today~ ya, waitin for teck.. *shockin* tok to he n yan on the bridge.. about some irritating things that happen!! GOD!! HE was at bugis yesterday... ok, infor was told by kim. nono!! i didnt stalk him! hm..
sound like i did~
n also~ u all can look for me in icq!! i will be there from mornin
830am to 5pm -- monday to friday
830am to 2pm -- saturday
hai~ i miss every single one of u all!!
been bloggin for almost a year~ never let everyone know this web of mine...
only to u all (ij babes) n some really close poly friends.. maybe less than 5?
hai~ sch tomolo is SURFIN ONLINE AGAIN!!
..::|| i know u are worth it ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 2:31 AM
How into tattoos are you? ok, so i make u 2 times sick!
im really so exhausted... both physically n mentally....
i hate being in year 3.. result will be out on the 3rd.
all the best to me. didnt go sch on sat.. must be the class
outin the day b4.. went home abt 150am..
bought alot of stuff these weekend! SO HAPPY! kok's sis
really quite pretty!
ok, didnt get to go [yum cha] AGAIN! ended up lookin for those channel u's
recommendations while daddy n mummy go look for their stuff.. ate so many things i never eat
before! jie n i runnin around chasin each other... while michael was holdin our stuff.. *idiots*
loved those "cultural shop" in chinatown.. all the weird n nice stuff that can never spot
in town are all there! jie said,"u need to rich in order to be cultural" michael n i *nodded fierously* than meet the parents n off we go... mum said something to me.. *shall not reveal* =)
suppose to RENT mummy's gown..(never know can rent~)
but is so ex! $160 for 3days. n best part, it was more like for "gei tai"..
so went to [celia loe, scotts] to BUY one.. (rather than to rent one....) so much cheaper!
is only like $249? n mummy so ELEGANT! n SOPHISTCATED! i cant find another mum
that looked like that! tall, slim, n LONG LEGS!!
me?? was forced to try them on.. my god! i looked SO GU NIANG! so girl!! i must admit i found it not bad on me, but im not used to see myself in gown!
i will take alot of pictures to show u all! did some alterations.. will get it on fri or sat...
spent a total of $430+ (after discount) all i need now is shawl n shoes!
baked rice or eel sushi? ended up...
went [nydc] for my "romeo n juliet" coz [sakae sushi] need to queue~
went to this [exotic shop].. took me like few mins to realise
that whole shelf was "woman's use" GOSH! im scare.. REALLY! is SO HUGE! ok, shall not comment.. but shin! im bringin u to THAT shop! not that lucky plaza one..
lao shi called me.. tok alot.. suddenly i saw cat choo with this ger... must say, she has became one
yandao butch... coz, from far, i tot which guy.. blonde hair..
legs aching~ will watch "ju-on" !!! yaya~ so scary~
..::|| still with that love, things did not change for me ||::.. justme's unforbidden words at 1:11 AM
Monday, June 30, 2003
