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   .to releaase ur forbidden desires.
      .to explore the forbidden pleasures.
         .to indulge in this mystique forbidden night."
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   Monday, March 31, 2003
Punky gothic stick figure
you're seriously morbid and somewhat depressed..you
like the dark and anything that has to do with
darkness and blood..you rock


How dark is your personality?
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i finally got my archive done!
and my alert done! arent you proud of PEI? am i smart?!

all thanks to hyan huh?! shall not say huh? between
u n me huh? say my bjork very satanic.. u pig!
ya. went to do my eyebrow~ results..dun say liao~

was doin my webbie when kok icq me. is been so long.
tok abt the oversea attachment. ask my parents abt
goin to germany. 4-5 mths i think? my dad. being
so spontanous abt it. my mum. anything, as long
u are happy abt it. than when everyone are back in
the room. my dad? came in a couples of times sayin
if can dun go than dun lah. me? of coz i want to
fly out!!


dilemma. sis wedding or germany? both of them doesnt
come twice
. sis will be damn disappointed if i tell
her. we r just too connected. beside that, i will
develop homesick or "friendsick" easily~ of coz i
will just act strong! i dun show out easily~ but
i dread of that feeling everytime im in overseas...
hmm... hard decision n hard opportunities...

can u just tell me wat to do? i will listen to u.


*listening to BEYOND--LOVE ==*
*today's mood: super depress!~~*


..::|| Everytime U left me
thinking whether U worth all my attentions... However
... the answer alwaz come back in the way tt I alwaz
tot it wld be...YES!||::..



   Saturday, March 29, 2003
your not a hoe
you're not a hoe...


Am i a hoe?(girls)
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sch today starts at 4pm! our lab teacher said, who dare to
sing in the amplifier i will give them a grad up!
wow~
huge temptation!!
only a few sings... the rest too paisei
the girls? only 4 of us sings!! after that i really felt
SO EMBARRASS! just so paisei lor!
dunno why also? just
kept my face down after singin! hong said nvm lah! own
classmate. to think i sang the song i hate most! [xiao wei]!
all thanks to min coz i only remember that lyrics! she
always sing them! i listen to english song only lor...
maybe is time to listen some chinese songs...
aye~ tink abt it, i love sun yan zi's wo bu nan guo!

went with ah hong n min to [lau pa sat] after our nite
class
! waited for yoke over there. she has really become
prettier...
we ate like a pig! satay,rojak,popian,wu xiang,
carrot cake.. chat alot! yoke so sweet lor. still will
ask how is her ex
.still can be so happy tokin abt his
tshirt~. i like wat she said. i like the old him. i dun deny
i wasnt thinkin of my ex too. i will still smile thinkin
about him everynow n than
. in fact that day, somehow
everyone was tokin abt their ex..
made me think even more....

ok sher,shin n gek came to pick me up! so touch~ gek first
line.. *WOW SHE LOOKED LIKE YOU!* she meant ah hong..
yap, quite alot of pple said that.. even my mum.
anyway

-=]HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERISSE[=-


hope u enjoy ur nite with us!!!

went with them to [madmonks]. expect to see tons of pple
there.. but i guess its the SARS thingy~ got alot of laughter!
didnt went dancin.. just outside chillin..

gek n elson went to confront this girl.. my god~ gek is like
so DA JIE DA!
she just walked up to that girl n said, can
tok somewhere esle anot
? and we so kapo? called her n ask her
to hold her hp so we can on our phone speaker to listen!
nokia technology!~ speaker phone! of coz with gek, we
won that fight.. she so expert in debating~~

went to [selegie kopitiam] to tok more.. zhen that gp
sat in alex car. our gp took cabbies. jean. my new friend.
we reach there n i saw a couple of celebrities there..
n elson.. she really funny! tokin abt the process of
that dispute..

came home at 530+am?! better than last fri~ so
early i reach home~


*listening to EVANESCENCE--BRING ME TO LIFE ==*
*today's mood: body aching~~*


..::|| It's time to say
fare-well,No need to cry or feeling sorrow.It's alright,
all in the book of life... ||::..



   Friday, March 28, 2003
Dumb Blonde O_O;;
So... your a blonde. :D


So... what color should your hair really be?
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a really seriously bad day today.
when home to late yesterday n didnt have enough sleep.
came to sch feeling so aarrghh... my concentration is
to its minimum... came home n slept for 6 hours! 6-12am!
pei is such a piggy! well, the fact is, I AM!

heard that one girl in nursing got SARS.. my 1st tot was
fen. esp her att place.. kinda worried for her coz
she is exposed more than any of us... hmm.. i do miss her.
i miss fen, mic, john, kok. but hai~~
I JUST MISS U GUYS!!
dun say liao~
sometimes i want to tell how much i miss them..
but again... maybe nah.. dunno how to say too.
anyway!!
heard a total of 3 girls from different coz got it.
why all the girls? immune system not that strong?

honestly.. i really dun feel any danger of it~ although
it will cause death but i just dun feel the life
threatenin goin on..


hmm.. wat kind of mind set am i havin here??!!


*listening to SARAH CONNOR--SKIN ON SKIN ==

MUST DOWNLOAD! RECOMMENDED!

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*today's mood: giddy*


..::||Courage is what it takes
to stand up and speak.Courage is also what it takes to
sit down and listen. ||::..



   Thursday, March 27, 2003


took a LONG time to get up~ 2hrs! when sch
for a 2hr math lecture ONLY! finish sch like 12pm? seem like all
the lecturers in nyp have some seminar to attend~

my darling kaeden didi sent me a really meaninful sms... i really
like it alot
. IM SAVING IT!! thanks kaeden!!

suppose to go bugis for seoulgarden but... last min changes.. so
ended up i went to seklim hse~ from 1230 to like 330..3 hrs~ saw kim
too! but never got to tok much coz he is leavin for sch! showed sek
some video n pics taken from my cam. tok alot of stuff too! felt
SO MUCH BETTER! really thanks to him.. shall not reveal much here!
will make me feel sad now... hai~ i miss her so much.

walk to min's hse from there. she lived on the 12th floor n i went to
the 10th floor n shout her name outside the unit! how embarrassin!
*slap head*

met hong at amk mrt. she late! 4pm... supposed to meet yan at 4 in town!
n we were at amk!! went to eat at N.Y.D.C!! min n i was CRAVING SO MUCH
on their baked rice
!! n my hp.. *1 message received* opening....
"aye babe! wat will you be doin today?"* sender: 88899.. (*hub internet sms)
i was like.. WHO THE HELL IS THIS??! guess who? is that "bullshit yuen"
(new nick just given!)

yan told me she feel so proud of me! coz i only bought hair dye!!
guys, me not dyin blueblack anymore! it will be BLACK! and
i managed to resist all that temptation!! sat at starbucks. from 745 to
1030pm!! got so much to chat! so much laughter!!
look at those fit guys
with all that bulgin lump all over their body.. some so gross.. some
still ok... i still perfer guys that are normal n so called "not fit"
tok abt weight, hair, looks.. as normal... GIRLS!~ esp min's sec sch nickname!
liao=her surname, n she used to be plump. her nick? FEI LIAO!! we burst our
laughin!! n how upset i got when things seem looser at the wrong place~
ahh...

guess wat? saw MISS FOO LEH!! at that time of the night! she cant recongise
me!! i was there smilin "cheekly" at her.. until i said, miss foo~ she
there..AHHHH PEI!!! *hugging*

missfoo, y so late still in town? no sch?
me, wow lao~ pri,sec n jc no sch lor! y poly got?! so unfair hor!
missfoo, aiya will close soon lah!!
me, hopefully leh!!
missfoo, aye u lost alot of weight hor?
me, no lah!! is u too long never see me!
missfoo, ur mummy know u here anot? got call home tell her?
me, pls leh! i 19 liao leh! u still think im that pri 3 girl u used to know?
missfoo, haha, ya lah! so hiao now~ ok lah~ goin to go *bucks.
CAUSE I NO SCHOOL TOMOLO!!
me, aye!! aarrghh............


yan first line, aye u very close with ur teacher hor? i guess it is
the tradition we carry.. the bondin with teachers.. the gift exchange
for NO occasion? the generousity in everyone, huggings n reflections...
everyone is just so open to one another..

i can already see some ex-ij gals nodding their heads.. but well....
there will always be changes as a new chaper begins..

MADMONKS ON THIS COMING FRIDAY?? ANY ONE JOININ US???
and
MADAM WONGS ON THIS COMING SATURDAY??
let me know k?


*listening to SUN YAN ZI--WO BU NAN GUO ==*
*today's mood: curious?~~*


..::|| Why be mainstream . . . life is
good in the underground ||::..



   Tuesday, March 25, 2003
orange


Your Sexual Energy is Orange!
Your sensuality is flashy, energetic, and in your face.
You draw attention to yourself without even trying.
You are 100% sexy, and people respect you for it.

While you are incredibly seductive, you don't wear your raw sexuality.
You keep all your most carnal urges inside, and no one's the wiser...
Well, except for a select few :-)

Your talent is working your date for a long time before you actually give into sex.
You love that first look, that first kiss, that first touch...
After hours of bliss, you'll finally take your date back to your place.

Spice up your sex life by owning your sexuality - and flaunting it!
How about some public exposure, or some bathroom play?
Just add in some wild creativity and your fun will be tripled!

Britney Spears and Cameron Diaz are perfect examples of orange sexual energy.

Look out for people with brown, gray, and red sexual energies - they are perfect for you.

What Color is Your Sexual Energy?

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bought accessories AGAIN!! another chain
collection to my hand!~ bought a blood red nail polish.. my mummy??
aiyo!! u got like 20 over nail polish u still buy?! but pure red leh!

in 15 mins time is both my mum and shin's sister bd~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U TWO!!



for the FIRST TIME, i was TRAPPED IN THE LIFT!! with hong
and yan of coz~ n 2 other pple.. ended up we made friends with
that malay guy~ haha~ hong was so scare? because we got trapped?
while i n yan were like enjoyin ourself? takin pictures n video
cam... haha~ the malay guy was like want to laugh but cannot
laugh?? poor thing~

everyone was sweatin like siao.. we were in there like more than
half an hour? offer my HUGE TISSUE to everyone~ finally this
ah pek came to open the lift door? but we were in between 4 to 5
floor.. got to crawl up leh! kanna hit on the head~ cause im
the first~

manage to put upload EVERYPHOTO TAKEN!! both video cam and
dig cam!
phef~ all thanks to yan's brother!! took like 100
over pictures in yan hse
??? very fun!! but delete alot too!!~

and my pierce lip too! haha! yan n hong reaction~ so funny!!

*listening to AALIYAH--TRY AGAIN ==*
*today's mood: SHITTY~~*


..::|| Jack of all trades, Master of none. ||::..



   Sunday, March 23, 2003
Straight
You are Straight--You're either here to take the
quiz for fun or you're getting your feelings
mixed up. You like the hot dog, not the cat.


What kind of Lesbian are you?
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gek ask me out after my nite class. SO EXCITED!! reach
town abt 1010pm? saw ms ang there too! she was like wow so happening? gek n i
got so much to tok while walkin to lido.. both of us was like so kapo lookin at
a couple quarrelling.. n i wantin to go near them~

so much laughter between us~ keep showing my henna tattoo to her..
she showed me her REAL new cancer tattoo! pushing, jokes n so much more..
we ending up goin to fisherman village?? took the mrt to pasir ris. guess wat?
not if shin called, we wouldnt have know that we took the BOON LAY WAY!!
quickly light off at redhill. is definately eerie there!! esp tt empty hdb flat facin us..

study on our way there. ended up? we TOT we took the wrong train again!!
cause i saw that expo~ but nah~ took a cab down to the PA chalet there. miss
that place
.. esp those pple that stay with me a year ago. try not to tok and
think abt it, a hard struggle indeed
. met the rest there. ate alot!! gek paid
most of my expense!! so guilty!
only have $10!! well, im tight nowadays!
anyway she work so hard, i there spent so much! feel real bad.. even for
the cab fare.. we also want to quarrel~ guess its just US!!

took photos.. n my dig cam keep dyin on me!! no batt~ cant buy coz only
specialise shop sells. even if have, i wouldnt buy too. coz is EX!!
no one
believes i dunno how to play 21.. dun understand the pic card n ace thing?
ah who cares.. while goin home with them.. gek tryin to imitate alex n cindy
kept touchin my butt! than i was there, "si xiang! why so hurry.." than she
kept doin it, i kept saying, lao wang, bu yao lah~ haha~ it was really funny.

those who know us.. will understand wat im tokin abt!!

reach home abt 230am? quite early.. didnt know alex was SO RICH! house at
town area, she drives a merc, still got 1 bmw n jaguar, 2 dunno wat cars??
cant remember?? n her gf invite me to go 4 her chalet. kinda funny coz i
dunno her well but will b goin of coz! gek we all r invited be there too!!
getting to know more new friends... im happy!!

tok to shin n gek abt how i miss those friends in CO..
how i was sooo misunderstood how much i want to explain.. there
is more than it meets the eye
but as i said, i wasnt EVEN given a chance
to explain. luckily still have weifeng, seklim, kimann & ah tuck they allor esle i will
sure cry like crazy!
gek was askin whether i still got contact him. but nope.. like got nothin to tok?
unless he is wilson or benjamin.. as i said, it is over, but not the missing part..


*listening to AALIYAH--BACK AND FORTH ==*
*today's mood: full~~*


..::|| Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart ||::..



not bisexual


Nope. Definitely not bisexual. Thank you for trying ;)
Although you only like to eat one kind of meat,
that doesn't mean you are any less of a sexual gourmand.
You just choose only the finest of dicks/breasts
(whichever strikes your particular gender's fancy)
and enjoy them with the style and panache that ideally suits you.

Are *You* Bisexual? Click Here to Find Out!

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okok~ im back to the square1~
my new blog? ahh... big problem, huge problem!!
it seems that the archieve isnt working somehow?
can any one help me with this?? u will be very much
appreciated by me! just send me someone!!!~ ahh...

hm.. life is abit hectic recently...
common test, projects, specialisation, oral presentation,
quizzes, drivin, sis dinner, wedding, photo taking, outings,
music, my web etc....
AH DUN WANT TO THINK ABT IT~

my dad just came in my room n said," wat happen to you?
becomin indian?" coz i got henna on my ankle n hand, n listenin
to [mudian to bach ke by panjabi mc] at the same time...
hm... is jus coincidence lah~

im in a serious dilemma noW!! AMERICAN IDOL? CHANNEL 8 or CHANNEL U??
god!! do they have to put every great show in the prime timin.???!

got a great time at marketing today~ first was tuck's
caricature of kang kang~ it was SO ANNOYING!! but it was really funny~
second was the derek's blurness of dying his hair!!~ he didnt wear
gloves! ended up his nails? black black!! cant wash off! haha!
thirdly was my marketin sir, he was sayin abt [the bachelor] there
will be a new one [the bachelette] n was sayin they were really
good in terms of using words.. unless they called it [the
SPINSTER]
?? i burst out laughin!

derek n i was tokin abt my dear louie again~
haha anyway louis is always so cute n bubbly! it will
definately brighten my day~ haha so cute n funny! esp when spoken to
me in chinese! n that smile!! really sweet till can melt..
[seem like my ex-royston.. hmm..3 words, i miss him.] anyway got to
meet louie to pass the SO BELATED VDAY candies!! we just got no time
to exchange!~ =)

tok abt the sweets... hong said abt the [long she tang] some chinese candy,
she remembered that time i forced everyone to wait together with me to
pass to it to my stead. *guilty* and she said i was really sweet. me bought
[ting ting tang] my gosh! i shouldnt get it lor~ stuck in my teeth, my
rubberband, my braces~~~~~

really lookin forward this wed.. we will be goin to bugis seoulgarden.
im been eating n sleepin real good this week! wat a piggy~
i have definately gain a few pounds!

*listening to EMINEM--SUPERMAN ==*
*today's mood: sleepy~~*


..::|| we can Give without Loving but can never
Love without Giving. n i love giving~||::..



   Friday, March 14, 2003

What element are you in control of?

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ok guys~ i know is been really DECADES~~~~
ya~ im workin on my new webbie's skin~
is more or less done~~~

well at least im 80% happy with it!~
now i got to settle about the photos being able
to load in~~ hai~
ya got another digital cam!! coz video cam is FAR
TOO HEAVY!!!
n this digital cam is like lighter
than my nokia handphones!!!!

called zhen today~
talk to her about my poly problems.... n stuff~
well THANKS ZHEN!!! LOVE U SO MUCH!

oh ya~ i pass all my drivin thoery~ need to apply
for my PDL.. i will get a licence by this year! thats good!
after for gods-know-how-long i took~

n my braces~ dr tan said i can remove them~
fast huh? less than a year! than suddenly he
was askin whether im interested to "pull out" my
wisdom tooth [in the sense not PLUCK OUT~] but
straighten them~ so guess wats the conclusion?
i will remove the top braces, n the bottom will stay
for ANOTHER 2 YEARS!!! MY GOD!! I WILL BE 21
BY THAN!!
is so long!!!!!

i miss so many pple~
especially these pple....

lifen,
michelle,
my ex-benjamin.


these are the pple which i also want to explain.
i just miss them SO MUCH!
i want to give them a call like right now?!
but sometimes things just dun go my way~

well there is SO MUCH TO BLOG~~
on SHIN,
on PAU,
on HONG,
on HYAN,
on MY MUM n SIS!!~

well i will continued soon~~



   Monday, March 03, 2003
occasionally horny



You Are Occasionally Horny


Sex? You don't see what the big deal is all about.

You like to make love on occasion with the right men.

But all of this talk about threesomes, porn, and being tied up? You don't think so.

You're a true romantic.

What makes you horny is simply talking and getting to know someone.

If you are clicking with them, then the sexual ideas will creep in.

You can't get yourself to think about having sex with a stranger.

Unless he's Brad Pitt, of course.
How Horny Are You?

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aye guys.. me will stop bloggin for
this 2 weeks or so...

1st is now is term break. 2nd is next next week is my common test week.
n also i need shin's help to change my blog. so i will resume my daily
report by than k?! *enforcin pressure on shin*

as for the quiz. i have tons of it here. i will upload them at
a place so all the quizzes r "thrown" there.

AND CHECK THE ALBUM!! IS FINALLY UPLOAD TOO!!

and CENTRO anyone this comin tues? 4/03/03

if there is anything, call me on any of my hp numbers. or email
me at peipei@fcuk-me.co.uk


LOVE U ALL! *hugs n kisses*

*listening to EMINEM--SUPERMAN ==*
*today's mood: feelin hiao~*


..::||If you are patient in a moment
of anger, you will escape a hindred days of sorrow. ||::..